I'm finally feeling a little more normal today. I was generally panicking some about my relationship, and also fairly embarrassed about the way my dad acted during his first meeting with BF Sunday. Like, basically in the course of their first five minutes, dad knocked BF's entire profession, then bitched about his own job, and asked if BF could get him one. Also immediately my dad brought up my ex. I don't know why. And this is why it took me 18 months to introduce them.
The breakfast cart outside of my office was out of oatmeal this morning and that bume me out. Don't switch up my routine, people! That's all I've got.
"This prick is asking for someone here to bring him to task Somebody give me some dirt on this vacuous mass so we can at last unmask him I'll pull the trigger on it, someone load the gun and cock it While we were all watching, he got Washington in his pocket."
I was really upset over what 6YG said to me, but it all went out the window yesterday when I received a letter from my alma mater and got invited to a gala!!
I really really wanna go! I have never been to a gala before! I want to get all dressed up and do gala things, right after I google what you do at a gala!!!
Ladies, I am so gonna need your help with an outfit!!! eeeeekkk!!
My therapist told me I need to get out of my comfort zone. This is a hard pill to swallow for me because I have the social anxiety and feel scared as it is. I am trying to work on this. Any advice or ways to make it better?
It's a long story, but I received a second trust settlement check yesterday that I was not expecting. I thought it was just a letter closing out my file. Good thing I opened/read it!
I am incredibly sleep deprived, but it seems like I'm getting enough HOURS on the clock. IDK WTF is going on, but I'm miserable.
I never ate dinner last night and I went to bed with a grumbling stomach. Beer for dinner isn't the best idea. Now I'm being a fat ass and consuming 2 breakfast sandwiches from Dunkin. I also overslept and had to reschedule my GI Nutrition appointment until next week. Let me celebrate with bacon!
Great date last night with EHarmony dude...I'll need a better name for him soon.
Interview after work today for a retail PT Job. I look cute, I'll just have to put makeup on and rock it.
Tonight is the Lily Allen concert!! I'm so excited! I'm going with the guy I've been texting pretty consistently now. We are going to hang out before and then go out to my favorite restaurant. I'm so giddy thinking about it!
Post by pantsoffdanceoff on Sept 30, 2014 8:37:12 GMT -5
My whole body is sore from my workout yesterday. I can't seem to figure out how much sleep I need every night. I went to bed at 10:30 and slept until about 6:15 and I was still exhausted. I'm wondering if I need less. When I was getting up at 5am to go to the gym I didn't feel as tired and I was still going to bed around 10.
I have 2 concerts coming up. One Direction (shut up!) this Friday and Garth Brooks the next Friday!
Post by kitkat1502 on Sept 30, 2014 8:44:53 GMT -5
There is a newsletter naming contest at work and one of my submissions is in the final 8 that can be voted on. It's a whopping $50 prize if you're wins, but honestly that would make a big difference in my monthly budget right now lol. I hope I win!
Eureka1984, what comfort zone are you referring to? socially/trying to get out more and meet new people? or dating? or just your comfort zone/routine in general?
i started off the morning with a great walk with my dog, then ran a few errands before work. i treated myself to starbucks which always makes me more productive (yay caffeine!) and am planning on getting a ton of shit done today.
Eureka1984, what comfort zone are you referring to? socially/trying to get out more and meet new people? or dating? or just your comfort zone/routine in general?
i started off the morning with a great walk with my dog, then ran a few errands before work. i treated myself to starbucks which always makes more productive (yay caffeine!) and am planning on getting a ton of shit done today.
It would be my comfort zone in general. My therapist thinks this could be the root of my depression because of my divorce. I'm not putting myself out there or taking risks at work and she challenged me to think about why I'm stuck.
Eureka1984, what comfort zone are you referring to? socially/trying to get out more and meet new people? or dating? or just your comfort zone/routine in general?
It would be my comfort zone in general. My therapist thinks this could be the root of my depression because of my divorce. I'm not putting myself out there or taking risks at work and she challenged me to think about why I'm stuck.
Gotcha. I've been there, so hugs to you. I started out making one daily goal to do something that was out of my comfort zone - it could have been as simple as making small talk with a stranger, or putting in more effort in certain areas of work or voicing my opinion instead of remaining silent. Start small - getting out of your comfort zone takes practice. As you continue to practice, you'll rebuild your confidence. Maybe others also have better advice. Good luck and keep us posted!! Remember starting is half the battle.
Post by lyssbobiss, Command, B613 on Sept 30, 2014 11:13:45 GMT -5
cuddlyevil thank you! Things are okay, promise! We're still gross and happy. I was worried about Bf not wanting to be around my family because they're all nuts and I got overwhelmed.
"This prick is asking for someone here to bring him to task Somebody give me some dirt on this vacuous mass so we can at last unmask him I'll pull the trigger on it, someone load the gun and cock it While we were all watching, he got Washington in his pocket."
Therapy last night sucked. Not that it was bad - just that, I word-vomited up a bunch of shit I needed to talk about, and didn't have the ability to come to a conclusion due to time.
So, I am sitting on shitty feelings about a lot of things today.
And, I can't seem to focus.
I do this...well, it seems like I take 30 minutes to get to the real issue, then I talk and talk and there is no conclusion. So I come out feeling worse than going in...at least when feeling are repressed, they don't bother me, lol.
ETA: So I keep getting texts from the Pharmacist...whenever I hear the text notification, I keep hoping it is Vegas instead, then feel a little sad when it's just another Pharmacist selfie. Does that mean it's not just fun sex now. I don't think I like the sound of that.
I am probably going to B&BW on lunch to buy some pumpkin smelling lotions, because I am a basic bitch.
