well, a little ptsd here tonight

[ProfessorArtNerd]

Hey, did you ever talk to someone, after DS1 and DS2 were all sortEd out?

[sparkythelawyer]

Aw, Sue.

You have done an amazing job taking care of those boys.

Once you get home, its time to take care of YOU, ok? You know what you need to do.

[sofamonkey]

Aw, I am sorry you are stressed.    Typically, the ICU is more patient attentive because they have a lower ratio.  But rational info doesn't help irrational (and inevitable) thoughts.   Good luck tonight & I hope healing goes well.  ((hugs))

[sparkythelawyer]

Jul 24, 2014 20:46:28 GMT -5 @cse1960 said:

Jul 24, 2014 20:44:35 GMT -5 ProfessorArtNerd said:

Hey, did you ever talk to someone, after DS1 and DS2 were all sortEd out?

I did, for a couple of visits. She was really odd. Told me a story about a patient of hers whose son died about the same time as ds2 was in the hospital. She told me the other lady was lucky, in a way, since her worries about her son were over, but mine were going to last forever since he's still alive. I thought WTF and didn't go back. 

Find someone else.  You're worth it.

[DotAndBuzz]

((((hugs))))

Deep breaths. Hang in there.

[MWOS]

if it's of any consolation, versed is my favorite drug of any drug I've ever done.

think about THAT.

[Deleted]

(hugs) Something about birthing a human will truly make you neurotic.

[cville]

Jul 24, 2014 20:46:28 GMT -5 @cse1960 said:

Jul 24, 2014 20:44:35 GMT -5 ProfessorArtNerd said:

Hey, did you ever talk to someone, after DS1 and DS2 were all sortEd out?

I did, for a couple of visits. She was really odd. Told me a story about a patient of hers whose son died about the same time as ds2 was in the hospital. She told me the other lady was lucky, in a way, since her worries about her son were over, but mine were going to last forever since he's still alive. I thought WTF and didn't go back. 

Listen, she was clearly a crackpot unworthy of your time.  But what would you tell someone else?  To try another person?  Because living with this isn't good for you OR your boys in the long run?  Yeah.  Do that. 

[cuddlyevil]

ICU staffs tend to be pretty awesome.

DS did well with versed too. It will help.

Try to rest. He is in good hands.

[ProfessorArtNerd]

I'm going to hound you, starting next week, to find a non-crackpot to talk to.

[nsl]

(((hugs)))

I had a similar irrational meltdown when DS 2 was in the NICU for a few days and I was absolutely convinced that he had pulled off his little eye shield and was going to go blind from looking at the bili lights. I knew I was being nuts, but the anxiety and panic didn't go away until I was back on the unit with him.

Hope you're feeling a bit better now that you've seen him and that you can get a good night's sleep.

ETA: and definitely ask your doctor for a referral to a new therapist.  You know you'd tell anyone here to do just that if they'd been through what you have with your kids.  Take care of yourself!

[Deleted]

Elevated BP & heart rate are pretty common after anesthesia, at least thats what DH's nurse told me after his last procedure. Should go down soon!

Hope you can find some m&ms soon!

[Deleted]

Jul 24, 2014 20:56:41 GMT -5 @cse1960 said:

Jul 24, 2014 20:51:52 GMT -5 Adora Belle Dearheart said:

This is crazy. No gift store? Vending machines? Tea and some chocolate are hospital essentials. 

the vending machines have water and juice. The potato chip/candy machines have PRETZLS and baked chips. No candy. 

You'd think they would try harder at recruiting customers. Put some damn fat and sugar in those things!

[cleo29]

I wish I could send you some snickerdoodles. . Just hang in there, he's in good hands. Just keep telling yourself that and remember to breath.

[sofamonkey]

I hope this isn't too weird, since I am new & all.  But I am thinking of you & I keep hoping (wishing) that a huge bag of M&Ms find their way to you.  <3

[WOT?*]

I am so sorry @cse1960. He'll be fine and then you'll be fine too.

[nicanmatt]

UGH, Hospital food and snacks are the worst! The only redeeming food at ours is a fruit, yogurt and granola parfait that they sell for breakfast-but they sell out quick.

I hope that your DH can take a break and make a run to get some snacks. Do you have anything light and breezy to read or a game to play while you stay with him tonight? I hope that you can relax, now that you are with DS. I understand how scary it is to leave for rounds and hope that you can pick up some breakfast during them in the morning so you feel productive, at least.

Lots and lots of thoughts and prayers for you, DH and your DS.

[kristie]

Versed is fantastic and he probably won't remember much of today or tomorrow. Sorry you freaked out, but glad everything is going well.

[sugarbear]

Sorry it's all so stressful
But, Versed is a gift.

[aprilsails]

I'm sorry you had a rough night. He will be out of the ICU soon and back home before you know it. Hang in there Mama Bear.

[daisycat]

Hugs momma!

[alicenelson]

Huge hugs!

[10nille]

I hate the panic of trying to get to your child,no matter their age, being a mom is just a lifelong job. I'm glad he is doing fine and I hope you get some candy!

[JayhawkGirl]

I thought of you often today. I'm happy to drop a junk food care package off for you in the AM.

[aussiecrush]

Oh Sue Sue. I hope you are getting a little sleep and tomorrow brings less anxiety and more chocolate. Your kid is a trooper.

[mrsukyankee]

I wish I lived near you so I could be your therapist. I'm not a crackpot and I would never tell you an idiotic story like that. I'm sorry you had such a bad therapist experience. Look for a good CBT person and find out what their training is (they should have had more than a few weekend courses).

[venice2007]

Huge hugs to you!

[Saint Monica]

:: strokes sue sue's hair::

[lizrd7579]

(((hugs))) being a momma is one of the hardest jobs, especially when you have no control over what's happening to your kiddos. But, I know you're one of the best!!

[MixedBerryJam]

Jul 24, 2014 20:46:28 GMT -5 @cse1960 said:

Jul 24, 2014 20:44:35 GMT -5 ProfessorArtNerd said:

Hey, did you ever talk to someone, after DS1 and DS2 were all sortEd out?

I did, for a couple of visits. She was really odd. Told me a story about a patient of hers whose son died about the same time as ds2 was in the hospital. She told me the other lady was lucky, in a way, since her worries about her son were over, but mine were going to last forever since he's still alive. I thought WTF and didn't go back. 

So, condolences on your living son? What a lunatic. I'm sorry about your panicky thing with your sone last night ... I hope he's more and more on the mend by the hour. You, too!