~I got a compliment from my friend, who is now overseeing the guy I had committed on Sunday night (for work). She said my assessment was really well done. That means a lot!
~I'm so stinking tired today. I just want to crawl back into bed and sleep the rest of the day away.
~I have multiple, boring, meetings to attend today. Being tired will not help things!
I'm just getting up. Hanging out with my friends for craft group was fun last night. I stayed late again, so didn't get a ton of sleep, but that's what coffee's for.
Post by riverpestie on May 27, 2015 9:08:00 GMT -5
I was able to do my entire deadlift set of 205 pounds without taking a break!! This is a first for me. I am also meeting my chin up and pull up goals, too!
One of my friends is making a spectacularly bad (and unhealthy) choice and it's really frustrating to sit back and watch and know there's really nothing I can do.
I posted it and then I deleted it. Ugh. I just am developing feelings for someone I know I shouldn't and kind of trying to navigate my way out of it.
Oh that's rough. I'm sorry. Your self-awareness is really good though. You know I'm here if you need/want to talk (even if it looks like I'm not on gchat).
I am so tired. I couldn't sleep last night. I also woke up and went to the old house to paint two accent walls. I was so close to not having to do it. A woman wanted to rent the place and loved the accent walls. It fell through I guess so I have to paint them back. I got one wall primed before work and will hopefully finish it over lunch. I really would rather be working on my own place.
I'm stressed. Between the upcoming move and work stress, I'm beginning to feel overwhelmed. The service tech I hired is not working out, I can't find anyone to take his place, and the only employee we have that I know could turn this situation around is heading up a large commercial project over an hour away so I can't use him. I don't know what to do, and this is a very busy time of year.
I'm getting grief from my mom and xh about the move too. Xh is just an idiot and that doesn't bother me so much, but combined with the constant comments from my mom, I'm hoping that they can make the duplex available sooner.
I just want to be able to destress when I get home, not be hounded about everything she wants me to do differently when I move out. It's like she feels it is her responsibility to point out all my past mistakes (or what she views as mistakes).
Post by starrieskies on May 27, 2015 11:01:47 GMT -5
I know I'll feel better once there is forward movement, but I'm in kind of a holding pattern right now waiting for the unit to be cleaned up and ready. As for my mom, I know she is trying to help me in her own way, but criticizing my past constantly is not the way to get through to me.
We need to take our cats to the vet tomorrow for their checkup. Yes, we. One of them is...a handful, to say the least, and the vet always needs some reinforcements. I have mentioned before that said kitty has a red sticker in her file there. Eeeeeeep. Should be an interesting morning. :?
Today has been fine, but I'm kind of tired and not very motivated, for some reason. I've mainly been gchatting with Partiallysunny and following the mama bear thread on ML.
Forget what I said about loving my cat yesterday. lol. She kept me up last night and I am EXHAUSTED. Then when I got up, I saw her food dish was empty.
I think RG s dumping me via text. He said he's not feeling it the same way I am, that I'm a great person and I know that, he's not sure about us, and he's super he feels that way. I can't believe he's doing this via text during the workday.
Well he said he thinks he's confused because he doesn't feel the same as me. I already asked him to clarify his intent because I'm trying to figure out if I need to set a time to come pick up my stuff from his place.
Clarification has been received: he did mean to break up with me. I asked him when I can come by to get the rest of my stuff and told him that breaking up with someone via text is a dick move.
ETA: I'm sad but not surprised. The second to last time I was at his place, I had this momentary flash of "my time here is limited." Looks like my gut was right.
He apologized and said he didn't want to do it this way, it just came out, and he didn't want to string me along, would rather have done it in person but obviously we weren't going to see each other (b/c of my plans tonight).
Honestly, it feels like a bit of a relief. I'm sad, but I know that this is really about him having trouble emotionally connecting and about there clearly being some incompatibility. Like I said, I knew this was coming, deep down. And I've been thinking that if he didn't step up this week I might break up with him. This relationship has caused me to confront some areas where I still have scars and work to overcome them, so I'm grateful for that.