Also I know this makes me a baby but I hate that H has to work late at least one night a week. He finished teaching his class a month ago but still has shit going on at work all the time. I am so tired of coming home with two kids and doing the adjustment back home, dinner, baths and bedtime all by myself. I know this is life blah blah. And it isn't like H is out drinking beer with the guys. I am just cranky about it lol. The after work time has the potential to be miserable with two parents. But with one it is pretty much always miserable. Mostly it is hard because Leo and Jack are so different. They eat different things, bath at different times, go to bed at different times.
Post by walterismydog on May 1, 2013 8:22:54 GMT -5
Good luck, missusbee.
Why would anyone want gloves that they have to remove by cutting off? I'm so confused.
it's fucking snowing here again. FUCK YOU MOTHER NATURE. Hopefully this is the last one of the season. I shouldn't complain, we need the moisture, but GOD. Over it!
It may be back on with the guy. He called me and apologized for being out of touch claiming he was busy, so I agreed to meet up with him. He was incredibly sweet and I could definitely tell he felt bad. I gave him a sufficient amount of shit. He said I was "a very special woman" and that he didn't want to lose that and he wants to take it to the next level, whatever that means. So I'm going to see what happens, but not get so heart-eyed this time. I learned a valuable lesson - don't get so wuuuvvvvyyy doveyyy right off the bat. It was only four days that I didn't hear from him. That's like, not even close to a big deal in the grand scheme. So we will see. Cautious optimism?
PP hormones are a bitch. i just bawled my eyes out watching an episode of Boy Meets World about how kids grow up too fast and this time is just going to fly by. like big, awful tears all over the baby who was laying on me.
I have swinging moods this week and it is driving me crazy. Fucking PMS. Like Monday I was deeply unhappy (lol). Yesterday I yo-yo'd all day. This morning I am super happy. But it probably won't last, right?
I freaking love new car smell.
We are out of frog food. If I forget to go buy some, my frogs will slowly starve to death. I mean, I will, but for some reason that is a huge fear of mine. Just forgetting to feed them. I used to have hamsters. i took good care of them. But for some reason I have recurring dreams about finding a cage with a dead or almost dead hamster in it and realizing I have forgotten I had them and forgot to feed them.
PP hormones are a bitch. i just bawled my eyes out watching an episode of Boy Meets World about how kids grow up too fast and this time is just going to fly by. like big, awful tears all over the baby who was laying on me.
lol.
I was watching that one too, it is emotional! Especially for a new mom.
My grandfather passed away after 10 years of Alzheimer's on Easter and the services will be in June. DH and I are planning to go for the entire weekend partly for the funeral and kind of a "goodbye" of sorts. My family used to spend summers there and were very close with my grandparents. We haven't been there since they had to be moved to an assisted living home about 10 years ago except when my grandmother died. I did all the research on hotels etc and sent it to everyone in case they wanted to do the same. SIL emailed back "We just booked our room and [bro] put in for bereavement leave. So excited!!!"
My mom was copied on the email. I just want to slap SIL sometimes. This isn't Disney World, this is mourning my grandfather you stupid douche.
I have swinging moods this week and it is driving me crazy. Fucking PMS. Like Monday I was deeply unhappy (lol). Yesterday I yo-yo'd all day. This morning I am super happy. But it probably won't last, right?
I freaking love new car smell.
We are out of frog food. If I forget to go buy some, my frogs will slowly starve to death. I mean, I will, but for some reason that is a huge fear of mine. Just forgetting to feed them. I used to have hamsters. i took good care of them. But for some reason I have recurring dreams about finding a cage with a dead or almost dead hamster in it and realizing I have forgotten I had them and forgot to feed them.
I am such a fucking weirdo.
Papie, I have the same kind of dreams about a parakeet I had growing up. Weird.
My grandfather passed away after 10 years of Alzheimer's on Easter and the services will be in June. DH and I are planning to go for the entire weekend partly for the funeral and kind of a "goodbye" of sorts. My family used to spend summers there and were very close with my grandparents. We haven't been there since they had to be moved to an assisted living home about 10 years ago except when my grandmother died. I did all the research on hotels etc and sent it to everyone in case they wanted to do the same. SIL emailed back "We just booked our room and [bro] put in for bereavement leave. So excited!!!"
My mom was copied on the email. I just want to slap SIL sometimes. This isn't Disney World, this is mourning my grandfather you stupid douche.
I'm sorry about your grandfather Wow, I can't believe your SIL wrote that.. what was she thinking???
