Weather was great this weekend and a good time occurred but money is bleeding from my bank account. Being an adult stinks sometimes. Positive: today is zoo day! Excited to check out the new orangutan exhibit at the Indy Zoo. Hoping the rain holds off until late this afternoon.
I'm having a rough start to the week. Feeling sorry for myself. I moved here 4 years ago with my ex even though I had no family or friends. I figured that I was a part of her family and that would be enough. My brother lives 3 hours away so I took comfort in that.
Fast forward 4 years and now we aren't together therefore I'm not a part of her family anymore. I have a whopping 2 friends. And I found out that my brother is moving across the country for a new job. So I literally have nothing here for me. Except now that we had a child together and share joint custody (which is looking like that won't be changing) I am stuck. I want so badly to move back to where my friends and family are but am stuck here thanks to the custody. It sucks and I am feeling very alone. I did not move here for my life to go to shit and it has.
I'm having a rough start to the week. Feeling sorry for myself. I moved here 4 years ago with my ex even though I had no family or friends. I figured that I was a part of her family and that would be enough. My brother lives 3 hours away so I took comfort in that.
Fast forward 4 years and now we aren't together therefore I'm not a part of her family anymore. I have a whopping 2 friends. And I found out that my brother is moving across the country for a new job. So I literally have nothing here for me. Except now that we had a child together and share joint custody (which is looking like that won't be changing) I am stuck. I want so badly to move back to where my friends and family are but am stuck here thanks to the custody. It sucks and I am feeling very alone. I did not move here for my life to go to shit and it has.
Ugh, I'm sorry. I would recommend trying to get involved in a lot more things your area so you can meet people and make more friends. I joined an Active 20/30 club and have met a ton of great people! What about meet up.com?
I'm excited about Monday. I've got a good game plan for the week which always makes me feel great!
I'm also going to take P to a 4-H meeting tonight so I'm excited about that. He's a little young to actually raise an animal but they have a junior 4-H group and I think he'll really like it!
I had a date last night, the first one since becoming a widow. It went well! I like him and we're getting together again later this week. Plus, no disturbing, guilt-induced dreams so far. Yay!
I have a very hard time putting myself out there and meeting new people. I have this "they won't like me" or "I'm not good enough" mentality so most of the time I don't even try. That's why I haven't tried dating either. I think I'm not pretty enough or I'll be judged by the way I look and no one will want me. I'm way too critical of myself and have almost no self esteem. Ugh. It sucks.
I have a very hard time putting myself out there and meeting new people. I have this "they won't like me" or "I'm not good enough" mentality so most of the time I don't even try. That's why I haven't tried dating either. I think I'm not pretty enough or I'll be judged by the way I look and no one will want me. I'm way too critical of myself and have almost no self esteem. Ugh. It sucks.
Girl, you and me both. If you look in last week's FFFC you will see that there are a WHOLE lot of us that feel the same way. You are not alone! Also, there was a self esteem thread on ML last week and someone mentioned this book "Mind Over Mood", I bought it on amazon this weekend, it's kind of like a workbook so a kindle version wouldn't work I don't think. Anyway, I ordered it and should get it today.
I'll look into that book. It's really interfering with my life by allowing myself to have these thoughts and insecurities. It's preventing me from being social in any aspect and really isolating. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one.
Post by peppermint on Sept 15, 2014 8:11:38 GMT -5
good morning all! i've had a productive start this morning after a good night's sleep last night. the weather is AMAZING (hello, fall! <3) and my pup's allergies are starting to get better (thank god!) - i'm ready to make this a great week!
I hate it. I had my resume re-done and it really looks great. I tailor it to jobs etc. There has been like 5 jobs I REALLY wanted, and no response from my application. It baffles me sometimes, it's like I am the job description and no bites!
I hate it. I had my resume re-done and it really looks great. I tailor it to jobs etc. There has been like 5 jobs I REALLY wanted, and no response from my application. It baffles me sometimes, it's like I am the job description and no bites!
I've been applying for jobs for almost 3 weeks now and NOTHING. I got my BF to go over my resume and help me out with it. Still, nothing. AH. I just want a job. ANY job. My only requirement is that it's close to me because I am SO tired of the commute.
I hate it. I had my resume re-done and it really looks great. I tailor it to jobs etc. There has been like 5 jobs I REALLY wanted, and no response from my application. It baffles me sometimes, it's like I am the job description and no bites!
I've been applying for jobs for almost 3 weeks now and NOTHING. I got my BF to go over my resume and help me out with it. Still, nothing. AH. I just want a job. ANY job. My only requirement is that it's close to me because I am SO tired of the commute.
I am trying to get motivated to start job hunting and I am already dreading it. It really might be the most frustrating process ever!
Post by cuddlyevil on Sept 15, 2014 9:54:18 GMT -5
I've followed a magazine on twitter, they're at London's fashion week this week and have been tweeting picture of some really great dresses. I've commented or favorited some, gained some new followers, and now got a boots company that asked me to tweet a selfie of my favorite fall look. And I'm all "Uh...will get right on that...". Everything I'm loving right now is for Spring...halp.
Post by lyssbobiss, Command, B613 on Sept 15, 2014 11:19:49 GMT -5
I think my pms hit hard today. Was reading through a chart ok a patient to match up names and I started crying. . I'm not sure I'm always THAT empathetic.
I had a dream that I was on vacation. It was highly disappointing to wake up and discover I am not, in fact, on a boat, motherfucker.
"This prick is asking for someone here to bring him to task Somebody give me some dirt on this vacuous mass so we can at last unmask him I'll pull the trigger on it, someone load the gun and cock it While we were all watching, he got Washington in his pocket."
I'm excited about Monday. I've got a good game plan for the week which always makes me feel great!
I'm also going to take P to a 4-H meeting tonight so I'm excited about that. He's a little young to actually raise an animal but they have a junior 4-H group and I think he'll really like it!
As a former 4-H'er, I love reading this. I can't wait to get my boys involved! I think 4-H does so many great things for kids and it's a shame that more people can't/don't want to be involved because it's viewed as "farm life".
Post by prettyinpearls on Sept 15, 2014 11:37:18 GMT -5
The kid who sits in the cubicle across from me annoys me just by his presence. He’s young (barely 20) and is just socially awkward. When he talks on the phone he uses the words/phrases that just make him sound like he doesn’t have a clue what he’s doing. (Overusing “like” or “um” or “that kinda stuff”…) I cringe when he answers his phone because I know he’ll be turning to look at me with a look on his face that says “Help me, I don’t know what I’m doing!!!” The worst part is that our jobs aren’t even related so I really CAN’T help him. Overall, he’s just a bad representation for our company.
I feel like a judgmental bitch for even saying that, but there’s something about him that I just can’t stand.
ETA: And he never wears socks. Ever. He wears dress pants with some deck shoes and no socks every single day. Sometimes he even takes off his shoes under his desk.
Post by wampuscat on Sept 15, 2014 11:48:19 GMT -5
I have a 3 day work week and then I'm off to Denver Thursday morning!
The kid spent the night with my parents last night so I could go watch NG's soccer game. We went and got take-out Chinese food afterwards, cuddled on the couch, had some awesome sex, and then I took the morning off because I just did NOT want to get out of bed with him. I like this guy. He is SO different from the guys I used to date in the past and I'm glad I took a chance with him because we actually have way more in common than I initially thought.