I ended things with YG a couple days ago. It was long overdue, but damn if it didn't still sting a bit.
My birthday is next week. It's the one 'holiday' that I get bummed about being single. I'll celebrate with my friends this weekend. And family next weekend. But... I don't know. I just get a little sad that I don't have someone that makes kind of a big deal out of it. My ex was always good at that. So, BFF and I are going to dinner/drinks the evening of my bday. Trying to curb any sadness, with an evening of fabulousness.
I'm annoyed with BF. He blew me off yesterday and today apologized for "making me mad" instead of for hurting my feelings, which I was very clear about.
I'm struggling with balancing my emotional needs with not constantly harping on him. We spend a lot of time together, but when something else comes up for him, I feel like I'm often left holding the bag. I'm just supposed to sit and wait for him to call and invite me over? I feel like there's this expectation that if I want to see him I'm the one who needs to make all the effort. And he doesn't seem to be nearly as bothered by not seeing me.
I don't want to over-romanticize my expectations, but I don't think it's unfair to expect my BF to go out of his way at least as much as I do.
My insecurities about being too needy are driving me crazy right now.
berbles I would probably let some times pass and hope he made an effort to make plans with you. Maybe he doesn't need as much time together and that's not necessarily a bad thing.
I haven't been pestering him. I sent him a few messages last night that weren't returned, so I figured he fell asleep. This morning, he apologized and said that he did, in fact, fall asleep. Which kinda pisses me off because he was trying to get me to drive across town to his house last night. So if I had, he would have fallen asleep on me in less than an hour. Not ok.
After a few hours, he texted me "What's the plan tonight?" I said "I don't really know, you tell me." He said, "I'm guessing it's your house? Since I made you mad last night."
Post by midnightrae on Oct 15, 2014 21:14:21 GMT -5
I get to pick up a ring today that I bought myself. I'm actually really glad I bought myself a piece of jewelry. My district manager is starting to do more to prepare me to move up in the company when something comes available.
Post by jellymankelly on Oct 15, 2014 21:40:45 GMT -5
Monday my office was closed, and I only worked half a day yesterday since DS2 was sick AGAIN, so it doesn't even feel like hump day to me. It felt weird to log on and see that!
I drank coffee last night with dinner and it's always at least a 2 day process to get back to "normal" after I've done that. Coffee in the morning = happy Jelly. Coffee after 1pm = "waking up startled every half hour until 2am and not being able to get my sleep regulated properly for 2 days" Jelly. I'm currently on night 2 of screwed up sleeping patterns. But coffee is sooooo delicious. I miss the days when I could drink coffee with dinner and still actually sleep.
Andrew McMahon's new album came out today and it's freaking incredible. 1 month from tomorrow and I'll be seeing him! SO excited! Also, my girlfriends and I made a plan today to go see Southern Culture on the Skids (Is this just a NC thing? I am not sure if anyone else would have heard of them!) in December. It's going to be such a fun show!!