DH and I are doing better. He hasn't mentioned counseling again. We have both been working on paying more attention to each other, helping with things, not being so lost in our electronics, and just being nicer. We have been talking a lot. If he still wants to go to counseling I am open about it, but I am just waiting for him to bring it up I guess.
He is going to apply for a new job. This is huge! Regardless of *if* he even gets an offer it's just a big step for him to actually apply elsewhere. A lot of our stress is from his current job. He brings a lot of his negative energy home from work.
I finished up my finals last night. I had four papers to write and I only got three of them done by the extended deadline of 11:59pm, so I emailed the last one to my professor at around 12:30am and my fate is in his hands. I think that I'm still good points wise even if I don't get credit for the last paper, but we'll see how it turns out.
I decided to go ahead and take four classes spring term, because I ended up registered for two business, one art, and one theatre class. I think the variety of class types will help me focus and not get so overwhelmed, versus taking four business classes at once.
My therapy appointment is April 11, and I'm terrified. I've had such bad luck with psychologists and I don't think I'm ready to hear that I'm beyond help again.
Gus cuddled with me while we took an hour long nap earlier this afternoon. It's better than nothing, right?
Big hugs katespade! I think you are really working hard at taking care of yourself and I really admire that. I hope everything goes well with your upcoming appointment.
I received my genetic testing results and I am a carrier for a rare disease that most infants die from in the first 6 months. H was tested for that specific gene on Thursday, and now we wait 1-2 weeks to see if he is also a carrier. I think google said 1 in 50,000 are carriers/affected by it, so I am hoping and praying that he is also not a carrier.
amaranth, If he's not a carrier, then while any child has a 25% chance of being a carrier too, they wouldn't have the disease. However, any child would have to have their future spouse tested to see if they were a carrier.
amaranth, If he's not a carrier, then while any child has a 25% chance of being a carrier too, they wouldn't have the disease. However, any child would have to have their future spouse tested to see if they were a carrier.
GL grover, I hope you get the results quickly. I know how nerve-wracking that can be. I found out I'm a carrier of 2 rare diseases that I'd never heard of. Neither were life-threatening, but one would have serious lifelong complications. Luckily, H is not a carrier of anything, but it seemed like the results took forever.
Good luck, grover! I hope the results are quick and clear!
Mine isn't an update, but more of a vent (since it just happened and I'm bummed). About ten years ago my grandmother made my cousins, brothers, and I all each a quilt. She made each one specific to our interests at the time. I was into Asian history at the time so mine was made with Asian fabrics/bright colors. Anyhow, since I was in college I left it at my parents to hang on to. Both my grandparents aren't in the best health so we are making a quick trip down in a few weeks so they can meet R. (They live in same town as my parents). I mentioned to my mom recently that I'd like to get the quilt now that I'm settled/grown/etc. My parents moved about six months ago so she said she needed to look for it. I asked about it again tonight and told me she didn't know where it was and she only had my brothers and thinks it's "lost for good." I'm heartbroken. The worst part is, my brothers won't/don't even care about theirs. Why weren't they all kept together? Ugh.
grover- praying your DH isn't a carrier. Sounds very rare so hopefully he isn't. ((Hugs)) I know the waiting is brutal...Hope it passes as quickly as possible.
((@wonderingenough)) I love things like that too and I would be so sad if it was never found.))
My not so update update. I can't do anything without loosing it. I lost it at the plumber the other day. (And thankfully he was sane enough to ignore me, I told him to get out of our house when the plumbing was all apart and we couldn't turn the water on.)
I lost it on dh today because he made dinner. :/ And then when he looked sad I stormed out of the house and walked around the block in the pouring rain. :/ WTF is wrong with me.
We talked and dh understands that I am not mad at him I just have no control over my emotions. What do I do now?
I guess I am going to really start looking for another therapist.
I had a talk with H the other day and I told him I that the way he has been acting towards me I feel like he seriously doesn't even like me anymore and I feel that we are growing apart. I don't feel like a married couple but more like roommates. He's taking his anger and stress out on me and I can't take it anymore. It scared the hell out of him and since then we are doing much better. He is being affectionate and treating as his wife not a buddy. Hopefully this continues.
Huge ((hugs)) awick14. Sorry you are struggling friend...really breaks my heart. I do think a new therapist might be helpful and I hope you are able to find someone that can help you through all you are going through.
@emtmissy- love your update and am happy to see your DH making the necessary changes!