Last night I was holding DD as if she was still a baby and I said I want another one. DH said he wants another one but thought I was done with 2. I always thought I was but now I am seriously considering it.
I have to go into a meeting soon with Big Wig boss. There is some monster tension going on in my department right now so he has set up individual meetings. I have so many things to say, but there are sides and alliances, and secret hand shakes and whatever. I don't know what to besides just go in and derp.
And I only have 15 minutes so I have to be efficient.
I failed my gestational diabetes test by 8pts. Now I have to do the 3hr test, I failed the test by the same number of points when pregnant with my son. I was hoping that because I'm in better shape this time I could avoid it. Stupid genetics!!
My uterus is pissed off. I want to curl in a ball and cry. Vegas (uh...new dude I met in Vegas, in case you didn't know) asked if he could come over :eyebrow wiggle" tonight. I told him that I probably wouldn't be as much fun as normal...but he still wants to come over just to hang out.
You guise. I don't know about this. The guy is super cool, and I get a little giddy when I get his texts and such. I don't think I should be feeling like this, but I like it too. So conflicted.
Post by cinderbella on Aug 21, 2014 15:42:19 GMT -5
My kids are on their way up to Duluth with my parents - this means I have THREE FREE DAYS WITH NO CHILDREN TO WATCH. No food to cut up, no shitty kids TV shows to watch, no clothes to pick out, no battles over who gets to play with the Leapster.
One kid comes back Sunday so then I have another four days of remembering how easy life is with only one kid.
Back to normal next Thursday. A slap in the face. But I suppose I'll miss them by then.
My oh so wonderful h took my car out of province and put a dent in the front bumper. H, why do you have to do stuff like that? If you're going to go banging into stuff, can you at least take your own damn truck? You know, the one you bought brand new in March because you wanted something reliable to drive back and forth? The one you decided that you're putting too many kilometres on, so you'll just take my car instead EVEN THOUGH the whole reason you bought the truck was to drive out there? Yeah, go dent that up. Not my poor car.
A few days ago my kid dumped a whole bottle of argan oil on her head. I've washed her hair 4 times and it's still sticky.
I say this with internet-love and also say it knowing I wouldn't listen to me because I make bad decisions.
That said, tread very lightly here. Didn't you just post (I think on SO) that you still wanted to try to get your H back? And you were going to take time to get "you" into a good place? Please do that. Have fun, but don't just hide in this other guy.
Yup...I know. That is why it is so terrible. I go to Vegas trying to just have a good time, no strings kind of deal...then whaddya know, I meet a super cool dude who lives like 10 minutes from me. Do I shun the cool dude because I am not ready for a relationship, or do I just do what feels good and hope it works out?
I am still working on me though, therapy, working out, all that jazz
This pregnancy is hitting me a lot harder than my first. I feel achy and gross most of the time. My belly is also bigger this time around, which I expected because I only had a year between pregnancies. Usually, it doesn't bother me when people comment on how big my belly is, but yesterday I almost lost it on a stranger while out shopping.
stranger: When are you due?
me: November.
stranger: Whoa, you look like you're due much sooner than that!
me:Nope, its November.
Stranger: Are you sure there aren't twins in there!? I Have twins, so I know what that belly looks like.
me: Nope, there's only one baby in there.
Stranger: Well, that must be one HUGE baby! It's probably a boy, right?
Omg, she just kept going. And going. Usually, I'm not even phased by the comments, but this lady just really pissed me off.
I'm just gonna copy and paste my rant from MMM here about not being able to find my kid's shoes.
MOTHER FUCKER. O wore a pair of white pediped sandals all weekend. Wore them to a baseball game. Wore them to my SIL's house. I remember putting them in my bag. I did not find them in the bag. I did not find them with a hag. I did not find them in the car. I did not find them under the bar.
WHERE THE FUCK ARE THESE SHOES. MY KID HAS WIDE ASS FEET, APPARENTLY LIKE FUCKING ROYALTY BECAUSE THOSE CHUBBO TOES DON'T FIT IN ANY SHOE UNDER $40. WTF, VIKING PRINCESS.
If I replace them, I will find the original pair, but only after the secondary pair has been well worn and thus unable to return.
Yup...I know. That is why it is so terrible. I go to Vegas trying to just have a good time, no strings kind of deal...then whaddya know, I meet a super cool dude who lives like 10 minutes from me. Do I shun the cool dude because I am not ready for a relationship, or do I just do what feels good and hope it works out?
I am still working on me though, therapy, working out, all that jazz
My armchair therapy side says yes. You do shun the cool dude. Because getting into something now is not a healthy way to begin a relationship if that's what you may want in the future. And if you two are supposed to be together, you can explore that once you've had time to figure out you and get divorced and process that and when the time comes, if it's right, he'll be there. And if you don't care about a relationship, ok. But the giddiness is worrisome and I just don't want you to trade having your feelings depend on N for having them depend on Vegas. KWIM?
