I am exhausted. I had a super vivid dream last night that my mom decided to stop fighting ovarian cancer and move to compassionate care only. In my dream it was still summer, and I was selfishly really hurt that she was making that decision when I only had a few months to go to deliver her first grandchild, even though I knew she'd been fighting 5 long years and was tired. I woke up confused about whether it was real or not, and cried for the next hour. By the time I got my shit together to rest again it was like 6am.
All of it is real, except that she hasn't made that decision just yet. She told me her case manager suggested earlier this week that she could at any time and it would be reasonable. I guess this is a combined vent about the realism of my dream and the fact that that is scary and shitty.
Post by 5kcandlesinthewind on May 21, 2015 10:49:39 GMT -5
I'm so sorry, Susie. I hate waking up from a dream like that and not knowing if it was real or not, and I don't have anything nearly that worrying going on. Big hugs to you. Be good to yourself today.