So happy to read your updates. Your health is more important than anything. Your job means nothing if you aren't there to enjoy the benefits. I'm thinking of you, glad the hike was fun!
Spent the night with my stepmom. This woman is one of my heroes.
Her and my sister have both suggested that I find faith. I'm not religious and don't believe in God. I grew up in a fairly religious household but don't practice and don't believe.
I am spiritual and belive in something bigger. I have a friend coming over when I get back to cleanse my house. And then I'll be asking her about orgs in the area that are more spiritual focused than religious.
Tonight is my brothers wedding and I know I'm going to cry. I'm so proud of the man he's become.
I'm at the airport... Shaking because 1) I hate flying 2) I'm nervous as fuck to go home.
I had breakfast with 2 of my girlfriends and it was great to see them + catch up.
I'm still feeling worthless but stronger..... If that makes any sense. I feel loved and know that I have people rooting for me + there when I need them.
I'm feeling more anxious than anything. I'm sitting at a park watching the planes fly by.
I'm texting people and left a few voice mails.
I don't feel like hurting myself. Just feel anxious being at my house. The energy is still very negative. My friend is coming over later to cleanse it.
Also, I'm really glad this hasn't turned into a typical bliss thread. The unexpected support means so much.
I think this is a great thing to focus on. You posted this to what I assume is your biggest group of haters, and people have given you nothing but support, prayers, and good thoughts. We are all pulling for you.
Okay.... I napped, ate and talked to my mental health fairy godmother. I've spoken to the same lady every couple of days until I get into therapy. She's been great and makes me feel better.
We're getting a lock for my door so people can't access the balcony.
And tomorrow I have a library + work date with a friend.
I'm home alone and feeling okay. I'm doing laundry, organizing my paperwork + prepping space for an "office".
I finally got all my food stamps info so I'm worrying about one less thing.
Unemployment is still a pain in the ass but I should get 3 weeks of payments tomorrow. Everything is by mail and it takes forever.... This has been one of my largest stressors.
I'll be going to a mental health center tomorrow. My car is still in oceanside or I'd go today.
Trying to find someone to take me to my car before 7pm (when my roommate can take me) but it's not going so well.
I'm home alone and feeling okay. I'm doing laundry, organizing my paperwork + prepping space for an "office".
I finally got all my food stamps info so I'm worrying about one less thing.
Unemployment is still a pain in the ass but I should get 3 weeks of payments tomorrow. Everything is by mail and it takes forever.... This has been one of my largest stressors.
I'll be going to a mental health center tomorrow. My car is still in oceanside or I'd go today.
Trying to find someone to take me to my car before 7pm (when my roommate can take me) but it's not going so well.
Anyways, that's today's update.
Sounds like you have some things to look forward to tomorrow. Organizing often helps me to clear my mind and feel better about my direction.