Hey, everyone. I've been pretty MIA for a while. Things pretty much went to shit. These last four months have been awful, but I was able to stay strong and get through it. Now I just feel completely defeated. DH and I were supposed to be greeters at church this morning, but I couldn't get out of bed and just cried. He went without me (we made a commitment) and I felt awful about it.
Since September... - DH got his concussion which resulted in us having to deal with workman's comp and now he has almost nonstop headaches. We've dealt with a lot of doctors over this.
- DH got an MRI for his headaches which showed his benign tumor on his pituitary gland. He has an appointment in Feb for the neurologist which is just ANOTHER doctor to add to our list.
- IRS claimed we owed a ton of money. Turns out our 2013 was off due to my schooling expenses being messed up. We wound up only having to pay $2600 (which is still a lot.) Now DH says last year's taxes have the same issue so we have to fix that. Ugh.
- My spring semester wound up costing us $1500 more than we were expecting. So we pretty much lost about $7000 out of pocket all at once.
- Currently on our third IUI since Oct. Didn't expect them to be so physically exhausting. The first one resulted in a chemical pregnancy.
- My grandpa (whom I was extremely close to - like a second dad) died rather unexpected after being in the ICU for four days during FREAKIN' FINALS WEEK. I spent every evening with him at the hospital till nearly midnight and then ended my last day of the semester at his bedside as he passed. Then I was stressed as I had to help arrange the funeral.
- My other grandpa is very ill and they're now saying that he might not make it through the week. Just a few weeks after my other grandpa passed.
I am so exhausted. I told DH that if this IUI doesn't work, I want to take a break from them. I'm so physically, mentally, and spiritually exhausted. I am in therapy before anyone asks. I don't know why I'm posting this....head pats and tell me it'll get better?
So many hugs. I had two grandparents get sick very quickly and pass away within a month of each other at the end of 2014. It was incredibly difficult - I can't even imagine going through it with everything else on your plate.
Thank you, everyone. It's just been a long past few months. I'm hoping 2016 brings happier things.
konapoppy, I'm so sorry for your losses. It's so difficult to have to grieve for someone when you're still grieving for another.
Thanks. I am sorry for your loss. Yes, the back to back was hard, particularly on my parents since the second death then overshadowed the first (last living parent for both of them). Sending lots of good thoughts to you and your family.