Well done on the tidying. I had a great afternoon splashing around in the pool with a friend, then chowing down on some stuffed peppers.
We watched Interstellar afterwards. The first half was good. The second half was too long and seemed like important bits had been chopped out. Anyone else think so too?
One of my supposed work BFFs pulled something super bitchy on me Friday (while I was home with a sick kid), resulting in me needing to cover court calendar tomorrow, on a day that should've been hers, with a brand new judge (aka it's going to be a cluster).
Post by nancybotwin on Aug 30, 2015 23:10:42 GMT -5
DD lost her first tooth. She is at my ILs for a sleepover. She knows that the tooth fairy will not come there, and she is bringing her tooth home. I am so so sad to have missed this milestone.
I fucking hate my ex husband. With the fire of a thousand suns.
well I hate him too. What has he done this time?
He doesn't think the restraining order applies to him. He hasn't seen my kids since 4th of July weekend and "promised" he'd see them in 2 weeks, told my son he'd coach his baseball team (he can't) , blah blah blah
We went to the memorial for Dh's coworker today. Killed by a drunk driver while riding his bike. He left a wife and seven year old son, O. My eight year old was so bored and ill-behaved during the service, but he really wanted to talk to O. When Ben heard that he was with some other boys hiding behind the bushes stealing cookies off the buffet tables, Ben asked to go, too. "Yes, son. Go do what young boys do best and wreak havoc with O". :::heart breaks::::
Post by lookforstars on Aug 30, 2015 23:22:40 GMT -5
I went grocery shopping today and decided to clean out the freezer finally before putting the new stuff in. I threw away the last box of Morningstar Farms veggie burgers. Up until today, it was too hard to get rid of it. Suddenly today it became too hard to look at every time I opened the freezer.
DH got annoyed when I snapped at him about laying on the couch. We were out of town all weekend and got home late. I left him to get the baby in bed while I went to the grocery store so we would have something to eat tomorrow. When I got home, he was on the couch, not unpacking or doing anything remotely helpful. I then proceeded to put together a crockpot thing for tomorrow night, pack my lunch and pump bag, and unpack a few essentials from the suitcase. His response when I said something upon returning from the store? "I *just* sat down! I was getting him to sleep!" Cry me a fucking river, H. I put him in bed every fucking night. Gahhhhhd. And he wonders why I don't enjoy traveling on the weekends.
DD lost her first tooth. She is at my ILs for a sleepover. She knows that the tooth fairy will not come there, and she is bringing her tooth home. I am so so sad to have missed this milestone.
Can you talk me out of my sadness and regret?
No worries! put a $1 gold coin under her pillow, she'll be thrilled.
DD is totally fine. And excited. I'm taking this one hard.
ETA: And compared to other concerns and vents on this board, this is absolutely nothing worth being sad about. But I am.
I went grocery shopping today and decided to clean out the freezer finally before putting the new stuff in. I threw away the last box of Morningstar Farms veggie burgers. Up until today, it was too hard to get rid of it. Suddenly today it became too hard to look at every time I opened the freezer.
More and more traces of my husband, disappearing.
(He was a vegetarian)
Hugs to you. He will never disappear, no matter what's in the freezer.
I went grocery shopping today and decided to clean out the freezer finally before putting the new stuff in. I threw away the last box of Morningstar Farms veggie burgers. Up until today, it was too hard to get rid of it. Suddenly today it became too hard to look at every time I opened the freezer.
More and more traces of my husband, disappearing.
(He was a vegetarian)
Hugs to you. He will never disappear, no matter what's in the freezer.
Thank you for this simple yet meaningful reminder.
Post by FrozenSunshine on Aug 30, 2015 23:28:21 GMT -5
Ugh! I so want a St. Bernard but I took H to a fundraiser for the local french bulldog rescue because he loves them and wants one and I fell in love with one, of course he's not for adoption.
We need a dog like we need a hole in the head. H travels all week and I'm looking at trading in my work from home job (which my cat will already hate me for) for a gig job.
But look how cute H was...
I've tried rotating this a ton and it just wont work..
i don't want to go back to work tomorrow. my boss/owner is leaving to go to italy for 2.5 weeks and we're in the middle of a new product development, which i've been busy with all weekend, and my head is about to explode.
frank and i went through his new clothes and got his backpack ready for school tomorrow, and ... AND ... i managed to keep the plant they sent him home with at the end of the year alive and it's going back tomorrow!
Ugh! I so want a St. Bernard but I took H to a fundraiser for the local french bulldog rescue because he loves them and wants one and I fell in love with one, of course he's not for adoption.
We need a dog like we need a hole in the head. H travels all week and I'm looking at trading in my work from home job (which my cat will already hate me for) for a gig job.
But look how cute H was...
you don't want a St. Bernard; they're huge and they drool. Get that French Bulldog! he's darling.
I've wanted a St. Bernard since I was a kid! I settled for a Maine Coon cat that thinks she's a dog. But I will admit I am down his path, we live in a 2000sf house in Chicago, a Frenchie would fit into our household better, but damnit I still try for the Saint! I just want cuddle bugs that snuggle when he's gone.
