Intro... again

[cbt007]

Hi!  I was here before, about a year and a half ago.  I was moving on with my divorce and I let myself get sucked back in.  Well, no surprise, I'm here again.  

The split with soon to be ex was much more amicable this time than last.  So my question for y'all is.... does it always suck this bad... even if you KNOW this is the right thing to do for you and your children? (I'm fairly certain everyone will say yes, I just need to hear that it sucked but you came out on the other end 1000% better) I've been ready to run almost as soon as we reconciled, so I really thought this was gonna be a little easier.  I KNOW this is for the best.  I am intensely unhappy with him, so I'm not sure why I feel this way.  (Yes, I am looking for a therapist now.  I had one last time, but I really didn't like him and eventually stopped going)

I suppose that was cryptic, but I don't feel like bringing up all the drama of the past.  I would guess my original posts will still show under my profile.  

Anyways, about me.... 
I am an almost 30 year old SAHM with two daughters (4 and 1).  I am in love with lifting heavy weights and fitness (now, if I could just eat better, I would be SMOKIN' .  I've been creepily stalking this board again for a while, so I thought I should come out of hiding.  

You ladies are so awesome and I really look forward to any answers, advice, opinions y'all have to offer.  Thanks for taking the time to read!

[calle28]

Welcome.

It does suck, but I promise you in a year you will look back and be amazed at your growth and strength. I bet you'll be happier too!

[Deleted]

Welcome!

[WinterIsComing]

Welcome! It definitely sucks but you will slowly start to feel better. I am about six months out from my split. While it was really hard at first, I can say that I am now feeling better and even excited for my new life. You'll get there!

[Deleted]

Welcome. It most certainly sucks. My ex and I went through the back and forth for 2 years and each time he promised to make it right and did for a bit but the band aid was always ripped off and things went back to the way they were always. The last time we split up, I knew it was for the last time. My ex did a lot of vile things to me and that was more than I could take. I would get sad from time to time but my support system was so amazing and so was my therapist and physiatrist plus I always kept myself busy with work, gym and building a social life again. After he filed for divorce, I got sad.. I was grieving the loss of something that, in my mind, could've been great. But it got better... slowly at first and then my mind shifted to bigger and better things that were happening in my life..and it just kept getting better and better. I always refused to live in the past and with that mind set, I had not other choice than to make the best of what was going on... either be sad about the things that happened or move on and start over! Starting over is way more fun!

[cuddlyevil]

Welcome.

[mysterons]

Yes, it sucks even if you know it's the right thing to do.

[doriswe]

It sucks. It gets better. It gets WAY better! And kids are better off with two happy parents living in separate homes than they do with two unhappy parents under the same roof.

[berbles]

Welcome back. Go read the Thankful Thursday thread and decide whether it gets better Good luck.

[onedayatatime]

Welcome -- sorry that you are struggling, but it does indeed get better.

[cbt007]

Thank you for taking the time to reply! It feels better to hear it from y'all and let it confirm that I've made the right choice! I look forward to hanging with you ladies