The other side says "fuck it, do what feels good." But...that's what got me here sitting in a therpist's waiting room. So...yeah.
Blind leading the blind eh?
I get what you are saying though, it honestly is a concern to me too. But I am also really glad it happened because it kind of slapped me out of this funk of romanticising N. He did some shitty things that I have only recognized as truly shitty due to someone treating me in the opposite way.
Post by wildfloweragain on Aug 21, 2014 16:05:09 GMT -5
Got a lot done in my classroom today while my 3 children took turns helping, playing and watching Brave. I only get one good day like that, right? It was magical, though.
junebug, sorry. I was so much less comfortable physically and emotionally with my second pregnancy. I enjoyed the attention the first time around.. not so much with E.
Thanks. I think that is where I'm at with this one. Apparently, I am also grumpier this time around lol.
My brain is mush from listening to the dullest woman ever to walk this earth on the finer points of public speaking - for the most part she was speaking about how she does her job as a coach for public speakers. My job has very little to do with public speaking and it was just...painful.
But, I'm drinking a beer in the hotel, about to go find some take out, walk it out to the sound side of the island and watch the sunset.
H got a free ticket to the baseball game - a much needed bro-date. I'm happy for him.
I definitely don't need to get as drunk as I did last night. But I will be spending my night time on here for a change.
I have heartburn. Like to the point of uncomfortable. But nothing here to take for it. But I'm on a roll so I'm going to just power through.
Dd is with my mom today and they just stopped by because they were at the castle (aka the Capitol building) and my office is only a couple blocks away. It was a nice surprise and a nice little break.
Post by litebright on Aug 21, 2014 16:08:58 GMT -5
Yesterday was our nine-year anniversary.
It alllllmost sucked, because we had to cancel our babysitter last minute b/c DD1 was having nasty diarrrhea (and accidents, poor thing) and a low-grade fever. And I was completely stressed out due to a major work deadline. I'd really been looking forward to going out after I finished. And we've been so crazy-busy that we both admitted we hadn't even had time to get each other cards.
But DH stayed home from work (which is kind of huge) to take care of DD1 so I could work, cleaned, went out and got me roses and made a great dinner including steaks and homemade french fries, plus champagne. And we even managed to find some surprises for each other: I bought us tickets to a big brewery tasting event at the local zoo in a few weeks, and he got us a groupon for a wine-tasting and bottle from a local vineyard.
So it actually ended up still being good, and I LOL that we basically gifted each other with drinking opportunities. Cheers for nine years!
I just applied to refinance my rental house and was denied because it's under water. I figured. I'm going to talk to my bank about deed in lieu of foreclosure. Do I need an attorney for that? My mom stressed that I get an attorney a few months back when I first considered it. I left messages with a few real estate attorneys and they never called me back.
I am looking forward to getting rid of this house.
Post by sandyapples on Aug 21, 2014 16:44:17 GMT -5
I am a PMS monster today. As soon as H got home I hid in the bedroom and they are eating supper without me. I have a hair appt in a half hour hopefully it will make me feel better.
Post by sherbanator on Aug 21, 2014 16:44:58 GMT -5
Today is my anniversary. My husband and I are separated by his choice, not mine. Clearly a traumatic event for me.
My mom was trying to be thoughtful and sent a text this morning about how she is thinking of me today on our first anniversary apart and let her know if I needed anything. I hadn't even thought about it this morning yet and it was the very first thing I saw after waking up. It was a nice thought but that text really messed up my morning.
I'm irrationally irritated that I have to go home and clean. My dad is watching my kids at my house tomorrow. It's not that bad and he is doing me a favor, but I feel like shit. I just want to curl up in my pajamas and watch trashy reality TV.
Post by captainobvious on Aug 21, 2014 16:54:41 GMT -5
I'm having one of those moments when I was right about something I didn't want to be right about, so now I have to deal with the situation. It's worth related so it's not something that will be bad for me in the end, it's just annoying.
My digestive track has stopped working overtime and food is procesxing normally again. I can't decide if I should milk this for a 2nd day off work that I can actually enjoy and segue into a long weekend, or if I shoukd be responsible and show up to work tomorrow.
Theodore. This child. I heard Sofia saying "it's a bunglebee, it's a bunglebee!", so I went to check on what she was talking about. Theo had something in his hand and he was trying to put it in his mouth, so obviously I tried to get it away from him. I thought it was just a fly or something because I could only see a little bug head squirming around between Theo's fingers, but he opened up his hand and it was a wasp. Of course the wasp stung him, and it was PISSED when it got free and was buzzing around Sofia's room looking for it's next target, so I was freaking out trying to get everyone out of her bedroom tripping on every toy on the way out. Poor kid, though. I'm just glad he didn't get it into his mouth. That would have sucked.
H told me yesterday that if our kids get lice, to just shave their heads. Boy or girl, doesn't matter. I got irrationally mad and told him to be sensible and think logically. I went to bed mad. Lol.