Thank you! I've worked PT from home for 2 years but had an office the other days. Now it's home all the time, o office space for me. It has it's good things but it's not as wonderful as I thought it would be. I miss Lillian more now than I did when I was in am office for some reason.
I know. It's because when you have to manage your own time and you're at HOME she's "supposed" to be with you. It's such a bizarre feeling. I'm lucky in that C and her nanny are still in the house, but being on the periphery of them is harder than I thought it would be. Like I'm not giving 100% to work OR C, if that makes sense. Being in an office is easier in that sense, because she's not supposed to be there. KWIM? There are positives and negatives to it, for sure. But I LOVED WFH before baby. Now, I just feel like I'm not doing either very well. And I'm lonely a lot, which is a completely new emotion for me. If you ever wanna vent, I'm your girl:)
Makes total sense. I have thought about having a nanny instead of DC, especially when she continually gets sick, but at this point she likes it there too much. I'd feel bad taking her out of the school. She ran up to the door squealing this morning, it was the cutest thing.
I also feel I liked WAH more before I had L too. I also look around my house and see the mess. I feel spread thin. When I'm working I want to be with Lillian...if I take a break from work I feel I should be working, if I clean on the weekends I feel I should be hanging with Lillian. I'm just not getting it all done and it's all half ass what I do get done. Sigh thanks for listening and understanding
Post by sunshineluv on Aug 8, 2013 13:31:21 GMT -5
I just had a moment of sheer panic. I had to think if I had dropped Henry off at daycare this morning. I did, he was a bit clingy, I perfectly remember dropping him off. The liklihood of me leaving him in my car is so slim, we have to drive a different way to work to drop him off. It isn't like I could just drive on by and not remember to take him in. Also, he is generally pretty noisy in the car. But man, that moment of my heart dropping just at the thought. Whew.. I am still a bit shaken up. Being a parent gives you anxiety over the weirdest things!
I know. It's because when you have to manage your own time and you're at HOME she's "supposed" to be with you. It's such a bizarre feeling. I'm lucky in that C and her nanny are still in the house, but being on the periphery of them is harder than I thought it would be. Like I'm not giving 100% to work OR C, if that makes sense. Being in an office is easier in that sense, because she's not supposed to be there. KWIM? There are positives and negatives to it, for sure. But I LOVED WFH before baby. Now, I just feel like I'm not doing either very well. And I'm lonely a lot, which is a completely new emotion for me. If you ever wanna vent, I'm your girl:)
Makes total sense. I have thought about having a nanny instead of DC, especially when she continually gets sick, but at this point she likes it there too much. I'd feel bad taking her out of the school. She ran up to the door squealing this morning, it was the cutest thing.
I also feel I liked WAH more before I had L too. I also look around my house and see the mess. I feel spread thin. When I'm working I want to be with Lillian...if I take a break from work I feel I should be working, if I clean on the weekends I feel I should be hanging with Lillian. I'm just not getting it all done and it's all half ass what I do get done. Sigh thanks for listening and understanding
I could have written your entire second paragraph myself. I know exactly where you're coming from. Keep L in school - she loves it and it's good for her to be around all the other kids! Trying to make up for the fact that C isn't around other kids much during the week means I'm stressing over making sure she gets to classes, library events, etc. with the nanny ALL THE TIME. It's a whole other layer of "to do's" that just adds to the exhaustion/being spread too thin.
If we all lived in the Probie commune, none of these things would ever be an issue. Just fartin' :-)
I've peed on way too many sticks, so many I'm embarrassed. After my BFN this morning I made myself promise I wouldn't pee on another stick until Monday or Tuesday next week. Now I'm sitting here at work feeling dizzy and trying to talk myself out of going to buy another FRER at lunch time. Lord help me and my peeing addiction.
If you o'd on day 19 (which is most likely) then you are only what 7 days post ovulation now? I know it's tough to ignore the phantom symptoms but if you wait two more days you'll be in the window where a + is possible/more likely!
A + at 7 DPO is so unlikely, I mean it happens but in like 1% of people probably. 2 more days and you are in the realm of normal!
that said I won't be able to last til 9DPO I don't think. I mean, I've got 12 wondfos! But I am trying to enjoy drinking beer and large amounts of coffee in the meantime.
I changed my OPKs from CD 18 and 19 from - to +. I know they weren't totally + but they were pretty darn close. FF changed my O date to CD20 so now I'm only 5DPO, hopefully that deters me from testing again any time soon!
If you o'd on day 19 (which is most likely) then you are only what 7 days post ovulation now? I know it's tough to ignore the phantom symptoms but if you wait two more days you'll be in the window where a + is possible/more likely!
A + at 7 DPO is so unlikely, I mean it happens but in like 1% of people probably. 2 more days and you are in the realm of normal!
that said I won't be able to last til 9DPO I don't think. I mean, I've got 12 wondfos! But I am trying to enjoy drinking beer and large amounts of coffee in the meantime.
I changed my OPKs from CD 18 and 19 from - to +. I know they weren't totally + but they were pretty darn close. FF changed my O date to CD20 so now I'm only 5DPO, hopefully that deters me from testing again any time soon!
yup CD23 for me, 3DPO. Blah. I plan to test on Tuesday (8DPO, CD28) I know that's still early but whatevs. I have 12 tests!
Today is our 4 year wedding anniversary. We are going to a Brazilian restaurant with all you can eat meat. The kind of place that walks around with skewers of meat and carves stuff off for you. I'll be in a meat and sangria coma tonight.
It is taking every ounce of self control I have not to purchase the entire new Janie and Jack City Stroll Collection! Pillbox hat headband?! Dying.... So cute..... I sent the link to my mom and I'm secretly hoping she buys something for May.
Also, I promised DH he could buy a $1500 camera if he does some computer work I need done that he has been procrastinating about for over a year. What he doesn't know is that I would totally have let him buy the camera anyway because I am going to make him use it to take pics of May for our Christmas cards.
It is taking every ounce of self control I have not to purchase the entire new Janie and Jack City Stroll Collection! Pillbox hat headband?! Dying.... So cute..... I sent the link to my mom and I'm secretly hoping she buys something for May.
Also, I promised DH he could buy a $1500 camera if he does some computer work I need done that he has been procrastinating about for over a year. What he doesn't know is that I would totally have let him buy the camera anyway because I am going to make him use it to take pics of May for our Christmas cards.
B may have just dropped her before-bed nursing session. I sat in the rocking chair and laid her down to nurse her and she just wouldn't. At all. After a few minutes, I gave up and laid her in her crib. She grabbed her blankie and looked at me. And as soon as I walked out the door she started crying. But she didn't want to nurse! I don't understand her sometimes. I just let her cry, and said if she was still crying in 15 min I would go back and nurse her. Well, she fell asleep and I have mixed feelings about her not nursing before bed.
H did the dishes last night, but didn't start the dishwasher. The kitchen smelled like ass today and I couldn't figure out why. Well, after I laid B down I went to do today's dishes. I opened the dishwasher and got hit with this god awful, sweaty gym sock smell. UGH. GROSS. I started the dishwasher, but now I'm annoyed because I can't make myself dinner until I do the dishes, but I am not washing all these dishes by hand. So all I got for dinner was a granola bar. And I'm so annoyed.