HoneySpider I hate no answers too. That "what if" crap always gets me.
And hugs to all others that need them, this is a good board for confessions. Everyone is always so sweet.
My confession makes me sound like a total snob; actually more of a bitch really : our house cleaning service has several employees that work for the owner and do the actual cleaning. Last week was like, the fourth different person to come through and clean, and she was not up to the standards of the others we've had. So I deliberately mailed the check a little late because the owner did not offer us a discount, or anything to make up for the shoddy job, even though she asked me how I liked the new girl, and I told her (very nicely) that the new girl was super sweet but not as thorough as the others. Yup. I'm an asshole to stoop so low. Ugh whatever. Over and done with now. I'm sure karma will get me somehow...
I think this is one (of the many) reasons I couldn't have house cleaners. I'm not a neat freak but if I'm paying someone it needs to be done very well. Sorry the owner sucks
This is more just any angry vent. I just need to get it out somewhere.. DH is tired of hearing about it.
I'm pissed off about/at my brother again. Ugh!
PDQ:
My brother is bipolar. He is completely functional but he does have some issues. He has been out of work for 6+ months BY CHOICE because his entry level job he had been doing for YEARS became too stressful for him to handle. He moved back home with my mom while looking for a new job.
Once this happened I found out he had gone down to part time hours a few months previously and my mom was helping to pay his bills. Now her and my grandma have been paying his bills for this entire time.
The kicker is, he is highly educated (Master's degree) but has no experience. He never searched for a better job and just stayed at his minimum wage job the entire time. Suddenly he is too good for that kind of work and will only apply to things that require 2+ years of experience that he doesn't have. He also refuses to work at anything lower while looking for a job.
I just HATE that my mom enables him so much. She knows that she does it, but I get so tired of hearing about his problems. I feel like DH and I have problems that we are facing that we have NO CONTROL over, where as my brother could at least get a job doing what he did before to pay his own bills while looking for something else. He is just so dang arrogant. I just don't want to hear about it anymore.
My sudden rage was because my mom told me today that he has an interview for part-time work but decided he doesn't want to go to it because he wants to wait for something full time. I said "Maybe he should go to the interview and take the part-time position if he is offered it so he can pay his own bills", and my mom just said "Oh, but I understand where he is coming from. He doesn't want to quit a job if he gets a full time offer". BUT HE HAS BEEN "LOOKING" FOR MONTHS AND NOT RECEIVED ONE OFFER YET!!!!
I have also been pulling away from my BFF. I can feel she is doing it to me too. I think I'm okay with it. I love and miss her like crazy, but at the same time it is just hard right now. We have only sent each other one text since we talked over a week ago (when I told her how hurt I was). I am happy for her, but I am also happy that she lives in a different town and I'm not seeing her all the time. I know things will get better, just right now we seem to need a little separation.
I waited up last night for DH to get home because it had been awhile since the last BD and I took clomid this cycle. Well he worked late and I fell asleep waiting for him.
Sure enough, a positive OPK this morning. I woke DH and sent him to the other room to look at porn to get started (lol). I literally had 2 minutes and was almost late as it was. Phew!
I have creeping worries that I'm not fertile. I know I've only been trying for 8 cycles.. but I am starting to get worried, but am scared to go to the doctor
I have creeping worries that I'm not fertile. I know I've only been trying for 8 cycles.. but I am starting to get worried, but am scared to go to the doctor
I'm sorry ((hugs)). Try not to be too afraid of going. It's a relief to tell someone "this is not working" and let them do their job to fix it.
sarahsas I completely understand. It took 4 months without a period for me to force myself into a doctor's office. But you know what? You don't *have* to see a doctor immediately. You can just wait until you feel comfortable with the idea. ((Hugs))
((hugs)) sarahsas. We had the same concerns the first time around and scheduled appointments after 6 cycles of TTC/charting/perfect timing/etc. I mentioned it to my doctor at my physical and she just said to continue trying a couple more months and then would be willing to refer me to a RE (I probably could've pushed to do it sooner if I wanted). We ended up pregnant on cycle 7 (both first and second pregnancy)...DH never even had his appointment. It doesn't hurt to start these discussions with your doctor and start into testing, etc slowly.
Wishing you all the best! I really, really hope you get your BFP soon!