MH said that his childhood cat (who lives with my FIL) was limping around and acting weird these past few days. He helped his dad schedule a vet appointment today, but the cat is about 17 so I'm not anticipating good news.
MH and his late mother adopted the cat together, and the cat's been FIL's only real companion since MIL died 10 years ago (we spend time with FIL but he lives alone and doesn't really have any friends), so they're both really going to feel it once the cat goes. I'm hoping the vet can do something for her but I'm also trying to be realistic.
This is going to be whiny so I apologize in advance.
I'm halfway through DH's 8 day business trip and I'm not handling this one well. The babies are teething and sleeping like shit so I'm getting maybe 3-4 hours of sleep a night. I. am. so. tired.
And we had lunch with my parents yesterday and I'm really sad that they live as far away as they do. And still upset that they moved 2 hours away when I was pg. I realize this is irrational and childish but I am.
I'm so tired. I'm trying to focus on work but all I really want to do is go to bed for a week. Which I know isn't healthy... Being someone's only support and confidant is overwhelming and hard.
My three-YO nephew broke his femur yesterday in a fall on the playground. SIL was posting updates from the ER -- he has to get a huge cast around his pelvis & both legs, plus he was in traction so the bone could be set. She said he was still smiling at everyone who came to work on him, poor little guy.
The reason his bones are weak enough to break like that is b/c he went through chemo at age 2, b/c he has a rare genetic disorder that makes him prone to kidney cancer/failure, among a host of other issues. They've been through so much already, and I hate that they have to deal with this now, too.
My xh was in the blotter briefs AGAIN today for drunk and disorderly and possession of an intoxicating substance on Saturday. I got a random, hard to understand voice mail from him on Saturday about child support. H and I couldn't decide if the xh was still drunk from the night before, hung over, or already drunk since it was like 2:00 in the afternoon. Guess I have my answer. I don't know what to do.....but that's another post.
Today is dd's 8th birthday! They cancelled school today because we got about 10 inches of snow and it's still coming down. It's not quite school cancelling worthy, but oh well.
Post by verycontrary247 on May 1, 2013 9:53:14 GMT -5
DUDES. I'm so thrilled right now. I just took my "personal computer hardware and troubleshooting" final and did way better than anticipated.
I have one presentation to do on Monday and then I'm done with this semester. I should end up with 3 A's and 1 B- which is a massive improvement from the last time I took college classes and flunked out due to nonexistent attendance.
Post by cheeseandcrackers on May 1, 2013 9:58:18 GMT -5
Just got a dispute on eBay because someone bought my USED DVD and they said that "item isn't as described" because the packaging has been ripped into (on the inside, trying to get the DVD out) and I said in description that item is in excellent condition (which it is, both dvd's have never been viewed and one has been used once). Well yeah, it's used, how else do you open it? *sigh* Looks like I am going to get my first negative feedback, ha. They actually got it for really cheap and I overpaid for the shipping, which makes it more annoying. They requested for a "replacement item", yeah okay. This is why I don't sell on eBay often..
Post by margotmacomber on May 1, 2013 10:06:42 GMT -5
Between the toddler and the puppy I think I'm going insane. Plus there were two large spiders that I had to kill today, and one interesting bug that disappeared on me. And ants in the sunroom. And wallpaper that needs to come down. Someone hold me.
Post by melodramatic26 on May 1, 2013 10:09:12 GMT -5
I'm being a petty passive aggressive bitch to just about everyone around me lately and I don't know why. I hope it's pms and now that my cycle is done, it stops too. For example:
-this weekend, I didn't run the 1/2 marathon with my bff and her running partner b/c I was bitter that they never asked me to do any of the training runs with them. My bff is pregnant and I know the only reason she wanted me to run with them was in case her running partner wanted to go faster and she needed to slow down (because I'm slow since I'm still in post pregnancy mode).
-there is a girl at weight watchers that I just don't like. The reason, she's too much like me. She's lost 72 lbs now and started running. And she just so happened to run the same 1/2 marathon and did it a lot faster than I did. I just keep thinking that if I hadn't gotten pregnant (though it was mostly planned) that I would be skinnier and faster than her.
-Adele has been on a baseball kick lately. Her favorite song is Take Me Out to the Ball Game. She kept saying she wanted to go to a game. So dh and I decided it would be fun to take her. I looked up tickets and told dh that May 11 looked good. He said tix were cheaper on Sunday because it's family day. I said that was fine but IN NO WAY was this baseball game going to count as my Mother's Day present. He seemed surprised. Fucker is going on a fishing trip for a week the day after Mother's Day. NO, taking the kids to the ball game isn't a present to me and YES I expected a gift.
