For the first time since the beginning of January, I was finally able to O with someone. And it was great.
And looking back on last night I feel bad, because I said something to the tune of "do you know how long I have waited for that? forever and ever" and then told him it was awesome. And I hope he didn't take it to mean anything bad or that it was about him not doing something right. Am I overthinking?
Okay, thanks. He knows that I was on an AD that made it hard for me to O, so he understands that it was nothing about us or our chemistry that made it difficult for me since we've been dating. And now that the effects have worn off.....yay, fun!
Post by starrieskies on Apr 18, 2014 12:19:55 GMT -5
Stbx made some shitty comments yesterday while I was picking up DS, that made me want to cry. I wish he didn't still have that kind of control over my mind. I blame it on the fact that I was already in a shittastic mood, he just saw an opportunity and pounced.
I've been thinking a lot about the whole dating thing... I'm kind of a list maker, so I tend to overthink things before they're even an issue. I'm not sure how I would answer questions about my marriage... It wasn't all bad, but yeah... I think I just got so accustomed to hiding what was happpening, that it feels strange to talk about it. TBH it's kind of embarrassing.
I'm annoyed at a friend who might bail on my party. She suffers from depression and has had a bad week. I get that but every week is bad and when we spoke earlier this week she rejected my suggestion of counseling or a change in meds even though she admits she needs it. Ugh
Post by cuddlyevil on Apr 18, 2014 12:29:05 GMT -5
DD asked me again last night why I left her dad. I gave her the same answer as last time. I was frazzled when she asked me so I wasn't as gentle as I usually am.
I am sincerely worried that they won't pass around a card for my birthday. I'm the one who does it for everyone else, but I am scared I'll fly under the radar. It will make me so, so sad.
Stbx made some shitty comments yesterday while I was picking up DS, that made me want to cry. I wish he didn't still have that kind of control over my mind. I blame it on the fact that I was already in a shittastic mood, he just saw an opportunity and pounced.
I've been thinking a lot about the whole dating thing... I'm kind of a list maker, so I tend to overthink things before they're even an issue. I'm not sure how I would answer questions about my marriage... It wasn't all bad, but yeah... I think I just got so accustomed to hiding what was happpening, that it feels strange to talk about it. TBH it's kind of embarrassing.
I can totally empathize with you here. Ex would make shitty remarks all the time when exchanging the kids at first after I'd kicked him out and it was really awful. Nowadays he's much better but when he tries to make he his verbal punching bag, I feel irritated and sometimes like laughing at him. Indifference comes in time and it's beautiful.
And I also really get hiding what was really going on. I don't think you have to delve into it on the first few dates but as you learn to trust someone and open up to them I think it becomes easier to answer questions about what happened.
Post by starrieskies on Apr 18, 2014 12:37:27 GMT -5
Also, I have one customer who emails me randomly throughout the year with "Best Wishes for a Happy (insert holiday here)". Super nice guy, I've met him a few times. However, for some strange reason, he feels the need to address me using only my last name. My married last name. I bristle every time I see it. THATS NOT MY NAME!!! I can't wait to change that.
My random/confession is that I'm really frustrated with my sister. She moved to Cali to be with her BF is August. Things fell to shit in November and they've broken up/made up countless times. She constantly calls/texts me that he calls her a cunt, is mean to her, etc. etc. She busted him lying (again) last night and now she tells me that he is doing hard drugs. I don't know what else to say to her.
I can totally empathize with you here. Ex would make shitty remarks all the time when exchanging the kids at first after I'd kicked him out and it was really awful. Nowadays he's much better but when he tries to make he his verbal punching bag, I feel irritated and sometimes like laughing at him. Indifference comes in time and it's beautiful.
And I also really get hiding what was really going on. I don't think you have to delve into it on the first few dates but as you learn to trust someone and open up to them I think it becomes easier to answer questions about what happened.
Honestly, I'm still at a point where feeling ok with trusting someone like this scares the shit out of me... I still feel like being open = being vulnerable = being in danger. Which is why I'm not dating AND continuing therapy.
I'm annoyed at a friend who might bail on my party. She suffers from depression and has had a bad week. I get that but every week is bad and when we spoke earlier this week she rejected my suggestion of counseling or a change in meds even though she admits she needs it. Ugh
That sucks. As someone who suffered from depression/anxiety though it took me YEARS to actually make changes. I knew I needed to, but that's the thing about depression, it zaps you of being able to make those changes. I lost some friends along the way and I totally understand. Some I've been able to rebuild, others I haven't. I guess what I'm trying to say is that if she isn't making the changes she needs to, and her behavior is getting tiring, it's totally okay to distance yourself.
