I just want to cry today

[mac08]

Okay, so posting in the thankful thread did make me think about all the good things in my life, and it helped a little bit... But guys, I am really struggling today.  Mainly because, it's CD1.  Ugh.  I don't really talk too much here about my TTC stuff, but I've been trying to get pregnant since March 2013, so it's been a long freaking time.  This was my first clomid cycle, and since my problem seemed to be that I wasnt ovulating consistently on my own, I foolishly thought that I would actually get pregnant this cycle since the clomid did work and I did ovulate.  I realize the chances weren't that high, but I just had such a good feeling about it. I've felt like my period was coming for a few days now, plus my temp dropped,so it's not like this was a shock, but it just sucks still, I've been holding back tears all day.

I also had my physical today, and the doctor lectured me about needing to lose weight.  I fully realize that I do, and I'm sure it would help with TTC, but it was just demoralizing to hear, especially since there was a medical student observing my physical, so I felt extra self conscious. 

AND I just found out that my H has to work Dec 26th and probably also on the 24th.  We live 4 hours away from our families, so there will barely be enough time for him to get there and back. I will drive separately so I can spend more time, but I am not going to have fun if he is stressed and tired and not having fun himself.

Blah, anyway, thanks for letting me vent

[MrsMB]

Many, many ((hugs)) VENT Away!!!! I know I have this week!!

[estrellita]

I'm sorry *hugs*

[spankswife]

I'm so sorry. Feel free to vent or talk about it.

That really sucks, and the DH thing would be the icing in the cake for me. I'm glad you will drive separate so you can spend some more time with your family. (((Hugs)))

[ewall]

Huge hugs mac08. TTC difficulty is so disappointing and frustrating. And CD1 is always such a letdown because you can always hold out hope until then. I wish I could say something to make it better, but I know it just sucks so much. ((Hugs)) Thinking of you and hoping for your BFP soon. 

[travelbug]

Huge Hugs mac08 I'm sorry you're struggling feel free to vent anytime! I'm glad you will drive too so you can see your family for longer! Hoping for your BFP so soon!!! <3

[grover]

I feel you. I went off the pill in March 2013 as well to start TTC. CD1 is due tomorrow or Saturday. I gained all the weight I lost during the early TTC stage plus a few. Maybe we can be accountability buddies or something. I'm glad you will still be able to visit your families and I hope we are both posting our BFPs soon!

[wanderingenough]

Hugs mac08! I'm so sorry! Vent away.

[tiptoetulips]

Hugs sorry you're struggling

[mac08]

Nov 20, 2014 19:10:54 GMT -5 grover said:

I feel you. I went off the pill in March 2013 as well to start TTC. CD1 is due tomorrow or Saturday. I gained all the weight I lost during the early TTC stage plus a few. Maybe we can be accountability buddies or something. I'm glad you will still be able to visit your families and I hope we are both posting our BFPs soon!

I am definitely up for an accountability buddy!!

[katespade]

((( mac08 )))

[Deleted]

Big hugs!

[bk1]

So many ((hugs))! 

[megkat]

Aww, so many hugs! TTC can be the absolute worst when it doesn't go well

[awick14]

((Hugs)) TTC is a horrible thing for some couples and I'm sorry you are one of them.

I hope your H and you can spend some good quality time together on Christmas.

[MrsAggie]

((Hugs)) I'm so sorry about CD1. Don't hesitate to vent when you need to.

[luv2rn4fun]

Huge ((hugs)). I'm so sorry you are struggling with TTC...many of us have been there and it really does suck. Please feel free to vent here whenever you need to. Many thoughts and prayers for you and your DH...I really hope you get your BFP soon and you are able to enjoy some quality time with your DH over Christmas despite his work schedule.

[Deleted]

((Hugs)). I'm sorry you had a stressful appointment today. I hope that your H gets the 26th off so you get two days together.

[mac08]

Thanks for all your support, It really does help!! It seems like most people I know IRL all got pregnant so easily, so it's comforting to know I am not alone in the struggle, although I wish it didn't have to be that way.  I am so hoping for a big boom of BFP's around here for all who are trying.  Hopefully 2015 is a big year for all of us! I am feeling better today, on to the next cycle.  As far as Xmas, I am trying to just focus on making the most of whatever time we will have.

[HoneySpider]

((mac08)) I'm so so sorry you're struggling, friend. I can empathize Hang in there and definitely vent here, I know it helps me sometimes!