My best friend, the friend who I always planned to be pregnant with, the friend who tells me everything, the friend who moved 4 years ago and lives in Taiwan...called me last night and sounded so sad to tell me that they were 3 months pregnant.
It was the single most depressing moment of my life. I burst into tears. I hated that she felt sad to tell me because she knew we have been trying for a year. I hated that she got pregnant after 3 weeks of being off BCP. I hated that I was so jealous. I hate that she lives literally across the world from me and I hate that we won't be pregnant at the same time.
I am truly happy for her, but lord, that one hurt.
I have been crying pretty steadily since last night. My husband has as well. It is just so hard.
That's all. Thanks for letting me cry it out to people who are going through similar situations.
Thanks for understanding guys. i feel like an awful friend because even though I am happy for her, I am starting to get resentful and depressed when those closest to me announce their pregnancy (especially without trying). Just typing that makes me realize how awful I am. I wish her nothing but the best for her pregnancy and I am SO SO happy for them. But yeah, punch to the gut.
Post by vanillahip on Aug 27, 2014 11:57:38 GMT -5
::hugs:: my BFF is due next month and I toooootally get what you're feeling. It blows, and I wish it was different, but your feelings are valid and will lessen with time (and then maybe get worse other times but what can you do?) ::more hugs::