I'm so so sorry for your loss. I had two before our son and the first was so incredibly hard emotionally. Please be kind and take care of yourself. Many prayers for Weds and the days/weeks/months ahead.
And yes, I'm really sorry you have to wait til Weds. I had to wait 1 week for my D&C after my first and it was really hard. Still feeling pregnant, baby still in the uterus, feeling stuck on not being able to move forward. All of your feelings are completely normal. Huge ((hugs)) I'm sorry you are having to go through this.