I know it's getting late so I will try to keep this as short as possible. I wanted to provide an update on the status of the witch (AF) who never seemed to want to make her appearance after my D&C in January. After going back to my doctor to find out wtf was going on, I was advised to come back the following week to check on my hormone levels. Apparently, AF never made an appearance because I got pregnant before AF regulated after my D&C. Because I never tracked my HCG to zero after my D&C I had no "baseline" to determine whether I was pregnant or not. Queue happy tears and disbelief in the Toutsuite household.
I didn't say anything right away because I didn't believe it (and quite frankly have moments where I still don't). We used BC pretty consistently and planned to until my first post-D&C AF, though obviously we weren't perfect. My doctor thinks I am still fairly early, and I have my first ultrasound this upcoming week to confirm viability. FX that everything goes well. I wasn't going to say anything until after this appointment, but I figured if something happened or if it went poorly, it's nice to know there are people that know what's going on especially since we haven't told anyone IRL yet.
I am scared to death to go through a m/c again, but I am trying to stay positive. PGAL brain has gotten to me a few times to the point where I just had to step away from the computer (and GOOGLE!) for a bit and concentrate on this ray of hope for the future. I really really hope this is my take home baby. Today I am pregnant and I will love my baby.
Just a few things I found noteworthy in this experience: 1. I have ZERO symptoms - no cramps, no sore boobs, no MS, nada. Thus, just because you don't experience symptoms doesn't mean you are out. (In my first pregnancy I had every symptom in the book even early on.) 2. I swore at one point right before I found out I was pregnant that I was going to get AF due to AF - like cramping...Thus, if you ladies experience this a few days before AF - don't get immediately discouraged until AF actually shows up. 3. This entire experience is hard, frustrating, and lonely - we all have our own struggles whether it's getting pregnant, staying pregnant, trying to figure out when is best when TTC, competing priorities, etc. The one thing I will say is please don't lose hope. I thought I had, I was angry for what I had been through and what was taken from me. I was going to church (something that I hadn't done in a while but figured I'd give a whirl) after work just to pray and to try to find peace with what had happened. I prayed so hard. Just when I was at my wits end and feeling defeated (especially after not having had AF in 6 months) I got this unexpected surprise - really the best thing I could have asked for at a time when I needed it. I have prayed for each of you ladies and will continue to do so until you all have your rainbow babies. Until you get that BFP thogh please don't lose hope - as it makes an already difficult and lonely thing even harder.
Thank you all for your support. I am sorry for the long post - just wanted to provide you with an update on what's going on and my whereabouts. And to also let you know that I will be waiting to see you all over at GP in the near future. Get busy.
Post by luv2rn4fun on Apr 17, 2014 21:33:53 GMT -5
I said it on GP but have to say it again...CONGRATULATIONS!!!! And such great advice! I didn't have many symptoms (if any) either and didn't with my first pregnancy (second one I had clear symptoms). You aren't out til you are out.
I am so, so happy for you toutsuite and will be praying for you and your little one every step of the way! Looking forward to hearing lots of positive updates in the upcoming weeks!
I'm with toutsuite too...there isn't a day that goes by that I don't pray for each and everyone of you here. I won't give up until y'all graduate to GP and have your take home babies. Hang in there ladies...lots of ((hugs))
Congratulations!!!! And thank you for sharing 1 and 2. I've had AF-like cramping periodically all week and no AF, but I'm only on CD29 and I've never had a regular cycle post-BC (this is only my second, first one was 19 days). I have zero symptoms so I've not bothered testing.... may be I should? I don't know.