Thanks everyone I think one of the biggest conflicts I am having is that it looks like baby a is healthy. We will obviously know for sure when we get the full report. I am just not really sure how to feel. I am so sad and upset but also god willing I still have one healthy baby. I just don't know how I am supposed to feel and deal with that.
You feel whatever it is that hits you. You hope, you mourn, you cry, you scream, you hit things, you try to find something to make yourself smile. Nothing you do right now is wrong.
Please be good to yourself. I'm so sorry.
Also, if you want to read a personal experience, keep reading. Otherwise stop here.
When I was going through something similar, I had conflicting emotions as well. and a lot of guilt for having them. Was I supposed to hope for Baby B to make it, or was it kinder that he didn't. Was it selfish of me to even think that? Was I supposed to focus on baby A? How was I supposed to be excited and sad and angry at the same time? It sucked. It sucks. I hope you are hanging in there.
"You. You and your crazy life. You and your geographic anomaly. You and your drunken lesbianic ways and terrible navigational skills." - ProfArt and her holy baby
Post by missmaddie on Mar 28, 2013 20:58:51 GMT -5
I would imagine how you feel about it will change moment to moment, so please know you can share here as it changes. Sometimes that might help you process it as you try and put it into words.
And by process "it" I don't mean this entire awful situation, nobody expects you to be able to process all of that yet, but "it" being your feelings at that moment.
Fuck. I think my clarification is even more confusing, so let's stick with this: (Hugs)