My Poppop's gone

[meganew]

He passed this morning at 4am in his sleep. He was in so much pain on Wednesday and then rallied on Thursday before drifting into a sleep state that he just never really came out of. I'm so thankful that he didn't linger for weeks and weeks- it's only been 10 days since we found out the cancer was back. But fuck. I wasn't prepared for this. I've been preparing myself for years for the big phone call that he had a massive heart attack or stroke or something (he also had congestive heart failure)- I was not prepared for the horror that is cancer. Fuck.

When does the overwhelming heart ache go away? I'm so afraid to take Ollie back there tonight and having to answer the "Where's Poppop?" question. He loved his Poppop. How long will it take to feel normal?

[textbookcase]

I'm so sorry

[flex]

Oh honey. I'm so sorry! ((hugs))

Allow yourself plenty of time to grieve. Even though it hurts, don't wish it away. It's a normal process that takes some time.

To answer your question: for me personally, it took 13 months for it to stop hurting every single minute. ((hugs))

[cereal K]

so sorry. lots of hugs and prayers for you and your family.

[lightyears]

oh, darling. i am so sorry. hugs forever.

[BaliHai]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Jalapeñomel]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[FastHands]

I'm so sorry. I'm so glad you were able to spend time with him. *hugs*

[SKP82]

I'm so sorry.

I don't know how long it takes, but I would let myself feel those feelings. He meant a lot to you. Allow yourself to grieve and be patient with yourself.

[noodle]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[bcv513]

I'm so so sorry for your loss

[hungrycaterpillar]

Hugs thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for your loss. Slowly, but eventually, your pain will ease. Surround yourself with those you love. We are here for you.

[alzi]

I'm so sorry:(

[flamingeaux]

I'm so sorry for your loss, and I'm glad you were able to spend time with him.

[jlt19]

I'm so very sorry. Only time can help heal, but it'll never go away completely.

[gogadgetgo]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[mskitkat]

*hugs* I am so sorry for your loss.

[bania]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[nsl]

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.

[toepick]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad that you were able to spend time with him at the end.

[nahoku]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. ((Megachoo))

[usuallylurking]

I'm so sorry for your loss. DS1 handled my grandma's death last month (his "GG") much better than I did. Ollie will be a bright spot for all of you. ((hugs))

[isabel]

I'm tearing up for you. I am so very sorry. ((hugs))

[spitforspat]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[ElizabethBennet]

((Hugs)) I am so sorry for your loss

[aussiecrush]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my thoughts.

[karenj]

I am so sorry. Take care of you and just take it one day at a time.


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[SpartanGirl]

I am so sorry. ((HUGS))

[ZoeHart]

I'm so so sorry. I'm glad you were able to be there for him and for you this past week. Huge hugs.

[meganew]

Thanks guys. I'm trying to let it all out and cry when I feel like crying, but I keep getting told to relax because I'm pregnant and need to think of the baby.