I just got hit on in the break room. By the guy that stocks our snacks. I am sure he is a very nice guy, but there's nothing about him that interests me. Sigh. Made me laugh @pdx18 - here I am whining about never getting hit on. The universe found a loop hole. NOT WHAT I MEANT, universe!
Ha! At this point I'd take the snack guy hitting on me. Hahaha. But yea I totally get what you mean.
I feel like I've finally taken my first step into adulthood! I hired a financial planner and he's totally cool! I plan to tell everyone I have a 'guy for that now'! I'm so fancy
I am feeling super stressed out about money today. I spent $214 at the vet yesterday for yearly shots/heartworm test, then went out to dinner and spend $26. Today I missed a psychiatrist appointment, I stupidly forgot to put it on my calendar and the time passed by before I gave it a thought. There is a $95 missed appointment fee.
Then I logged into the credit card I signed up for to get miles for a free plane ticket to Cancun next month, and see the dates don't line up where I can use the miles without having to buy a ton more. I need to call them this weekend and figure out what's up with that, but suddenly going on vacation is looking like it is going to cost a lot more than originally planned. It's all just money and YOLO and all, but it seems like when it rains it pours and I can never get ahead.
I feel like I've finally taken my first step into adulthood! I hired a financial planner and he's totally cool! I plan to tell everyone I have a 'guy for that now'! I'm so fancy
Look at that rich bitch and her financial planner!
Just kidding. Love you! A very smart financial move that I should do some day if I ever have money again, lol.
You should use your womanly ways to convince him gluten free snacks are required
I did this when I was pg with DD1 and switched to Caffeine Free pop. No, I didn't flirt, but I did use my womanly ways (read: pregnancy) at the time and asked if he would start stocking it. It was there the next day.
You should use your womanly ways to convince him gluten free snacks are required
I did this when I was pg with DD1 and switched to Caffeine Free pop. No, I didn't flirt, but I did use my womanly ways (read: pregnancy) at the time and asked if he would start stocking it. It was there the next day.
I wanted to get our pop guy to start stocking caffeine free Pepsi when I was going through IVF and avoiding caffeine, but I chickened out I have zero balls
I already spent the $75 I won at BINGO last night. I needed to replace 2 bras and I had a $10 off card for VS so off I went. I also got some Heavenly body spray. feel like I should have spent the money on prettier bras now that I'm single again, lol. I did, however, get a $15 gift card that's good through next month for buying 2 bras.
I feel like I've finally taken my first step into adulthood! I hired a financial planner and he's totally cool! I plan to tell everyone I have a 'guy for that now'! I'm so fancy
Look at that rich bitch and her financial planner!
Just kidding. Love you! A very smart financial move that I should do some day if I ever have money again, lol.
you should have seen his face when he was asking me about stuff...I'm all 'I have no clue, I toss all the statements' and I told him my retirement plan is to marry an old rich guy!!
I'm annoyed at a friend who might bail on my party. She suffers from depression and has had a bad week. I get that but every week is bad and when we spoke earlier this week she rejected my suggestion of counseling or a change in meds even though she admits she needs it. Ugh
That sucks. As someone who suffered from depression/anxiety though it took me YEARS to actually make changes. I knew I needed to, but that's the thing about depression, it zaps you of being able to make those changes. I lost some friends along the way and I totally understand. Some I've been able to rebuild, others I haven't. I guess what I'm trying to say is that if she isn't making the changes she needs to, and her behavior is getting tiring, it's totally okay to distance yourself.
Yeah I get it. She also gets headaches and flakes a lot. I still have 8 other people coming but I really wanted her there bc I love her. I wish she would rally but I'm not annoyed anymore. I get it.
That sucks. As someone who suffered from depression/anxiety though it took me YEARS to actually make changes. I knew I needed to, but that's the thing about depression, it zaps you of being able to make those changes. I lost some friends along the way and I totally understand. Some I've been able to rebuild, others I haven't. I guess what I'm trying to say is that if she isn't making the changes she needs to, and her behavior is getting tiring, it's totally okay to distance yourself.
Yeah I get it. She also gets headaches and flakes a lot. I still have 8 other people coming but I really wanted her there bc I love her. I wish she would rally but I'm not annoyed anymore. I get it.
Honestly though even during my worst depression I'm pretty sure nothing would keep me away from your party. That food sounds incredible!
Post by glitzyglow on Apr 18, 2014 14:18:31 GMT -5
I was meeting all the people at work yesterday and I was introduced to the guy in Chanel. I said, "I love the Chanel Chance line of fragrances...they are gorgeous." He said, "And I love a redhead...you are gorgeous!" So witty and it made me smile, even now just thinking about it. I love witty people.
I spend over $100 at the makeup counter last weekend telling myself I was going to make an effort to look more presentable at work. It lasted 1 day. I am sitting at my desk with my naked face and my hair in a messy bun. I seriously fail at being a girl.