I'm in my classroom and the preschool and kindergarten teachers are having a meet and greet for their students. They can come in, meet their teacher, and drop off their supplies. Great for them. Bad for me. I keep getting interrupted by past students or ones I have this year because they are here with their younger siblings. I am so annoyed. I just want to get my work done! When it started this morning, I almost shut my door and turned the lights off. No one would be able to see me if I stay at my desk! I feel like the back to school Scrooge.
Our Target has recently remodeled. Their baby section has been weird and I've attributed it to the remodel. But it's never been a big deal. Well yesterday they only had the SMALL packages of size 6 diapers and I got mad (but didn't tell anyone). And then I got madder when I saw that Targ now makes NIGHTTIME diapers, but they don't carry the biggest size. I rationalized it in my head that they would need the bigger sizes MORE because kids wear dipes to bed longer than they wear dipes during the day.
Anyway, the point is, I felt judged by Target for my 2 year old not being potty trained!!!!
Our target had them in size six. I picked them up yesterday.
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I got M a new camelbak water jug yesterday and she LOVED IT. She drank like 10oz of water in 20 mins and then drank a bunch more after dinner.
She peed like 7 times between 5pm-7pm. Lol
She's potty trained but we put diapers on at night. She's been waking up dry since Sunday but I figured her diaper would be like newborn wet this morning and it was bone dry! She was even up in the motn asking for water.
Holy shit! She peed like a gallon this morning. I'm so proud of her!
I don't know what it is about those but that's how I get J to drink so much water. He loves his!
Which one? Laney needs more water and this kind of stuff works for her..
matilda doesn't want to wear a diaper at night anymore. Two nights now we've put her to bed in her underwear and H reports she has woken up dry. I'm baffled by the whole thing because like two months ago she was leaking through diapers sometimes because she peed so much. She's always been a loaded morning diaper kid.
She's officially far better at holding her pee than I am as I cannot STTN without peeing now
Post by puppylove64 on Aug 27, 2014 10:54:39 GMT -5
jsillyfun L was big into rage pee a while back and it is like he completely forgot about it being a tactic. Hope it passes for you quickly, I know how frustrating it is!
99% of the time I feel fine/normal then sometimes I just get these random thoughts out of nowhere. Like I'll be changing william on the changing table and then I think "if he fell off now and hit his head and died, then what would I do? I'd have to kill myself too." then sometimes like just a while ago I was thinking about whether it would be "better" if I died or if H died. "probably me" i thought, because I feel like H would deal better with the whole situation than I would. Then I got panicky thinking oh no, H is probably going to die and I can't deal with the kids on my own.
this does not seem normal to me, to have these thoughts. But then 99% of the time I feel completely normal. Just going about my day as normal and a crazy thought pops into my head. I can't think back if I felt like this after Matilda was born? I feel like... I don't need to go to the doctor, most of the time I'm totally fine
seeing honeybees post made me think of this. also, foolishly I think I "don't have time" to go to the doctor anyway and also I feel like I don't know how I would explain myself, I'd feel like a weirdo. Like mostly I'm fine then sometimes I just get crazy thoughts! Then two minutes later I'm fine again. And I don't want to take antidepressants yet I worry they will tell me to. I just have this fear that if I start taking antidepressants I will have to take them forever. I know none of this is rational.
I don't even feel depressed really is the thing. I feel fine/generally happy most of the time. But why the crazy thoughts? aaah
99% of the time I feel fine/normal then sometimes I just get these random thoughts out of nowhere. Like I'll be changing william on the changing table and then I think "if he fell off now and hit his head and died, then what would I do? I'd have to kill myself too." then sometimes like just a while ago I was thinking about whether it would be "better" if I died or if H died. "probably me" i thought, because I feel like H would deal better with the whole situation than I would. Then I got panicky thinking oh no, H is probably going to die and I can't deal with the kids on my own.
this does not seem normal to me, to have these thoughts. But then 99% of the time I feel completely normal. Just going about my day as normal and a crazy thought pops into my head. I can't think back if I felt like this after Matilda was born? I feel like... I don't need to go to the doctor, most of the time I'm totally fine
seeing honeybees post made me think of this. also, foolishly I think I "don't have time" to go to the doctor anyway and also I feel like I don't know how I would explain myself, I'd feel like a weirdo. Like mostly I'm fine then sometimes I just get crazy thoughts! Then two minutes later I'm fine again. And I don't want to take antidepressants yet I worry they will tell me to. I just have this fear that if I start taking antidepressants I will have to take them forever. I know none of this is rational.
I don't even feel depressed really is the thing. I feel fine/generally happy most of the time. But why the crazy thoughts? aaah
I have crazy thoughts, too. It has gotten better lately, but it was crazy after each kid was born.
Post by honeybee503 on Aug 27, 2014 11:16:39 GMT -5
laurack I can totally relate. Yesterday I felt pretty good for the most part, so I was even contemplating cancelling my appointment thinking it'll just go away. I have some good days but thoughts about things happening to the kids, me, or my H pop into my head a lot. Sometimes they are just really disturbing, and I have a hard time shaking them. I really want to stop those. I have been telling myself that I don't want to feel like this anymore, or get so angry with my kids when they are fussy. Even though I think over and over that he's just a baby and will stop crying eventually, it's like his cries set off this rage inside me that is hard to shut down. I hate it and want it to go away asap.
