Post by thoseareradishes on Apr 5, 2017 5:05:49 GMT -5
E had a hard day yesterday; she had a breathing episode and needed a bunch of nurses and the doctor to get her breathing and heart rate up again. It was probably due to some mucus blocking her throat, but the doctor is also running some blood work to look for infection. I didn't handle it well and pretty much cried the rest of the day and evening. She seems to be doing well since, eating and being ornery and when I just called the nurse said she is awake and waiting for breakfast.
thoseareradishes I cannot imagine how hard that must be. Terrifying and of course you cried the rest of the day! I am glad to hear it sounds like she is doing better, though!
I am back to having bad anxiety. Like first tri anxiety. I feel baby move daily but I still freak myself out and tell myself "maybe its just gas bubbles?"
It doesn't help that it took us more than 2 minutes to find his heartbeat last night.
I am just terrified that now that I am showing and feeling him move that something will go wrong again.
Huge hugs, thoseareradishes , I'm keeping you all in my thoughts!!
Hang in there shauni27 . Have you thought about seeing someone for your anxiety? I know (for me) talking it out seems to help a lot.
right now I just dont have the time. With this still being a new job and me missing work already for my midwife appointments regularly, I feel guilty leaving for therapy. The meds I am on definitely help, but I am going to ask my midwife about other options tomorrow.
I am back to having bad anxiety. Like first tri anxiety. I feel baby move daily but I still freak myself out and tell myself "maybe its just gas bubbles?"
It doesn't help that it took us more than 2 minutes to find his heartbeat last night.
I am just terrified that now that I am showing and feeling him move that something will go wrong again.
When I was in the hospital for 2 weeks before I had S, I had to get NST daily and then heartbeat checks twice a day too. The nurses had the hardest time finding her, so if they had a hard time, it's ok you had a hard time finding him too! I bet he was just dancing around in there!!!
thoseareradishes, I'm sorry yesterday was rough. Is there such a thing as 'handling it well' when your baby is in the NICU? I mean, A wasn't even in the NICU and when she didn't gain weight after birth I cried for days. I think it's totally normal to be upset.
I am back to having bad anxiety. Like first tri anxiety. I feel baby move daily but I still freak myself out and tell myself "maybe its just gas bubbles?"
It doesn't help that it took us more than 2 minutes to find his heartbeat last night.
I am just terrified that now that I am showing and feeling him move that something will go wrong again.
When I was in the hospital for 2 weeks before I had S, I had to get NST daily and then heartbeat checks twice a day too. The nurses had the hardest time finding her, so if they had a hard time, it's ok you had a hard time finding him too! I bet he was just dancing around in there!!!
oh yeah, when I was at the hospital monday for monitoring the nurse-in-training spent 10 minutes trying to find the heartbeat before the other nurse stepped in and took care of it. and it seems like the little at home dopplers cover a smaller area, even.
shauni27 last night I started to panic again - it's so stupid because I just randomly asked myself when did I last feel movement and I couldn't remember so I started freaking out. Of course when you want movement right away it's not there. Like, I know that she doesn't move constantly all day long, so there are obviously still times. And most of the time I'm ok, until I get hyper focused on it. The best solution I can figure is I just need to believe it will be alright. So simple, but not always so easy. I need to tell myself, it's fine, let's breathe, and give it a few hours. and then this is other part of my brain starts arguing with "what ifs". But really, I need to make myself believe, or at least fake it. Distract with other things. I repeat to myself "the odds are overwhelmingly in my favor" often these days.
It's great that you're in the phase now that you can feel movement. It will keep getting even stronger for a while. Those dance parties are so reassuring and I hope they can bring you a few months of peace A meeting with a therapist, even if it's just one, might be really worth it to talk about coping methods. You've gotta keep yourself healthy too!
oneslybookworm, love the dresser! glad you heard from EM!
Baby girl only woke up once last night, after waking every hour the night before, I feel like a new person.
H was just asked to work both weekend days. He hates his commute, misses being home with me and baby girl, and we have stuff around the house we were planning on doing since the yard was finally supposed to dry out this weekend.
Rachel and Leah from Signing Time teaching DS how to sign "turtle"! They were at his school this morning, it was so great! Rachel taught the kids some signs, they did a few songs from the show, she read a book and showed them how to sign the story. DS took his stuffed turtle today for show and tell and he had this whole plan that he wanted to ask her how to do the sign. (heart)
cactuscookie , thanks! I do too...though it makes me feel selfish regarding the feelings of EM.
I know it's hard for her...but it's hard for you too, and it seems unfair to leave you with so much uncertainty all the time. Ugh, I don't know. Tough situation all around.
oneslybookworm, I cannot believe you are down to single digits! Hopefully the next nine weeks fly by. Remind me, when do you go back to LA? you go just a couple of weeks before the due date, right?
oneslybookworm , I cannot believe you are down to single digits! Hopefully the next nine weeks fly by. Remind me, when do you go back to LA? you go just a couple of weeks before the due date, right?
I'm currently looking for AirBNBs for June 1!!! HOLY CRAZY!!!!
Post by thoseareradishes on Apr 6, 2017 15:16:10 GMT -5
oneslybookworm, so exciting! June will be here before you know it (that's what I keep telling myself, anyway!)! Also, I think it is okay to be excited for yourself while still acknowledging EM's feelings.
oneslybookworm , so exciting! June will be here before you know it (that's what I keep telling myself, anyway!)! Also, I think it is okay to be excited for yourself while still acknowledging EM's feelings.
This. And oneslybookworm, it's also okay to worry about your situation while still acknowledging the difficulty of hers. The fact that your happiness depends so much on another person's sacrifice has got to be confusing. You are amazingly supportive of her, but we're here to be supportive of you. Huge hugs! Not long now...
The lack of love for my Signing Time picture tells me you all are not familiar with the show. So I will put in a plug for it, for your toddlers/preschoolers when you get there. It's been fantastic for us - interactive, educational, fun. My DS loves it and he likes to use the signs to answer questions when he can. There's a version for babies too, which we never tried, but I know people say sign language is fantastic for babies to communicate before they are verbal.
oneslybookworm, I'm glad you heard from EM again. I know it's so hard. And you can't really turn to her for support and reassurance, so you keep coming to us and we will give you all the support and love that we can. June will be here before you know it!
Today I am 38 weeks. *38 weeks exactly is when I went in to be induced with DS *My doctor starts on her vacation today and won't be back til next friday *It's my half birthday - 35.5 years old *April 7th last year is when I went in for my 3rd ultrasound and heard there is no more heartbeat
mpc , I had to laugh; not having kids I had no idea what the picture or show was. I didn't know if it was something local to you? Cool that your son got to get involved and do some signing with them! ETA: I am so glad you have this healthy babe in you right now to help you through the difficult memories of this day.
mpc , I had to laugh; not having kids I had no idea what the picture or show was. I didn't know if it was something local to you? Cool that your son got to get involved and do some signing with them! ETA: I am so glad you have this healthy babe in you right now to help you through the difficult memories of this day.
lol, yes this board if probably not the prime audience who would recognize it. It's a national show. It's been around for a while because Leah was 4 and 7 in the episodes and she is 20(!) now. I first learned about it many years ago when a friend who majored in deaf education was showing them to her kids. Then more recently the 3 year old preschool teacher was showing them at school. She told us how much DS liked it so we bought a season for Christmas. It's been a huge hit. Somehow the school arranged a visit, which was awesome. The school is tied to where I work so I think we were able to offer some sweet tours of my work in exchange for the visit.