I am still recovering from the endrometrial ablation I had done yesterday. It hurt like a motherfucker and I kind of wish I had opted to be put under for it.
Post by AHappierHour on May 1, 2013 10:14:44 GMT -5
Good luck missus
I haven't slept in 3 days because my kids are sick, now I'm getting sick. My house is a fucking mess and its making me bitchy. I need to clean it up and I have zero desire to do it. I wish I had someone to watch my kids so I could nap and clean.
Well, instead of having sex last night, H and I had a fight. It started with him asking me if I could PLEASE corral Bailey so he could wipe him off after he came inside. I was like "um.. like I do every night?" I guess he hadn't noticed. So then we argued about whether I corral Bailey, whether I pitch in enough around the house, whether I do enough chores, whether I pay enough attention to Joanna on the weekends, whether I need to be medicated for anxiety or just exercise mind over matter, whether the fact we never have sex is entirely on me, whether my mom is going to screw up Joanna with her anxiety like she screwed up me, etc. etc.
It ended okay, we came around to the same place, and we are fine this morning. And I started thinking about how hard the first year with a kid is even for couples who DON'T have a lot of external stuff going on, and from that perspective, we are doing pretty good. I started feeling kind of proud of us. lol
But then I got to work, and my boss emailed me to remind me of my new quota for next month. Which irritated me. Then I tallied up all the stuff I've done this past month and am one short of the new quota It technically doesn't have to be met for April, but I really wanted to show her that I am capable of getting my ass in gear, and I thought I was doing a really good job last month. I feel so discouraged.
I haven't even told my her about my grandmother, and I don't think I'm going to, because it will seem like I am just asking for more leniency.
So now my anxiety is at, like, a level 7, and I am also feeling the RAGE. Everyone is on my nuts lately. Just when I think I am starting to get it together, people point out how I am failing at everything.
And I have my CT tomorrow, which is freaking me out. Not to mention that I have to drink an assload of "banana smoothie" to prepare for it, and I know how much that is going to suck.
tamb, dh and I had similar arguments last week. Like for 3 days, arguments like that would happen, we would be fine, then something else would happen with the girls or work and we'd be back to the same place. Building the new house isn't helping anything either. At all. The first year really does suck. I didn't think it did, or just forgot, but damn this is hard.
You're having a rough year Tamb. I'm sorry I hope things get better.
The dreaded *this*. I'm sorry you've had such a tough time lately. I also hope things get better for you soon. And I'm sorry about your grandmother. (((HUGS)))
Post by liverandonions on May 1, 2013 10:51:34 GMT -5
This is very random, but I noticed the Up & Up products from Target have a little tag line on the front of the product relating to whatever it is and it makes me laugh. My honey and milk soap says "Honey Hands" my baby laundry detergent says "Laundry Lullabye" my plastic cutlery says "Lovin Spoonfuls" and my favorite that I've found so far is my husband's dandruff shampoo that says "Scalp-tastic." It makes me want to go around to all the products at Target and see what they say.
Also, I didn't sleep well last night which is why the above is way more fascinating to me then it should be.
missusbee, I hope that everything is okay with your job! ering, I'm sorry about your mom, and I hope that your husband didn't screw everything up and lose money.
I am in a horrible mood today. I barely slept last night, my head is killing me, and it is supposed to SNOW today and tomorrow. SNOW.
I got in a mini road rage argument (through our windshields) with a woman who tried to cut in front of me at Starbucks this morning. (see above pissiness). I felt like a jerk so I paid for her coffee when I got up to the window. I hope that I didn't wreck her day, too. Ugh.
My boss really needed me to work earlier than normal today and I told him I could because my final was at 8AM only to discover my final is at 1pm when boss needed me to be there. I emailed my teacher to see if I could change my time to one of the 2 other available times but no response and no response from boss. I am sure he isn't happy. Guess I will see at 4. To top it off my aunt msgd me that they rushed my grandmother to the ER because she has throbbing pain all over her body that started off in her neck and arm. She was scheduled for a colonsocopy today but couldn't even get out of bed. She had pre-cancerous polyps on her last one so this was important. Now I am scared to death something is seriosuly wrong with her. Needless to day I do not have high hopes for this final in 45 minutes.
I am seriously sore from my walk last night. I did a lot of hills, and for some reason going downhill creates havoc on my body. I feel bad for my poor dog, who cannot even jump up onto the coach today. I left her on the coach with one of my pillows because I felt so bad.