I have been having bad cramps all day, I had a feeling that it was over for sure now, but I was still trying to be hopeful.
After dinner at the ILs I was sitting on the couch cuddling with DH when I felt a gush of fluid between my legs. When I went to the bathroom there were fairly large clots in my underwear.
We have decided not to tell family and see if we can go to my family dinner tomorrow night. On Tuesday when we see my betas drop then we will tell them. I need more confirmation before we tell anyone IRL.
DH cried himself to sleep beside me and I'm just laying here crying.
4 losses... Why us?!?
Edit: (tue, Oct 13) my beta today is in the 16,000 and my beta last fri was in the 30,000. So it's officially over.
I am so, so sorry awick14. I am heartbroken for you and your H to have to be going through this again. I don't know enough about pregnancy to know whether there is still a chance, but I am praying for you.
katespade- my OB has always said if there's bleeding there's still a chance but bright red blood and clots mean that 99% of the time it's over. It's the same way 2/3 losses have happened. I'm pretty sure there's no hope.
I'm so so sorry awick14. There are no words and I wish I could just give you a huge hug right now. My heart is breaking for you and your DH. You guys so deserve to have your family...this just isn't fair. Praying for you guys...for peace, for healing, and for you guys to walk through these next days, weeks, and months leaning on each other more than ever. We're here for you...if there's anything we can do, please just let us know. I'm so sorry friend.
Post by wanderingenough on Oct 11, 2015 8:40:45 GMT -5
Oh awick14. I am so incredibly sorry that you are experiencing this once again. 4 times is 4 times too many. Nobody should have to know that much pain. It's not fair. I'm praying for peace and comfort for you and your H. I hope you were able to get some rest last night.
Post by HoneySpider on Oct 11, 2015 9:39:22 GMT -5
((awick14)) I am so, so sorry. This isn't fair. No one should ever have to go through this but you of all people...you have been so supportive of so many other people and you deserve a take home baby. My heart is breaking for you. You know I'm here if you want to talk. Sending so much love to you.
You want to hear something stupid? Ever since the big bleeding episode of last night I haven't bleed at all. (Other then when I wipe, and there are clots when I wipe too.)
Post by oneslybookworm on Oct 11, 2015 15:37:44 GMT -5
Oh honey, I am so incredibly sorry for you both. God, life sucks so badly, my heart breaks for you both. Sending you nothing but love right now...((awick14)).
Post by luv2rn4fun on Oct 11, 2015 16:13:21 GMT -5
Just saw your update re: bleeding.
Any chance you can either do betas tomorrow or get in to see your doctor for an u/s? Maybe there's something they can do to give you an answer before Tues? Seems like there has to be something...I know it doesn't look favorable but I have heard success stories similar to this...even more reason to be seen earlier than later. I'm really sorry you are going through all this.
luv2rn4fun- Tomorrow is a holiday, so the only way to do anything is to call in sick, as I work, and spend 8-10+ hrs in the ER. I don't really want to do that.
If I remember correctly that my last loss I bled for a day and it stopped for 24 hrs and then it started again. I had not clots though, this is a first for me.
No, no, no! I'm so sorry A. Huge hugs. I wish there was a way to see your doctor today. I'll be praying for you and your DH. Is there anything I can do for you? Do you need anything?
I am so incredibly sorry. I can't even believe how unfair this is, after everything you've gone through. Take care of yourself, and we're here for you.
Post by luv2rn4fun on Oct 11, 2015 20:50:18 GMT -5
I didn't even think about tomorrow being a holiday for you guys. I wouldn't want to do that either
IIRC, I had on and off bleeding with my second loss too. The big gush started about 4 days later and the bleeding that day was horrendous...labor like cramping about 12 hrs later too. Weird that you had a big gush and then nothing really since. I do remember when the clots first started (the day after we had seen the hb after a week of spotting) that my OB had me wait it out (I had another u/s scheduled two days later) and said that it really could go either way, that not to worry too much unless I was bleeding through a pad/hr or passing clots the size of my palm.