He had a stroke about 15 years ago and has been living in a nursing home for the last 10 years about a 12 hour drive away from where I live. He was unable to communicate - with the stroke he lost his ability to speak and he just made noises, you knew he understood you, you just couldn't understand him. He passed away peacefully in his sleep this morning.
I feel so much guilt because I didn't go see him as often as I should of and I'm so so sad that he never got to meet my daughter. The last time I was there was about 4 years ago. There is also this drama between my uncle and my dad that made the whole thing just awkward and I'm just sad. Blehh.
Anyway I'm just looking for hair pats....I know I don't post much here, but I just need to get it out.
I understand the guilt, I didn't visit my grandmother nearly as often as I should have and she lived in a nursing home less than an hour from me. Don't beat yourself up too much over it.