My cousin is downstairs visiting with our grandfather and I just can't handle seeing her right now. So I'm taking this opportunity to "rest" upstairs. We didn't think he'd make it through the night last night, but he seems to be more alert today. When things got rough last night I sent Ollie to spend some time with my IL's and he'll be there until my H comes up tomorrow night. I miss him and he was an adorable distraction this week, but it's been nice to have some quiet time with my grandfather.
I don't know. I'm already freaking out about what to do next week when school starts back up. I don't know how else to put this, but if he's still here next week I can't really take time off, but I also cannot imagine just going back to work 2 hours away and waiting for the phone call. I'm going to have to take unpaid leave. Then I get to tell my principal I'm taking my full bereavement. Then I'm going to tell her I plan on taking a full year off for maternity leave? I'm going to get fired.
I don't know why I'm posting this here. I have lots of friends irl who are there and ready to talk about it, visit me, etc but I don't want to see anyone. I don't want to talk about it to them. I don't want to go anywhere. I feel like I'm using up all my energy just existing. If that makes any sense.
This is honestly the best, most realistic advice I received when my Dad got sick. Sometimes you can only take it minute by minute but you will get through it. Hang in there!
And, is this the cousin who had the shower that you didn't go to last Sat? She can go fuck herself. nice of her to stop in for a bit and run you out of there now that she's gotten all her presents and other tribute.
Ugh, I'm so sorry you have to worry about your job on top of everything else. Maybe put in a checkup call tomorrow to help ease your mind? When my mom when into hospice, she held on for a week instead of the day or two we were supposed to have, so I understand the stress. Work was extremely considerate (I mean what else are they going to say?) and I think they appreciated that I knew others were covering for me in my absence.
And, is this the cousin who had the shower that you didn't go to last Sat? She can go fuck herself. nice of her to stop in for a bit and run you out of there now that she's gotten all her presents and other tribute.
When I read this I immediately thought there was no way in hell that cousin would show her face. But she did?!? That's her?!? You are a saint for even letting her in the house.