Not to be all attention-whorish, but if you could keep me in your thoughts today, I would greatly appreciate it. I have a big doctors appointment this morning and I am hoping to get some answers. I also have a counseling appointment later today with a new counselor. I am hoping he is a good match for me and this will relieve some of my stress and anxiety.
"This prick is asking for someone here to bring him to task Somebody give me some dirt on this vacuous mass so we can at last unmask him I'll pull the trigger on it, someone load the gun and cock it While we were all watching, he got Washington in his pocket."
I'm angry today and really want to act on it and 'tattle' on XH to his family. I'm going to be mature and keep quiet. I will be drinking/coping tonight.
Post by Wanderista on Sept 18, 2014 7:39:47 GMT -5
Good luck abcdefu! I hope that your appointments go well.
It could always change but I think that I am finally starting to feel better. I am actually starting to feel more like my normal self again so hopefully that continues. I am still having a few residual symptoms but they seem to be under control and fading.
I need to run some stuff to the dry cleaners. Exciting, I know.
I told XH yesterday that I had the divorce hearing last Thursday and that the divorce is final. I knew he had wanted to go to the hearing and be there but I didn't want some emotional display or have to have some awkward interaction so I never told him. I know he's pissed because all he responded was "Fine." I really want to move on now...he still has this address for all his mail and his bikes are still here in the building storage.
This week is flying by, can't believe it's Thursday already! I have no plans this weekend for the first time in a long time and I can't wait to get stuff done around the house!
I just found out that my friend who has a really controlling bf decided out of the blue to get a breast augmentation. I've always heard her say she was very happy with her breasts. And the BF is paying for some of it :/
I've been feeling really positive lately, despite my circumstances. I'm excited about my business; I'm poised to have a record month and I feel like I can be a financially self sufficient woman and not worry about anything from XH. It's a great feeling! I think much of life is staying positive despite things that happen. I know I've definitely let things get me down for a long time before but in the end it always turns out fine. I am trying to just focus on all of the good (not that some days don't suck, they DO) but focusing on overall how lucky I am!
I have another super busy work day -- I think this weekend I am going to do nothing at all and it will be glorious.
I'm still a bit shaken from seeing xh yesterday, but better.
Tonight I was supposed to go to watch Turtle Races with a couple gf's (and the guys who go to the Turtle Races) but it is raining really bad right now and the bar is outside. So I may need to think of an alternate plan.
It's almost Friday. That's what I'm going to keep repeating to myself. I work full-time M-F and usually just 2 or 3 shifts at my part-time job. This week is kicking my butt. I have the same schedule next week. Hope it's worth it!
Thank you so much ladies! I just got back! I met with my new doctor and I love her! She took over 2 hours with me and it was obvious she actually read through my medical history, which is rather extensive. She put together a new medication plan to reduce the amount of pills I am taking. She also confirmed what I thought all along, which I can't discuss, but at least I got my answer! I feel like a weight has been lifted.
Post by peppermint on Sept 18, 2014 10:50:46 GMT -5
hugs onedayatatime. i don't have to see my ex often, but when i do, it shakes me up more than i anticipate, so i understand where you're coming from. glad today is better!
I asked out the guy for tea last night. Asked if he wanted to go before I left the area to go back home. We went to a coffee shop and stayed the hour till it closed. It was great. He paid again. I'm going to have to be more swift on that. I don't like being treated for everything. Haha.
Anyways there was good conversation and chemistry. He texted about the time I should of arrived home to make sure I was safe.
Today, I see my therapist and work in the evening. I'm having a great day thanks to last night. Lol
Glad you are feeling a little better onedayatatime. Every time I have seen STBXH it gets to me in the same way.
OMG I have a date tonight...eeeekkkk!! It is a random guy that I have been chatting with on Tinder. He seems nice and he is cute! It's restaurant week here so I think the plan is to get dinner. I am kind of freaking out to the point that I might cancel. Or throw up. Or pass out.
WinterIsComing I want to like your post a million times, I am so excited for you. Definitely don't cancel! You are beautiful and amazing, the dude is lucky to be going out with you!
::high five:: WinterIsComing! I'm having a drink with some dude from okc tomorrow. I have to meet my sister at the train station after, so I like that there will be a set [short] amount of time I have to spend there. lol
Also, I think I'm going to message the other guy I'd been talking to, even though I haven't heard from him since last week. I have been refusing to send a message if I sent the last one, but maybe I need to check myself. I sent the last message, but it was something like, "Ok, cool." about possibly meeting up this week.
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING, AND I DO NOT LIKE IT ONE BIT.