Hugs loira. Even that doesn't feel like enough - I wish I could take your pain away or rewind time to ensure that you never had to endure such heartache. (heart)
((loira)) I know what you mean about the word journey. It's a weird word to describe that we have gone through. I never really thought about it in that way though until I read your post. Your right it's more of a happy word not a depressing word which is how I feel about this as well.
You know I love you and I wish I could take away all your pain. ((Hugs))
1. Where are you in your journey? TTC #1 since Jan '14. 1 loss. Cycle 12, CD 17.
2. Testing this week? Nope.
3. Thoughts, vents, etc.? I keep wanting to cancel my appointment for next month, but DH insists that I keep it. I don't know, I keep thinking that it's too early for me to go to a specialist, but he says that if there's nothing wrong than it will just put us at ease. Also, DH has been terribly sick the past week so TTC hasn't really been happening. That's been frustrating, but I feel bad for him. He's really not doing well.
4. Favorite summer activity? Swimming or hanging out at the beach. I live in MI and love to go up North and just hang out at Lake Michigan or Lake Charlevoix.
Major hugs and love to everyone struggling right now. Let yourself feel the anger, if you need to. There is nothing wrong with allowing yourself to feel the intense emotions that come with loss, infertility, or just stressful TTC.
1. Where are you in your journey? TTC #1 since Fall '14.
2. Testing this week? Well, here's where it gets tricky. I, of course, didn't track O this month because I just needed a month off. Like a moron. But I'm usually very consistent. I always O on CD19/20, with AF arriving on CD29-31 with a couple of days of spotting before. The only time I've been off was last month when I had the stomach flu, which pushed everything back 2 days.
I'm on CD37. But I keep getting negative tests. I have no idea what's going on. So assuming AF doesn't come, I'll probably try again Wednesday. My last BFN was yesterday.
3. Thoughts, vents, etc.? I keep wanting to cancel my appointment for next month, but DH insists that I keep it. I don't know, I keep thinking that it's too early for me to go to a specialist, but he says that if there's nothing wrong than it will just put us at ease. Also, DH has been terribly sick the past week so TTC hasn't really been happening. That's been frustrating, but I feel bad for him. He's really not doing well.
i know everyone is different, and everyone needs to decide what their next step is. we've been trying the same amount of time as you have, and going to that first RE appt was SO hard. like admitting there might be something wrong.
and once it was over, we felt SO much better. like we were finally being proactive and trying to get answers. and without testing, we'd still be banging our heads against the proverbial wall, wondering WHY nothing was successful. at least now we know what our next step is, even though it kinda sucks.
basically, longest way ever to say i'd go to the appointment. you'll probably gain more than you'll lose.
3. Thoughts, vents, etc.? I keep wanting to cancel my appointment for next month, but DH insists that I keep it. I don't know, I keep thinking that it's too early for me to go to a specialist, but he says that if there's nothing wrong than it will just put us at ease. Also, DH has been terribly sick the past week so TTC hasn't really been happening. That's been frustrating, but I feel bad for him. He's really not doing well.
i know everyone is different, and everyone needs to decide what their next step is. we've been trying the same amount of time as you have, and going to that first RE appt was SO hard. like admitting there might be something wrong.
and once it was over, we felt SO much better. like we were finally being proactive and trying to get answers. and without testing, we'd still be banging our heads against the proverbial wall, wondering WHY nothing was successful. at least now we know what our next step is, even though it kinda sucks.
basically, longest way ever to say i'd go to the appointment. you'll probably gain more than you'll lose.
Thanks for the pep talk, seriously. I know that it will be good to go and that it's not the end of the world. I just worry that the doctors are going to say, "Why are you even here? Try another six months and then come back." I have gotten that feeling from doctors before when expressing concern. But they were super helpful with my husband back in Feb, so I know they're nice people. I don't know. I guess I'm just worrying over nothing. I still have another month before the appointment, so I guess I shouldn't over analyze it all this time!