I swore I wouldn't test early this cycle, but I did anyway. BFN at 10ish dpo on a blue dye test. I'm still slightly hopeful but I'm not testing again until Friday.
Other than that, just keeping super busy! I've been pretty productive today and have peanut butter banana muffins in the oven that I can't wait to eat!
Post by mrscreanium on Sept 27, 2015 19:01:00 GMT -5
I'm feeling down today. Two friends announced pregnancies today and I just feel down and sad about it. I know others have been trying for longer and had much harder journeys than me, I'm just feeling sorry for myself today.
CD 28, 10 dp iui. Feeling absolutely no hope for our first IUI cycle. Feeling down and also really distant about everything emotionally. I know there's only an 8% chance per IUI cycle, and I have had 0 symptoms that I typically have that even just indicate ovulation. I'm so tired of this and I hate everyone who is or has ever been pregnant, ever.
Post by konapoppy on Sept 28, 2015 15:50:42 GMT -5
Hugs all around.
I alluded to this in my TTTC post, but my jealousy toward pregnant women is going down, and now it is all about those who have babies. I see a BFP post/announcement and part of me is so happy for that person, and the other part just dreads how awful their pregnancy may turn out. I don't wish a bad outcome on anyone- I just know that a positive test doesn't always lead to a happy outcome.
My PCP the other day mentioned that if/when I get pregnant again I will be so nervous. I know that may be the case, but I also think I will be pretty apathetic. What will be will be and I will have no control.
Post by HoneySpider on Sept 28, 2015 17:09:49 GMT -5
jodippls Sometimes a break can be a good thing. We took one for the first 5 months or so of 2014 (so 2 years into TTC/10 months after our loss) We didn't prevent, but I didn't temp or do OPKs or anything. I still had an idea of my FW since I'm pretty regular, but we didn't purposely time anything. The break was great. It didn't result in anything, but it helped take away some of the stress.
konapoppy I know most people are so nervous when PGAL but I was more excited than anything, I guess because it took so long (2+ years). I'm usually a pessimist but with that pregnancy, I really felt like it was going to work out. I didn't think bad thoughts. There were some nerves/anxiety, but probably no more than any other pregnant person. I think it's weird to make blanket statements about what you're going to feel because everyone is different.
Post by HoneySpider on Sept 28, 2015 17:13:01 GMT -5
Until my hcg is back to normal, the oncologist said we have to use protection. We haven't done that in 4 years! So DH bought some condoms at the store the other day. He said the cashier was trying to be all coy and slide them to him to put in his pocket or whatever and he's like no, you can just throw them in the bag. She said something along the lines of oh, most guys are embarrassed to buy these he was like, I'm in my 30s, I'm married, I'm having sex. Not a big deal. Apparently the cashier was cracking up. I mean, WTF? It's not like he's a 15 year old boy buying his first pack of condoms.
I hate the idea of preventing, but hopefully this is just a short term thing.