Somewhat MMR/Somewhat random

[carrieq]

I just need to vent and get this out somewhere.  I am 10 weeks pregnant.  I found out Thursday I was probably miscarrying.  I found out yesterday I lost the baby around 6-7 weeks and am just waiting for my body to start the process.  Yesterday I also found out that my old job that I left 2 years ago (and still miss) is vacant again and they asked me first if I was interested before putting it out there to anyone else.  That's wonderful, but it still takes some consideration.  It would lengthen my commute quite a bit, but there are lots of pros for going back as well.  We closed on a piece of land last week that we plan to pay off and then build our dream home on.  Today I found out that a local septic company is bulldozing behind that street/neighborhood with plans to put in a pond for human waste and animal carcass disposal so now I'm freaking out.  I'm emotional, I'm tired, I feel like I have a lot of decisions to make and I don't like playing the waiting game.  Not really looking for advice, I just needed to get all this out.

[carrieq]

I'm a pharmacist so working from home is not an option.  I currently have a 3 minute commute which is why I changed jobs in the first place.  Old commute was about 35 minutes.  Actually, same job, same company, different location.  I took a little bit of a pay cut to come to my current location but less fuel costs helped negate that loss.  I've also since gotten 2 raises that have brought me back up.  I was an assistant manager at my previous location, demoted to staff pharmacist at my current location (because that was the only position open), and there are no longer assistant manager positions in the company so I may take a pay cut again if I go back.  The work conditions and relationships are better at the old location.  My old pharmacy partner literally said "Do you want to come home?"  And that's how my old location feels, like home.  With this new news about our property we have the option of picking up and moving to the town where I used to work which would be wonderful as far as a commute goes.  My husband is a realtor so he could work from any town.  We found out about the septic company from my son's school speech therapist who also lives on that street.  She just found out about it and said there is a meeting at the courthouse this week about it.  We'll see how that goes.

[StephaniePlum]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Be kind to yourself! Internet hugs!

[carrieq]

Thanks everyone for your responses. Like I said, I just needed to get it all out. My body still hasn't started the miscarriage process and I am to check in with my midwife tomorrow. I think I'm going to request a d&c to get this over with. Then we wait to hear what happens at the courthouse meeting on Tuesday. I am still leaning toward moving even if the septic stuff is not an issue. My commute would be shorter. My husband and I both went to college in the other town and are familiar with the area. He wanted to live there before and I didn't. We've found a few properties worth looking at. If I am officially offered the position and we decide to move forward with moving, we'll need to get our house on the market quickly (and sold quickly) since my oldest DS starts kindergarten in the fall. He has ASD and I'd like to have him start kindergarten at the same elemetary school he would attend through 5th grade. We can sell the land in the future. I'll try to keep you updated. I'm obviously a lurker and don't get a ton of time to post

[daisypaloma]

I'm so sorry for your loss.