Woke up to DS crying at midnight, go in and he's covered in vomit. Nearly three hours of him throwing up, cleaning him up, and getting him settled. I've barely slept, but he got a few hours and seems pretty perky now at least.
Ok, the dancing lady on Old Navy's homepage is wearing the WORST jeans ever. The shot from the back? OMG. The pockets are so high up and close together and tiny. No no no.
This morning I asked H to take cookies out of the oven when the timer beeped. He did not. He thought that I, the baker in the family, was wrong and left them in there. He apparently didn't know how cookies work. I had to explain it to him. Pissed. Just once I would like to be listened to without it being mucked up first and that being the reason that he sees that, yes, I do know what I am talking about.
I got up three hours before the kids had to go to school. I finished my cookie dough, baked cookies--one pan of which I asked H to remove, while I showered and shaved. I baked and sliced chicken for the my kids sandwiches, packaged up their snacks and lunches, emptied the dishwasher, worked on laundry. I made oatmeal, made a PB&J for my son, served everybody breakfast, helped the girls get dressed and got everyone ready for school, got everyone off to school, went to Stop&Shop and Whole Foods. Now I have to go to Trader Joe's.
I am going to make a quiche while everyone is at school.
I need to email a clinical director who may complete D's IEE, if it gets approval, just to keep her in the loop.
I need to fold a bazillion pieces of laundry.
I would like to read today, we'll see if that happens. I could also use a walk, since yesterday was too rainy for one.
I've emailed the teachers of my daughters' classes twice and spoken to them once about gardening and haven't heard back. I don't know. Whatever. I can't do my part, if they don't do theirs.
Post by sineadorebellion on May 4, 2016 9:22:40 GMT -5
10 more pounds to lose until I'm in the healthy weight range. 7.5 months post op. I still have other weight loss/fitness goals but that's a huge one right there. Over 130 pounds lost from my highest weight 15 months ago.
MixedBerryJam , IS there something called Just Lunch in your area? I think you get set up at a group lunch with other singles. My friend's mom met her bf this way.
"Why would you ruin perfectly good peanuts by adding candy corn? That's like saying hey, I have these awesome nachos, guess I better add some dryer lint." - Nonny
Post by karmasabiotch on May 4, 2016 10:06:38 GMT -5
J's fingertip seems to be infected. I'm guessing he had a hang nail or something. I had him soak it in Epsom salt last night and will try soapy water tonight. I'm hoping to avoid taking him to the Dr. but I don't know when I should panic about this and bring him in.
Some of my FB friends sent me pm's yesterday wishing me a Happy Widow's day. WTH? Why is widow's day a thing and why would you say happy in front of it? I hate FB.
None of my clothes fit me and I can't afford to buy all new clothes. Eating pasta for every meal and snack sounds easier so I can get wear my clothes again.
When I got home yesterday the vent in my dining area was laying in the floor and not in the vent part. J swore he didn't do it. My dogs couldn't. Either someone is coming into my house, my H is sending me signs, or I'm losing my mind. I tried to make a police report just in case and told them everything this is happening and they gave me a number for crisis counseling, which is the same number I give to the parents of my clients when their kids are suicidal or violent. The police think I'm crazy. I wonder if I am.
it's crazy expensive... Like$1500 for a year/12 dates (plus you have to pay for your own dam lunch!). Too rich for my blood. I wish I'd only done a month of our time's I think I signed up for 6 but I've already turned off auto enroll. I hate when that's the default.
karmasabiotch I don't want to come across as mean or a bad guy, so please know, my concern for you is genuine.
Are you doing enough for you? Don't feel like you have to list everything or prove anything to me, but I just want to make sure you're taking care of yourself, with therapy and support groups. I know from many of your posts, you feel isolated, and that is making the weight of everything that has happened that much more difficult to carry. Staying healthy is incredibly important, both physically and mentally, and I hope every day moves you closer to peace in your life.
I'm encouraging you to make the call to the crisis line. Having another person to talk to may make a world of difference for you.
Totally not being a bad guy. I appreciate the concern. I'm in weekly individual therapy, J and I go to an eow grief and loss support group, and see a psychiatrist 1 time per month. J is also in weekly therapy and I see his therapist sometimes for a family session.
karmasabiotch, is there any chance it's a rodent/pest issue? I do think you should consider a cheapie wifi camera for your home, just for additional peace of mind.
I had an epiphany around 2am this morning, while in-and-out of sleep due to sinus joys. In the light of day, the epiphany has vanished, but the distinct memory of the smug feeling remains. I had FIGURED *something* OUT and it was a BIG DEAL. I think there were even plans to monetize it and make my millions.
H has plans to meet a friend for dinner, so I'm going to take muh lil cherub on a date to Panera. I hope he's in a better mood today than he was yesterday, or it's going to be a very short date. lol
We're going OOT this weekend, and I have yet to start a single packing list. WTF?! Crazycakes.
Got a rejection email yesterday for a job I applied for. I thought I was a really good fit but I didn't even get an interview. My confidence is really low at this point. I'm trying to muster through but my current work situation is really taking a toll.
J's fingertip ... -- I just sent you a pm re: this.
Some of my FB friends sent me pm's yesterday ... -- I'm really, really sorry this happened. I know they're trying to be kind, but that's all sorts of tone deaf. I've actually never heard of this ... ?holiday? ... but I will say I'm thinking of you today and sending you all kinds of hugs and strength.
... When I got home yesterday the vent ... -- I love FastHands ' idea about a videocam. I bet there's a motion-activated one pretty cheap somewhere. I don't care what the police think; I don't think you're crazy. Being The One in charge of everything is draining and a 24/7/365 gig and you do whatever the hell you need to do to empower yourself. If that mean reporting unexpected changes to the inside of your locked house, I don't thing that's crazy one tiny bit. But I do think a camera would either give you information or put your mind at east. Either one is a good thing. (((hugs)))
Also: I like the sounds of camera for less than $50:
J's fingertip ... -- I just sent you a pm re: this.
Some of my FB friends sent me pm's yesterday ... -- I'm really, really sorry this happened. I know they're trying to be kind, but that's all sorts of tone deaf. I've actually never heard of this ... ?holiday? ... but I will say I'm thinking of you today and sending you all kinds of hugs and strength.
... When I got home yesterday the vent ... -- I love FastHands ' idea about a videocam. I bet there's a motion-activated one pretty cheap somewhere. I don't care what the police think; I don't think you're crazy. Being The One in charge of everything is draining and a 24/7/365 gig and you do whatever the hell you need to do to empower yourself. If that mean reporting unexpected changes to the inside of your locked house, I don't thing that's crazy one tiny bit. But I do think a camera would either give you information or put your mind at east. Either one is a good thing. (((hugs)))
Also: I like the sounds of camera for less than $50:
Post by Monica Geller on May 4, 2016 12:17:10 GMT -5
Thanks for the support everyone! I checked in at lunch and he's fine. A little clingy today, but fine. That was the first time I had to leave with him crying like that. Rip my heart out kid! At least I'm so busy today that I haven't had time to dwell on it. Extra cuddles tonight if he'll let me!