I made an appointment to see a psychiatrist next week. My anxiety is really out of control. So much so that both my dad and my mom (they split when I was in middle school and while they're cordial, they rarely are in the same room together) came over today to basically force me to make the appointment. I'm really struggling. I barely sleep, over eat, and am just not being the wife and mom my boys deserve. Fuck.
H got demoted this afternoon too. Which sucks. They had put so much training into him since August and were so patient with him but I guess they said that he's not a good fit. He's taking a huge pay cut so he's going to be looking for a new job. Good news is that he has some good endorsements thanks to said job so getting a new one should be fairly easy. I hope. I feel like we can't catch a break.
I was just starting to love the "new" parenthood opening song and now I'm kind of disappointed they changed it back for this season (I just started it).
I sent h the creepiest gifs I could find on riffsy and was nearly in tears thinking about him opening them. He's oot on a work trip. I also hid dd's super creepy baby doll in his suitcase. I don't know why he still loves me!
@utahlove13 ((hugs)) The hardest part is always recognizing it's time for some help. I've been there.
littleduck My sister teaches Bar Method and her BF has gone to a couple of her classes. It's nice to have a SO that will step out of the box like that to enjoy exercise with you.
My whole family comes into town tomorrow night for my 30th bday on Thursday. We're going wine tasting and eating at a fancy place in the city. I'm stoked to have a somewhat laid back day. Introvert birthday!