I don't get the whole "basic" thing. Really, it's white girls liking popular things, right? There is usually a reason things are popular-they are likeable! Some of the girls at this wedding this weekend were trying sooo hard to explain to me why basic is bad ad that it is a girl who has NO originality, but kept listing things that a lot of people do. Like, wearing yoga pants and infinity scarves (note-I own neither, so this isn't a defensive thing). They were REALLY into explaining how they are totes not basic! I mean, one of them has the three wolves howling at the moon shirt! That's like, really original and not at all popular.
I'm filling out rental applications and it's making me never want to move. I hate they need so much information about my life, and a drop of my blood and a promise of my first born. It makes me never want to move, I love my little apartment. I've lived here for over a year now! But it really is too little for two people and it would be so nice to have a YARD and be close to work. Being an adult is hard.
Ugh, amen to that. I've contacted 10-15 places and the only ones who have gotten back to me are total scams. It's like they all have the same script:
Thanks for emailing me regarding the house is still available, but presently I'm on business trip to Kuala Lumpur,Malaysia.
Thanks for your willingness in renting my condo, My name is Gregory Wardle married with 2 kids. I am a family oriented and a good Christian I am looking for a responsible and neat tenant for my place that will take good care of my condo. I had to move to (ASHDOWN, ARKANSAS 71822)
Thanks for your email and interest in renting my House..my name is
Bach D Tran.I am the owner of the House you are making inquiry
of…Actually I resided in the House with my family,Presently my House
is still available for rent, (rental ready includes utilities)More so
Now,My family and i are currently in (Nigeria) for an International
I am probably going to B&BW on lunch to buy some pumpkin smelling lotions, because I am a basic bitch.
I don't get the whole "basic" thing. Really, it's white girls liking popular things, right? There is usually a reason things are popular-they are likeable! Some of the girls at this wedding this weekend were trying sooo hard to explain to me why basic is bad ad that it is a girl who has NO originality, but kept listing things that a lot of people do. Like, wearing yoga pants and infinity scarves (note-I own neither, so this isn't a defensive thing). They were REALLY into explaining how they are totes not basic! I mean, one of them has the three wolves howling at the moon shirt! That's like, really original and not at all popular.
I use the term in a totally tongue in cheek way. Because I have some quirky t-shirts, too, that I will wear with yoga pants and infinity scarves while drinking a pumpkin spice latte. I don't think of myself as a lemming, but I do like some things that are popular. Not because they're popular, mind you. Probably because they're comfortable, or delicious, or whyever other people like them. Things are widely liked for a reason -- they're widely likeable! I think it's hilarious that "basic" is a thing, because when it comes right down to it, we're all pretty basic.
I got my haircut at a hair school for $9 (+$8 tip so $17 total). Looks pretty darned good but it took 2.5 hours and I hadn't eaten anything for the day yet. I think my sugar dropped and this is why I'm so wiped.
Or maybe it was my late date last night and then being back up at 6am! Another great date but it's hard that he lives so far away and that I have no car. I know the traffic is annoying him so I appreciate that he thinks I'm worth the hassle.
This has been the worst year in my life to date. I dated him 2 years ago for a bit but then we lost touch so I'm glad that he knew me as my normal bubbly self before and I'm also glad that he dared to email me to see how I was doing. He said he texted me a few times over the years but I never got them. Stupid phones. I'm still trying to get over the guy I was dating earlier this year. I made the mistake of trying to remain friends with him but in the end, I loved him and he wasn't respecting the boundaries that I needed to let go of that part so I had to say goodbye and block him from my phone. Even though we had an official goodbye conversation, he still wouldn't have respected that I needed space to get over him. I'm sad today but it's probably because I'm tired. I want to give new guy (well, 6 dates in but we're taking it slow) a chance and get to know him better. He's been really respectful in taking things slow because of the year I've had. (FormerlyRR and cuddlyevil , you guys would appreciate that!). All in all, I'm scaaaaaared of having my heart broken again and trusting again. F'n scary as hell.
I don't get the whole "basic" thing. Really, it's white girls liking popular things, right? There is usually a reason things are popular-they are likeable! Some of the girls at this wedding this weekend were trying sooo hard to explain to me why basic is bad ad that it is a girl who has NO originality, but kept listing things that a lot of people do. Like, wearing yoga pants and infinity scarves (note-I own neither, so this isn't a defensive thing). They were REALLY into explaining how they are totes not basic! I mean, one of them has the three wolves howling at the moon shirt! That's like, really original and not at all popular.
I use the term in a totally tongue in cheek way. Because I have some quirky t-shirts, too, that I will wear with yoga pants and infinity scarves while drinking a pumpkin spice latte. I don't think of myself as a lemming, but I do like some things that are popular. Not because they're popular, mind you. Probably because they're comfortable, or delicious, or whyever other people like them. Things are widely liked for a reason -- they're widely likeable! I think it's hilarious that "basic" is a thing, because when it comes right down to it, we're all pretty basic.
Also, those lotions and B&BW were FOUL.
Oh, I knew you were. LOL. And I thought EVERYONE used in TIC until this weekend. These girls were RABID about what was basic. I joked about it like, "It's the girl who wears yoga pants, but doesn't do yoga" and one of the girls was all, "Ummm, no, that is not basic. I do that. Basic is not being original." Oh. Okay then.
Basic is what my boys and I joke about when we do popular things-like you were doing! Bottomless mimosas? We are soooo being basic right now! *giggle*
Can you tell I really didn't have a lot of fun at this wedding? I can't figure out if I am an old fuddy duddy, or if these people were really just that obnoxious.