Today's tough already, I took a ton of headache meds yesterday/last night and I'm kind of in a loopy blur this morning.
Our foster's spay was put off until today, so hopefully I will be able to pick her up tonight. Willow enjoyed the extra HER time last night and this morning. She's such a good dog - my fondness has grown ten fold for her since we started fostering because of her ability to help these dogs while not being jealous or impatient.
And I'm going to see matchbox 20 tomorrow night. Woot woot. First time in a decade that they are coming to Raleigh. Can't wait!
I want to know what happened last night with cuddlyevil.
Me too. I've been thinking of you, Cuddly.
I was so set to get up and leave early this morning. I was 100% prepped for the day. Then A was up twice in the night and didn't wake up for the day until way after it was time to go. Oh well.
Oh! Oh! I had another contractor over last night about finally tiling our bathroom floor. It's going to be done next Friday. We've been without our powder room for a year now. Embarrassing. I should have done this earlier. It's so worth the few hundred bucks.
dixienormous, it does but I am feeling uninspired by the projects that I need to finish so I just don't want to do them. I'm kind of being a whiny child.
I did (almost) finish the peplum blazer I designed for my pattern making class and it is so pretty! I kind of feel bad about it thought because I got really ambitious and did a tailored blazer while last week in class people were learning how to cut their fabric on grain... They're all fucked.
dixienormous, it does but I am feeling uninspired by the projects that I need to finish so I just don't want to do them. I'm kind of being a whiny child.
I did (almost) finish the peplum blazer I designed for my pattern making class and it is so pretty! I kind of feel bad about it thought because I got really ambitious and did a tailored blazer while last week in class people were learning how to cut their fabric on grain... They're all fucked.
Fair enough. Get it done so you can do something FUN!
dixienormous, it does but I am feeling uninspired by the projects that I need to finish so I just don't want to do them. I'm kind of being a whiny child.
I did (almost) finish the peplum blazer I designed for my pattern making class and it is so pretty! I kind of feel bad about it thought because I got really ambitious and did a tailored blazer while last week in class people were learning how to cut their fabric on grain... They're all fucked.
Fair enough. Get it done so you can do something FUN!
Do you by any chance have an embroidery machine?
That's my plan! In my head I'm going to get two Halloween costumes done and my sewing room organized in the two weeks I have between semesters.
I don't have an embroidery machine at my house but my mom has a really nice one I can use whenever I want to!
I want to know what happened last night with cuddlyevil.
I have to make this fast because I am totally slammed at work today.
Talked with him about everything. He was thunderstruck (at least it seemed that way), he deleted the game off the phone while admitting he's known it was a problem for me for a while. He freaked out when I told him I was seeing a therapist, but I told him she was helping me and that I had no plans to stop seeing her. I told him I was beginning to resent him over the game and they way he was hearing me but ignoring me, that I felt like a single mom a lot of the time, and that I don't like being so grumpy/anxious at home. I also told him that all of it had made me contemplate leaving. He seemed genuinely stunned and sad. After a while, he said "I can't talk about this anymore tonight" and went to bed.
Half hearted hug this morning with no "I love you" when he left for work. He looked really sad.
I didn't try to make it better for him and I won't. The conversation isn't over, I am sure he'll have more to say when he gets through with work (I'm sure he'll be talking to his Mom & brother).
On top of all of this, a close friend of mine died last night. So this morning I woke up super sad and I have remained so. DD climbed into my lap this morning and I started sobbing. The only reason I haven't cried in the last hour is because I am so slammed with work.
I just feel overwhelmingly sad and I can't go to the one person who could make it better.
That's where things stand right now. I'm going to have to post and run as I just got a time sensitive project tossed at me, I'll try to get on again later.
Post by partiallysunny on Aug 6, 2013 10:11:45 GMT -5
I'm sorry for your lose, CE.
I'm glad you're not making it easy for him. You shouldn't. How long have you been sad, upset, and lonely and he's done nothing to change his behavior. You're doing the right thing.
Post by starrieskies on Aug 6, 2013 10:21:05 GMT -5
cuddlyevil, I am so sorry that you are dealing with all of this!
I know it doesn't feel like its going to get better, but it will! You are so strong, and I know you can handle this! All of your feelings are valid, do not let anyone tell you differently!
I want to know what happened last night with cuddlyevil.
I have to make this fast because I am totally slammed at work today.
Talked with him about everything. He was thunderstruck (at least it seemed that way), he deleted the game off the phone while admitting he's known it was a problem for me for a while. He freaked out when I told him I was seeing a therapist, but I told him she was helping me and that I had no plans to stop seeing her. I told him I was beginning to resent him over the game and they way he was hearing me but ignoring me, that I felt like a single mom a lot of the time, and that I don't like being so grumpy/anxious at home. I also told him that all of it had made me contemplate leaving. He seemed genuinely stunned and sad. After a while, he said "I can't talk about this anymore tonight" and went to bed.
Half hearted hug this morning with no "I love you" when he left for work. He looked really sad.
I didn't try to make it better for him and I won't. The conversation isn't over, I am sure he'll have more to say when he gets through with work (I'm sure he'll be talking to his Mom & brother).
On top of all of this, a close friend of mine died last night. So this morning I woke up super sad and I have remained so. DD climbed into my lap this morning and I started sobbing. The only reason I haven't cried in the last hour is because I am so slammed with work.
I just feel overwhelmingly sad and I can't go to the one person who could make it better.
That's where things stand right now. I'm going to have to post and run as I just got a time sensitive project tossed at me, I'll try to get on again later.
I'm sorry - I'm about to do tough love. IT IS NOT ABOUT THE GAME. You DO NOT have to defend why you are in therapy. Why are you letting him run this situation??
WHAT about what you found on his phone the other night?!
I live in Texas and don't want summer to be over yet.
doglove have you ever considered something like botox for your headaches?
I haven't, but I just heard about this so I am going to look into it. I think I will see a neurologist. I know they are hormonal - I always get a horrible one at ovulation and a horrible one a few days before AF.
LOL! yes it does. Around the middle of October I can toss on a sweater and in January I can wear a coat until about mid March. oddly we really didnt start hitting 100 until about 2 weeks ago which is some sort of miracle.
We've had a "mild" summer here too. Only 90s for maybe 2-3 weeks so far. Very unusual.