I have been having bad cramps all day, I had a feeling that it was over for sure now, but I was still trying to be hopeful.
After dinner at the ILs I was sitting on the couch cuddling with DH when I felt a gush of fluid between my legs. When I went to the bathroom there were fairly large clots in my underwear.
We have decided not to tell family and see if we can go to my family dinner tomorrow night. On Tuesday when we see my betas drop then we will tell them. I need more confirmation before we tell anyone IRL.
DH cried himself to sleep beside me and I'm just laying here crying.
4 losses... Why us?!?
Edit: (tue, Oct 13) my beta today is in the 16,000 and my beta last fri was in the 30,000. So it's officially over.
Love of my life baby boy born 11/11. One and done not by choice; 3 years of TTC yielded 4 MMC and 2 CPs, through 4 IUIs and 2 IVFs. Focusing on making the world a better place instead...and running.
Trying for #3; FET 8/18 -- BFN. Leaving things up to chance for now... After three years, three IVFs, and two FETs, we finally have our miracle babIES!