Speaking of neuroses

[glw]

This is the biggest brag-plaint ever, for which I apologize in advance. 


My life is super awesome right now. Husband, house, health, friends, money, all the best I could imagine. Our parents are healthy and supportive, our jobs are secure, everything feels settled and "right." Thus, I am terrified of these things changing. Like, I get fixated on the fact that our closest friends are all currently breeding and will soon drop off into Parentland, our parents are all pushing 70 and with that comes health issues and dependency and emotions (gross), and both G's industry and mine are undergoing major changes right now and there's a chance that our jobs could change significantly in years to come, and soon I'm going to have wrinkles and grey hair and I am VAIN, and we'll probably never again have the free time/cash to travel as much as we do now...

These are the "remember when..." days. And I'm kinda sad about it? Which is counterintuitive. And I don't really do feelings so anything illogical really bothers me. I really do make the most of it right now, I just get panicky about it all being downhill from here. 

[OrangePixyStix]

I can understand that. Enjoy the near-perfection while you can, since all good things usually do come to an end at some point, haha.

I have only felt that way at a couple points in my life, so I do try to relish in the goodness whenever I can since it seems rare to have only minor concerns or few reasons to complain about things. I'm hoping this period lasts for a really long time for you and G, as I am sure you deserve all the awesomeness you are experiencing!

[Deleted]

I think about stuff like that ALL of the time. It's like I realize things are going really well right now, but when is the other shoe going to drop? And what will change, and will I be OK, blah, blah, blah.

[glw]

Aug 27, 2014 10:48:48 GMT -5 @psugrad said:

It's like I realize things are going really well right now, but when is the other shoe going to drop?  

Exactly! I've always been this way, so at least I'm consistent? lol


And thanks, OrangePixyStix, you're so sweet.

[honeydew1894]

I always think of the line Charlotte said in the SATC movie: "I am so happy, I'm terrified." I hear you.

[MyName]

I hear you. I have not been this happy in years, and I know it's only a matter of time before something happens to fuck it up. I hate change normally, but I think going through all these huge life changes recently has improved my outlook.

The saddest for me is when I think of holidays with my family as older relatives, my parents, etc. pass away and maybe my siblings could move far away or get married and split holidays, etc. It will just never be the same, but in reality, it's already not the same as it used to be and everyone has adjusted.

And since you mentioned feelings twice in the OP (wow, lol), I'll tell you that sometimes I get hit with a sense of dread and have to think about what would make me feel that - it is usually my parents dying, there being a tragic accident, etc - and I feel more prepared for reality having thought about the possibility.

But then I shake it off and forget about it. 

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[sitnspin]

I know exactly how you feel and you are not alone.  I always am waiting for one plate to drop that I am spinning.

[Deleted]

I'm with you on this. I can never fully enjoy when things are 'just right' because I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop.

[boofly]

I have been dealing with this feeling for months! In the SATC movie there's a part where Charlotte says "nobody gets everything they want" and that's how I feel. I'm sorry you're dealing with it.

I'm trying to tell myself that since I'm practical and have supportive people in my life things will always work out. And maybe, I'll get to have my version of everything. I think you will too. <3

[jennynumbers]

I am kinda the opposite. I definitely live in the moment. It's good, but then sometimes I feel like I'm not thinking about my future enough.