I learned a lesson. People never change. All that shit with my husband last year? Decided to give him a chance. Things had gotten better but lately, especially with the ashley madison stuff I just felt uneasy.
Turns out, he had been messaging people from craigslist (ew. I did text the woman, she said she never met him and glad she didn't since her ad was for someone single.)
I also found his tinder.
Soooo after yelling at him for about 2 hours and telling him real men end their marriages first/man the fuck up, I am now just....sangary. Sad angry.
I did put it on fb. I was mad. And why the fuck should I have to go through this alone? His friends/family should see what kind of asshole he is. Some say it is petty/airing dirty laundry but why do I have to keep quiet to protect him? Fuck him.
Now I am just scared. Not of him but of my future. I don't know how to be alone. I met him at 19, got married at 21.i haven't had to be an adult on my own.
I also go to - will I ever get a family? Someone who loves me? Am I going to be single the rest of my life.
I cannot do this the rest of my life. I cannot be one of those women who gives unlimited chances and 10 years from now I have kids and still a cheating dirt bag for a husband. I cannot.
If you don't want to be alone, you won't be. Give yourself the time you need, and, when you're ready, put yourself out there. You're going to be ok, I promise. Lots and lots of hugs. You are so strong to be taking this step and standing up for yourself.
share.memebox.com/x/uKhKaZmemebox referal code for 20% off! DD1 "J" born 3/2003 DD2 "G" born 4/2011 DS is here! "H" born 2/2014 m/c#3 1-13-13 @ 9 weeks m/c#2 11-11-12 @ 5w2d I am an extended breastfeeding, cloth diapering, baby wearing, pro marriage equality, birth control lovin', Catholic mama.
Post by morecowbell on Aug 27, 2015 22:45:22 GMT -5
Lurker here, just wanted to give you huge hugs and say how sorry I am you are going through this. You hurt terribly now, but you will come out of this a stronger, braver, more confident woman. Be good to yourself ❤️
Post by ashbridemd on Aug 27, 2015 22:57:52 GMT -5
I am so sorry you're going through this. Truly. Hugs to you.
You might know my story. I had been dating my ex from the age of 13 to 20. I grew up with him. He was all I knew. When I finally got the courage to end it for good, I was in your position. I was scared shitless and yes- One of the first things that went through my head was "Will I ever find someone who loves me? Will I ever know what it's like to have a family?" Honestly, that fear is what made me stay in such an unhappy relationship for so long. But at some point, it's just not worth it anymore. What's the point of having someone, and having a family, if you're so miserable that you can't enjoy it?
When I finally let go of that fear, wonderful things happened in my life. You got this! Amazing things in are in store for you. Hang in there =)