m/c is such a mindf***... even years later

[dottyblue]

Just a vent.  Hugs would be much appreciated.

My first pregnancy ended in a m/c @ 8 weeks.  My second was a chemical pregnancy.

DS was conceived with no issues 6 months after my first m/c.

Now I'm surprise pregnant again and the m/c is STILL messing with my mind.  I have been spotting (brown) exactly like I did the entire first trimester with my viable pregnancy, yet I'm worried I'm miscarrying.  I had less bloat than usual last night and worry I'm miscarrying. I'm not as tired as I was last week and I'm worried I'm miscarrying.  DH and I had sex a few days ago and I'm worried it caused problems.

STOP IT BRAIN.  Two weeks until my dating u/s... just two weeks.  *-)

[Yankees21]

I'm so sorry. Many hugs.

[mannah]

I'm so sorry you're going through this, I wish you the best. (Hug)

[hermione]

Hugs.

[jennistarr1]

There is definitely a loss of innocence when it comes to miscarriages, and once it happens you can just never go back in your mind. Hang in there, hoping for good news soon.

[Deleted]

Hugs. I had 3 m/c then I had DS1. With DS2 I thought I would be more zen about things, knowing the whole "can't control the outcome" stuff. But it is always there. I hope that your worries ease soon.

[dancingirl21]

Huge hugs. Early pregnancy is the worst.

[kdubs923]

((HUGS)) It really is the worst.

I'll be thinking of you & hoping this is a healthy little sticky baby!

[badtzmaru22]

::hugs:: I'm so sorry. It was the same for me, and it affected me bonding with the baby both times because I was convinced I was just going to have another m/c.

Something we always said on the loss boards over on the other place was, "Today I am pregnant, and I love my baby." Which sounds so cheesy, but actually helped.

Hang in there!!

[july]

I was cautious about mc with my first, but not as worried as this pregnancy. I haven't had a mc, but I had bleeding and spotting with this pregnancy. My hcg levels turned out fine, but I am still analyzing every pain and symptom. While I was waiting for the blood work, I was a nervous wreck and had already researched options. I had more spotting last week when I took the progesterone late and I am worried again. I have been waiting almost four weeks for the ultrasound. The closer it is, the more nervous I am getting. I try to not look things up, because that makes me crazy.

Hope the next two weeks go by fast.

[meltoine]

I'm sorry it's so stressful. Mindf*ck indeed.

[zarapipe]

I'm sorry. Those memories certainly do stay with you. Hoping your apt gets here before you know it.

[Ashley&Scott]

Hugs.

[bk1]

Many hugs. I'm so sorry. Unfortunately it seems to be something that never quite goes away. 

[dottyblue]

Thanks. I'll be fine but I needed to get that out. It's wonderful to know so many people "get it" even if it's a sucky feeling to understand.

[hymen]

I think for anyone who has gone through pregnancy loss, that fear will always be there, even after successful pregnancies/births.

[luv2rn4fun]

So many ((hugs)).

I had two m/c before DS and I worried all the way until our a/s at 18 weeks. Even now that we've had a successful pregnancy I know that the next time I am pregnant I will worry a lot through 1st trimester and a/s. The innocence is definitely taken away once you go through m/c and pregnancy is really never the same again (although I think it made me really cherish and enjoy being pregnant with DS).

Praying that your u/s goes well in two weeks!

[autumnfire]

Jan 26, 2015 11:19:25 GMT -5 dottyblue said:

Just a vent.  Hugs would be much appreciated.

My first pregnancy ended in a m/c @ 8 weeks.  My second was a chemical pregnancy.

DS was conceived with no issues 6 months after my first m/c.

Now I'm surprise pregnant again and the m/c is STILL messing with my mind.  I have been spotting (brown) exactly like I did the entire first trimester with my viable pregnancy, yet I'm worried I'm miscarrying.  I had less bloat than usual last night and worry I'm miscarrying. I'm not as tired as I was last week and I'm worried I'm miscarrying.  DH and I had sex a few days ago and I'm worried it caused problems.

STOP IT BRAIN.  Two weeks until my dating u/s... just two weeks.  *-)

Big big hugs. Pregnancies after a loss just aren't the same. I even had to write on my mirror "Today you're pregnant." to help make it through, well that and anxiety medication.

I wish you all the best. It sucks especially when spotting is involved or heck even cramping m/c tarnish that entirely.

I do want to say Congratulations and also I'm sorry that you're having to go through this. FX that everything will go smoothly for you.

[laurenh]

Many hugs - it is so incredibly hard to turn off your brain. I spent both of my pregnancies after m/c worried and analyzing every symptom or lack thereof.

Hoping the next 2 weeks go by quickly and your u/s goes well.

[jackpackage]

Big hugs! Thinking of you and hope the next two weeks go quickly!

[212]

Jan 26, 2015 11:26:26 GMT -5 @pnkybrwstr said:

You're not alone. I had a m/c between O and this pregnancy and I still sometimes think "what if?".

Completely not alone. I had a miscarriage years ago, then a baby, then another miscarriage. I have spent half my son's college tuition on pregnancy tests (I'm almost 7w). I know they're not even a good indicator of a healthy pregnancy, but I hyper analyze how dark the line is every day. (Hugs)

[cece]

I am sorry, and I hope the next couple of weeks fly by for you. Happy and healthy nine months to you!

I completely understand, as I had a MMC and then an ectopic pregnancy before DD. During the 1st trimester of my pregnancy with DD every little pain made me think it was ectopic again. I begged DH not to travel until I knew it wasn't ectopic.

[spk926]

I'm sorry. Hugs.

[ladygrey]

I know exactly how you feel. I'm only 4 weeks and have another 4 to go until my first appointment, and all I can do is worry about this being a viable pregnancy or not. I had an early m/c before DD and it's definitely in the back of my mind. 

Hugs. 

[dottyblue]

Jan 26, 2015 13:50:32 GMT -5 farmvillelover said:

I'm sorry. I'm having the intermittent spotting too and it's so so hard, the worry is constant. Everytime I feel discharge down there, or everytime I go pee, I seriously pray it's not blood and a m/c. I wish I had words to make you feel better.

Sincere wishes that your dating u/s goes well dear.

"liking" your post by way of saying thank you.  Sending HUGE hugs and T&Ps your way.

[shellbear09]

Many hugs. I had several m/c before dd and I had anxiety off and on throughout my whole pregnancy. There is no way to shut that off imo but just hope for the best. I hope you have a great u/s!

[turtletop90]

Hugs. I bet that's hard.

[Blue Moon]

I'm sorry. It never really goes away, but for me I could breathe a little easier when I felt movement. Lots of hugs. Hoping the time passes as quickly as possible.

[jln]

Hugs to you. My second pg was a molar and was terminated at 14 weeks. I wasn't convinced this one was viable until I saw the anatomy scan. Once you go through a loss it's hard to get past it. Wishing you a healthy pregnancy.

[pb127]

Lots of ((hugs)). I had a late (term) loss and an early loss followed by a live birth, but the fear never really goes away. Hang in there!! Happy and healthy 9 months to you