Monday...ugh

[neonpink]

((SwimDeep)) big hugs. 

[doglove]

Time to get a new therapist STAT.

[partiallysunny]

Ew to your therapist SwimDeep.

I hate to see you struggling, Swimmy. It's okay to be done. Have you graduated from school officially?

[tiramisu]

Definitely well past time for a new therapist. WTF?

Also, I thought he did get a job. What happened?

[cuddlyevil]

{{{SwimDeep}}}}

[riverpestie]

Weekend was fun, but in my drunkeness I lost my favorite pair of Oakleys. Ugh!

[SwimDeep]

Jun 29, 2015 12:05:40 GMT -5 tiramisu said:

Definitely well past time for a new therapist. WTF?

Also, I thought he did get a job. What happened?

He did get a job! And it pays really well - but it's stressful and requires long hours. And after supporting us for the last six years, I'm just not willing to put up with his whining. It seems like every weekend we get into a fight, and I'm starting to think it's because I'm just completely spent and done.

partiallysunny - I am officially a graduate with an MSLIS from Drexel University

[SwimDeep]

Thank you for the hugs, everyone. I know I've been posting about this for so long and I've probably frustrated all of you.

I feel sick but certain. Is that about right?

[tiramisu]

Jun 29, 2015 12:20:30 GMT -5 SwimDeep said:

Thank you for the hugs, everyone. I know I've been posting about this for so long and I've probably frustrated all of you.

I feel sick but certain. Is that about right?

Yes, I think so.

[doglove]

Yep.

[gault]

Hugs SwimDeep, and a little kick in the tush to get this started.

[cuddlyevil]

My stomach is kind of blergh right now and it needs to get itself in order because I have a date with bourbon tonight.

[spindle92]

Lots and lots of hugs SwimDeep.

[lyssbobiss, Command, B613]

Hugs, doglove and SwimDeep.

Weekend was pretty good. My parents watched my son for me some so I could spend time with BF before he left for a work conference. We went to Pride Saturday which was great. There was one hate/protest group, which blah blah blah free speech whatever. I mean, I don't care if they want to show up and preach, but they actually marched in the parade, between drag queens and a gay-friendly window dressing business. We all turned out backs on them as they walked by and they started taunting us. Assholes. But anyway, there was a HUGE turnout at the festival and it was a really fun time. We went with my son later to the Greek festival, which was also fun but I am festival-ed out for a bit.

I'm off work today because I have to work next Saturday so I took my son to the aquarium and I would now like a nap but he's still running on all cylinders.
XH is all checked into rehab and has been able to call every other day so far to speak to our son. That's been a good thing.

[cuddlyevil]

I'm glad he's been able to call lyssbobiss, Command, B613!

[spindle92]

I just wanted to brag about all the yummy jelly we have now.

But this is only round 1. My mom and I are going back on Friday for more berries to make more jelly.

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[neonpink]

Jun 29, 2015 14:40:57 GMT -5 spindle92 said:

I just wanted to brag about all the yummy jelly we have now.

But this is only round 1. My mom and I are going back on Friday for more berries to make more jelly.

Yum that looks good.

[SwimDeep]

I'm reading through all of my journals - trying to hold onto enough anger to break free and enough kindness to not be hateful.

I have so many legitimate reasons to be angry and cold, but I'm still more worried about him than me.

Talk about a fucking mind trip...

I don't know when he'll be home. I feel like a scared kid who's done something wrong and is waiting for punishment

[lyssbobiss, Command, B613]

I keep accidentally starring posts on the app. I don't know how it's happening. I hate tapatalk.

[lyssbobiss, Command, B613]

SwimDeep, I'm so sorry. You don't deserve to feel like a child or a prisoner.

[kaneen]

Hang in there SwimDeep. It does get better with time, I promise.

Hugs doglove.

Let's see...my weekend was a boozy blast. Even though I worked some on Friday it really started on Thursday. We had our monthly Thirsty Thursday happy hour at work. A bunch of the sales people from SC and NC were in town for training so it was awesome to hang out with them. After happy hour I piled 6 people into my car (they were practically sitting on laps) to go to dinner and we laughed and laughed and laughed. I have the best co-workers.

I worked Friday morning but then hit the pool for a few hours Friday afternoon. Friday night I took a friend to dinner for helping me with some stuff around my condo. Saturday I had a "this is not a date" date. We had a great time but I totally drank too much and hit a wall so the end of the night kinda sucked. It was my own fault, I know how I clam up when I drink too much and I'm a freaking adult and should have slowed my role. Oh well, it's all good now.

Sunday was BEAUTIFUL outside so two of my girlfriends and I sat at the pool basically the whole day. They drank while I tried to rehydrate and get over my hangover. Sunday evening we sat on the patio and had a glass of wine. I was blissfully asleep by 10:30pm.

[cuddlyevil]

Nick Lachey and dessert (Mr Lachey not pictured because dessert was better).

[tiramisu]

I just finished up with my first private practice client! They didn't even blink at the fee. I'm really doing this!! Aahhhh!!