Hi swizz. I know we don't really know each other, but I want to offer hugs. My older daughter has a medical condition and I remember the day, shortly before her 1st birthday, that we got her diagnosis. I felt a lot of emotions - angry, sad, disbelief. I mourned the loss of the completely "typical" life I had envisioned for her. It's hard. Know that you're not alone! And also know that while it might always hurt a bit (it still does for me), it won't always feel as hard as it does today.
I realize I am brand new, but I have a child with profound autism and intellectual disability due to a specific genetic disorder. I realize your situation may be very different than mine, but I have spent a few years now in the world of special needs. Here are some things that I wish I had realized:
1. This is a marathon, not a sprint. You hear all this stuff about "how EI will help so much." This may very well be true, but it is ok to take things at a pace that you are comfortable with. You are in this for the long haul, and it is ok if you don't get 18 types of services set up in the next 30 days. (18 may be an exaggeration, but it feels overwhelming sometimes).
2. Start to get a sense of who your "team" will be. If you don't have a good developmental pediatrician, you should start to find one. It might take 6-9 months to see them, and that is ok (see point 1), but they are a good addition to your team. If your local autism society has parent advocates, they can be a great resource. In my case, I wish I had reached out to them sooner -- they really knew the "real deal" on how to get services. Figure out local groups where people are helpful. It has taken me 3 years to really figure out who my team is (again, not a sprint). People that are a pain in the butt, don't want to listen, don't want to believe the diagnosis, etc are not people you need to spend much time with going forward (at least not for the 1st year).
3. Try to figure out if you qualify for non-needs based Medicaid (unless you already have this). Every state calls this something different (this is where the parent advocate really helped me). While this is not a sprint, I wish I had made the call sooner to get on the waitlist for this. I have amazing health insurance, and I am still dying for the day when non-needs based Medicaid would open the door to respite for us.
4. Cut yourself some slack for the next 365 days. Mark it on a calendar. If you are married, sit down with your husband and say "here is where we are, what do we REALLY care about for the next 365 days?" And then, when a crisis arises, think about "is this really on my list of things to care about this year?" and then proceed accordingly.
5. Get an individual therapist and perhaps a couples therapist. We have done both. Not because our marriage was in trouble, but because it was amazing to process our feelings together with a third party in the room. You are going to go through a grieving process -- try to do it in the healthiest way possible. I often pat myself on the back purely for not being driven to drink. Again, I am sort of kidding.
Post by oceanstbride on Apr 13, 2016 16:11:22 GMT -5
Lots of hugs swizz. I'm sure today is full of lots of emotions. You've been an amazing advocate in getting C what she needs and I know you will continue to be.
Post by winecheery on Apr 13, 2016 17:02:48 GMT -5
We're here for you swizz, and for Cora. This doesn't change her heart, and who she is at her core. It's just an added layer. You're a great mom. I hope you can get into the best district for her with ease.