((Hugs)) I hope you start feeling better soon, too.
laurack I have always been one for those kind of thoughts. Like, if I stand on a balcony I think about what would happen if I throw myself off. Or if Thad died would I be able to have another kid.
I think if 99% of your life these thoughts aren't consuming then you are fine. Everyone has weird moments and thoughts.
laurack I can totally relate. Yesterday I felt pretty good for the most part, so I was even contemplating cancelling my appointment thinking it'll just go away. I have some good days but thoughts about things happening to the kids, me, or my H pop into my head a lot. Sometimes they are just really disturbing, and I have a hard time shaking them. I really want to stop those. I have been telling myself that I don't want to feel like this anymore, or get so angry with my kids when they are fussy. Even though I think over and over that he's just a baby and will stop crying eventually, it's like his cries set off this rage inside me that is hard to shut down. I hate it and want it to go away asap.
((Hugs)) I hope you start feeling better soon, too.
I know rationally they are 2 and a baby so any issue is really my own, they can't help being what they are.
but in the moment I have a hard time just being calm sometimes. I know its normal, of course it is, a two year old and a baby would put anyone in a poor state of mind at times but I'm just not sure what the line is.
The other night I was thinking, if something happened to him (like he fell) then I'd feel guilty like I almost WANTED it to happen, which is not true at all because the idea of either of my kids getting hurt is horrifying to me. However I just felt like.. if something did happen, would I blame myself and think I subconsciously wanted it to because I can't deal with two screaming at me at once?
then I have bursts of love for them, so strong I feel like crying because I love them so much and I feel guilty for not being a better mom.
laurack I have always been one for those kind of thoughts. Like, if I stand on a balcony I think about what would happen if I throw myself off. Or if Thad died would I be able to have another kid.
I think if 99% of your life these thoughts aren't consuming then you are fine. Everyone has weird moments and thoughts.
yes sometimes I have these thoughts too, not even related to the kids. Like you said I would picture things like.. oh what if I just threw myself in front of the train! Even though I don't feel at all suicidal. I mean, I certainly do NOT want to die, I enjoy living a lot so it doesn't make any sense.
Post by dixeedeluxe on Aug 27, 2014 11:30:34 GMT -5
I have those thoughts too and from what I gather from others who are in treatment for severe OCD thoughts, I've learned that it might not be "normal", but those thoughts aren't indicitive of a bigger problem. If those thoughts start to disrupt your day (I can't put him on the changing table because he will fall and then I'd have to harm myself), or even worse if you think it DID happen (he fell off the changing table when he really didn't), then it's a really big deal.
But if it's not disruptive to your day, then it's not worrysome in the bigger picture. If you want to talk to someone about it is up to you, obviously.
But laurack, if you're already on SSRIs, you might want to check in with your doc just to make sure this isn't a side effect.
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Post by dixeedeluxe on Aug 27, 2014 11:34:53 GMT -5
I'm still having gross guts and I'm trying to feed myself food that will make me not have gross guts. By "trying" I mean thinking about it and making myself feel worse when I can't choose good things. For example, yesterday I was AT THE GROCERY STORE so I could choose from ALL THE FOODS and I picked....buffalo chicken pizza. Just now at lunch, I went to Targ and again could pick from almost all the foods. I came home and made....grilled cheese with bacon.
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Post by breezy8407 on Aug 27, 2014 11:38:25 GMT -5
laurack I have thoughts like that too and I don't have the I just had a baby excuse to make it seem normal. I also have the thoughts of WHEN would I ever find time to see someone. I know it's a lame excuse, but I can't fathom missing any work and that's where it would have to come from.
honeybee503 's post got me thinking a lot. Especially yesterday I was just overly emotional about everything.
I have those thoughts too and from what I gather from others who are in treatment for severe OCD thoughts, I've learned that it might not be "normal", but those thoughts aren't indicitive of a bigger problem. If those thoughts start to disrupt your day (I can't put him on the changing table because he will fall and then I'd have to harm myself), or even worse if you think it DID happen (he fell off the changing table when he really didn't), then it's a really big deal.
But if it's not disruptive to your day, then it's not worrysome in the bigger picture. If you want to talk to someone about it is up to you, obviously.
But laurack, if you're already on SSRIs, you might want to check in with your doc just to make sure this isn't a side effect.
I'm not on anything except birth control which I'm considering stopping for a month just to see.
I do think I've always had these random crazy thoughts but never really worried about it. I don't consider myself a depressive person and I think the only reason it worries me now is because I have children. Before it was just me, I mean I knew I wasn't going to really throw myself in front of a train. But now I worry like OMG WHAT IF I DID. Then my children wouldn't have a mother. Even though I know I won't actually do it because I'm not at all suicidal.
it makes no sense.
I also worry about dying from other things like having a random heart attack and dying and I get sad about leaving my children behind. Or I convince myself I'm going to get some kind of terrible cancer and not only will I die but they will have to see me really ill first, and that's even sadder.
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