Heading back to work tomorrow. About to discover the new "normal" and not at all excited about that. My heart still aches even though I know the suffering is over.
I went grocery shopping today and decided to clean out the freezer finally before putting the new stuff in. I threw away the last box of Morningstar Farms veggie burgers. Up until today, it was too hard to get rid of it. Suddenly today it became too hard to look at every time I opened the freezer.
More and more traces of my husband, disappearing.
(He was a vegetarian)
*hugs* It's the little/normal things that hurt the most. Much strength for you making that decision.
Heading back to work tomorrow. About to discover the new "normal" and not at all excited about that. My heart still aches even though I know the suffering is over.
i'm sorry lemons, i hope tomorrow goes ok for you.
Heading back to work tomorrow. About to discover the new "normal" and not at all excited about that. My heart still aches even though I know the suffering is over.
*hugs* I'm sorry you have to go through this but know a lot of people are thinking about you. Realize "normal" is just a word and a state of mind, it can take time, and that's okay.
A friend was supposed to come visit next weekend but he broke up with his girlfriend so now they aren't coming. My H's birthday is this week so I planned a surprise trip to Houston and the space center for the weekend instead. Our friend asked me for our address earlier today and I swear if he shows up unannounced I will be so pissed. He was going to surprise us a few months ago so this is totally a possibility.
Also, my BFF has been planning to come visit for months now with her boyfriend and I just found out via his rant on Facebook that they broke up today. I'm trying to get in touch with her to make sure she's ok but it's late there.
So I have no idea if/when I'll have guests this month! How fun!
grrrr I hate when people won't commit to a plan. And I HATE surprise guests. Get some cheese and crackers, and some nuts, and a few bottles of wine, so you can be prepared.
What?!? This advice is not what I would have expected from you. I'd be tempted to just ignore him knocking if he does show up, but really, I think I'd just call him and tell him that you're going to be out of town this weekend, so if he's planning a surprise, he's going to have to choose another weekend.
Both of my boys are starting at their new schools tomorrow, and I'm pretty sure my insomnia is being caused by anxiety over how DS 2 is going to do. He's only ever been in a low-key preschool environment where they do three hours of "school" in the morning followed by a full afternoon of playing. His new Pre-K has academics woven into most of the day, and we found out last Friday when they posted the daily schedule that they get an hour at most of outdoor/gym time every day. He's a very active kid, and I really worry that we're setting him up for failure by putting him in a much more structured academic program than what he's used to.
This school came highly recommended by a mom friend I trust, and chances are he's going to do great, but it's hard not to worry.
Last week, I received a message from a friend I hadn't seen in years that my ex-fiancé (we broke up 15 years ago and did not see each other again) had died of a brain hemorrhage. I have sent a message to one of his best friend and his parents and I received a sweet reply from his father. I think I will go to the funeral tomorrow.
Our break-up was very painful and it was so difficult for me to overcome my anger, but now I just feel sad for a life that ended too soon. He was two weeks shy of 46.
I can't concentrate at work. Two weeks ago I got his ring out of my bank vault to sell it. Now, I don't know; I'm not going to wear it and I have no daughters to pass it on.
This is a completely normal feeling. It's wrong, because you aren't lost, but it's normal to feel that way. It took me a good 6-12 months before I stopped feeling completely lost, and 4 years later I'm just now feeling like, "Okay, it looks like my life is finally starting again! Let's do this!" I had 2 little kids that I was focused on, so it took me longer to get to that feeling of "this is what our life is going to look like going forward, and I'm happy with that," but the lost feeling is a fleeting emotion, no matter how long it takes to go away. You'll be fine!!
Heading back to work tomorrow. About to discover the new "normal" and not at all excited about that. My heart still aches even though I know the suffering is over.
((hugs)) you have a lot of firsts ahead. be kind to yourself through this all. Remember to eat well; have some protein in the am, and some good coffee or tea.
How did you know I wasn't eating? I have to get a new coffee pot. My mom broke mine on the second day of their stay.
Post by peachykate on Aug 31, 2015 14:24:05 GMT -5
I hate this hospital I'm in. I have been here since 9:30 to get rehydrated( I have hyperemesis again). I didn't get fluids for three hours and didn't see a Dr for new meds until five hours in.
I'm waiting for an ultrasound and they've been telling me not to drink anything. Now I can't get the scan yet because my bladder isn't full enough. Ummm.... I can also hear them talking about how short staffed they are. Hello, you should have just told me you go elsewhere in the first place.
I'm also scared shitless there will be nothing in the scan.
My anxiety is at the highest it's been in a long time. My jaw is sore and I have a headache from clenching my teeth. I finally got a new job, arrived and it was terrible. Nothing like I was told. The team was dysfunctional, the manager is probably the worst I've ever had (no feedback, no guidance, unfriendly, acted annoyed anytime I approached her) and even the description was inaccurate
So now I'm unemployed again. And there are no job postings for what I do.
I haven't felt this much anxiety or anger in a long time. I'm so frustrated and upset and deflated