Blah I just want to curl up in bed and not face the world. I am at the dentist awaiting my crown fix. I slept maybe four hours last night because there was a family emergency and I am sick over it. I am not even physically there to help or do something constructive.
I'm on a cleaning frenzy because MIL is coming on Friday to stay until the baby gets here. I'm also realizing how close I am so I'm washing all the things and starting to throw some stuff in a bag for the hospital.
Hugs doglove. I know first hand how hard it is to let go of the things that you have no control over. The feelings that go along with that letting go are overwhelming. It's a lot of what I've been dealing with lately and it has made me feel very very anxious. I've found journaling and talking about it helpful.
Post by turtle1120 on Oct 22, 2014 11:00:39 GMT -5
I had such a hard time getting out of bed this morning. I was so warm and comfy and for a brief moment I thought about calling in. But I'm working hard to save up PTO and I have a week saved up now! Woohoo! I'm patting myself on the back for coming in - it's the small victories in life.
We went to dinner, he invited me over for a movie, we cuddled a bit. I could tell he was tentative about going for it and kissing me. After the movie was over he looked at me and asked me if I was having fun...and then we locked eyes and went at it. And later he said he was unsure of making a move because he wasn't positive if I liked him. Silly boy. Now he definitely knows. I feel bad if I was giving off weird signals though, since I am definitely into him. Maybe some introspection is needed there.
No sex, just a loooot of making out and cuddling, and we talked and talked a lot. I think we're both a little twitterpated. He told me I was so refreshing, and when I asked what he meant he said it is so rare to meet a fun, smart, beautiful woman who has her shit together. Awww. I told him I thought the same thing about him. He invited me to stay over, and it was tempting, but I left.
We're going out again on Friday to see a terrible B-movie at the midnight theater. And etc etc etc
I'm sorry, doglove I hope the situation comes to a good resolution soon.
I had really weird dreams last night, and I can't seem to shake them. I'm the opposite of tiramisu, though, because I want to get back to sleep ASAP so I can erase the weird dreams from last night with new dreams (which could also be weird, but I'm a risk-taker, lol).
I ended up having to send a $905 check to my university...I was forced to switch to part-time status for the Spring quarter this year (and for the remainder of my studies) because classes I need to complete my degree aren't being offered. Switching my status caused a re-evaluation of my student aid package, and I ended up owing quite a bit back. *kicks rocks*
Sigh, H and I are still fighting sickness. I think I gave him my stomach bug. I've got a brutal headache and am craving chocolate like a fiend. Periods suck. I try to be healthy then bam I want to eat everything. To top it all off H's grandpa had a stroke yesterday and another minor one later on. They think he will be fine but are unsure. I am worried and would like him to be healthy and better but I know he misses his wife. Today marks 5 years since she past.
I just talked to the border patrol agent I went on a couple dates with earlier this year to confirm times for the assemblies he's doing at my school next week. He's bringing me a hat! O or conversation was entirely professional, no awkwardness.
Hugs doglove. I know first hand how hard it is to let go of the things that you have no control over. The feelings that go along with that letting go are overwhelming. It's a lot of what I've been dealing with lately and it has made me feel very very anxious. I've found journaling and talking about it helpful.
Hope you can feel better soon!
Thanks. Journaling is something I do most nights and that does help.
Blah I just want to curl up in bed and not face the world. I am at the dentist awaiting my crown fix. I slept maybe four hours last night because there was a family emergency and I am sick over it. I am not even physically there to help or do something constructive.