Week of May 20th.

[joenali]

I’ve got nothing much this week. Iron infusion tomorrow . I’m so damn tired. I could seriously fall asleep while my students are out at recess.

I got a message from our nurse that we can stray another round of IVF after my infusion. Next step to look at our calendar and go from there.

[msmerymac]

I'm doing my FET tomorrow. Super stressed and busy at work today, so I'm just taking all of tomorrow off (not sure it will help since I have to be back on Wednesday!) and then I'm taking Friday off because my H and I are going out to the beach for his birthday.

[megstoo]

I have nothing either. Got the all clear from my lap/hysteroscopy and incisions are all healed. We are going to do 1 last transfer first and looking at the meds list I'm freaking out. Not including the PIO, endometrin, estrace, LDN and prednisone. They now added Cleocin, Prograf, intralipids, neupogen, and hydroxychlorequine. I'm starting to question if all this is really necessary but it's a FULL immune protocol. We were told because of my age and the prior transfer not working this is needed.

[megstoo]

May 20, 2019 15:39:11 GMT -5 msmerymac said:

I'm doing my FET tomorrow. Super stressed and busy at work today, so I'm just taking all of tomorrow off (not sure it will help since I have to be back on Wednesday!) and then I'm taking Friday off because my H and I are going out to the beach for his birthday.

Good Luck, I went back to work right after FET and was fine.  Just be careful through because you're not supposed to be submerged in water after FET.  We were told no swimming, no baths, etc.  

[msmerymac]

May 20, 2019 15:45:50 GMT -5 megstoo said:

May 20, 2019 15:39:11 GMT -5 msmerymac said:

I'm doing my FET tomorrow. Super stressed and busy at work today, so I'm just taking all of tomorrow off (not sure it will help since I have to be back on Wednesday!) and then I'm taking Friday off because my H and I are going out to the beach for his birthday.

Good Luck, I went back to work right after FET and was fine.  Just be careful through because you're not supposed to be submerged in water after FET.  We were told no swimming, no baths, etc.  

Yeah, I've usually stayed home, but one time I had to go back to work for a last minute thing and it actually worked that month. I'm just really trying to manage my stress and cortisol levels and work isn't helping right now.

[moonriver]

Good luck msmerymac !

I had a baseline appointment today and start another (our third) clomid round tonight. My next appointment will be Wednesday morning and we leave for a little vacation Wednesday afternoon. Hoping I respond to the clomid and I’m really looking forward to a few days out of town.

[lexisgrrl1980]

Monitoring appointment on Wednesday then hopefully get the green light for our next transfer on 5/28. Trying to take next week off, mainly because I’m maxed of PTO and need to use some sooner rather then later. Work is crazy so we shall see if that works. If we can maybe heading to the beach after the transfer to relax and get some quality time together.

[joenali]

Getting my iron infusion right now. It will take about an hour. I got lunch! Lol!

[wise_rita]

May 20, 2019 15:39:11 GMT -5 msmerymac said:

I'm doing my FET tomorrow. Super stressed and busy at work today, so I'm just taking all of tomorrow off (not sure it will help since I have to be back on Wednesday!) and then I'm taking Friday off because my H and I are going out to the beach for his birthday.

Good luck!

I'm going in Thursday for a scan after taking two months off against my will.  If all is on track I'll be doing a FET next week.

[VacayVaca]

I had my first IVF monitoring appointment yesterday. So far there are 12 follicles ranging in size from 13mm to 4 mm. My doctor said I'm responding really strongly to the stimulation so he reduced my dosage and I started Cetrotide.

The injections have been going well, but they still don't feel easy. I'm starting to feel mildly uncomfortable with pressure and soreness around my abdomen, so I'm trying to take it easy and stay in a relaxed mindset.

I'm certainly encouraged by a good monitoring appointment yesterday and that the doctor said everything is going great. The retrieval should be sometime Tuesday-Thursday of next week.

[joenali]

May 22, 2019 11:11:18 GMT -5 VacayVaca said:

I had my first IVF monitoring appointment yesterday. So far there are 12 follicles ranging in size from 13mm to 4 mm. My doctor said I'm responding really strongly to the stimulation so he reduced my dosage and I started Cetrotide.

The injections have been going well, but they still don't feel easy. I'm starting to feel mildly uncomfortable with pressure and soreness around my abdomen, so I'm trying to take it easy and stay in a relaxed mindset.

I'm certainly encouraged by a good monitoring appointment yesterday and that the doctor said everything is going great. The retrieval should be sometime Tuesday-Thursday of next week.

I was definitely uncomfortable towards the end of injections. Hang in there! Glad you are responding well.

[lexisgrrl1980]

May 22, 2019 11:11:18 GMT -5 VacayVaca said:

I had my first IVF monitoring appointment yesterday. So far there are 12 follicles ranging in size from 13mm to 4 mm. My doctor said I'm responding really strongly to the stimulation so he reduced my dosage and I started Cetrotide.

The injections have been going well, but they still don't feel easy. I'm starting to feel mildly uncomfortable with pressure and soreness around my abdomen, so I'm trying to take it easy and stay in a relaxed mindset.

I'm certainly encouraged by a good monitoring appointment yesterday and that the doctor said everything is going great. The retrieval should be sometime Tuesday-Thursday of next week.

It does get easier, it just takes time for your body to get used to it.

Got the green light, transfer is set for 5/28. Cautiously optimistic about this go round. Fingers crossed this one works.

[seeyalater52]

I know I havent been around. We are grappling with the hard decision to stop treatment and I’m pretty sure we are done now. It’s just too heartbreaking and there’s no way I can see healing from all of this if we stay in it indefinitely. Even after all the testing we have done there doesn’t seem to be any answers about the infertility or the recurrent loss, which makes me disinclined to sink more emotional and financial resources into another IVF cycle with testing. I feel so guilty and awful for “quitting” when others have been through so much more but the thought of more IVF just leading to more losses makes me feel devastated.

Transfer #5 was this morning and both embryos thawed and expanded nicely as usual. I sobbed through the whole thing. We have now used all 7 of the embryos from our first IVF cycle so it’s the end of this chapter at least, no matter what happens.

Wishing you all the best.

[scm1011]

seeyalater52, good to see you around. Your feelings are 100% understandable, and I wish you peace with whatever comes next.

[stellelinds25]

May 24, 2019 10:44:01 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I know I havent been around. We are grappling with the hard decision to stop treatment and I’m pretty sure we are done now. It’s just too heartbreaking and there’s no way I can see healing from all of this if we stay in it indefinitely. Even after all the testing we have done there doesn’t seem to be any answers about the infertility or the recurrent loss, which makes me disinclined to sink more emotional and financial resources into another IVF cycle with testing. I feel so guilty and awful for “quitting” when others have been through so much more but the thought of more IVF just leading to more losses makes me feel devastated.

Transfer #5 was this morning and both embryos thawed and expanded nicely as usual. I sobbed through the whole thing. We have now used all 7 of the embryos from our first IVF cycle so it’s the end of this chapter at least, no matter what happens.

Wishing you all the best.

I've been thinking about you a lot and wondering how you've been doing. You have absolutely no reason to feel guilty, your emotional and mental well being needs to be ahead of everything else. Wishing you well with transfer #5 and with whatever you decide for the future. <3

[vmars]

seeyalater52, IVF is such a huge mind fuck. I totally understand not wanting to keep going. You need to heal and find some peace. Hoping for only good things for you in the future. Keep us updated. 

[landmermaid]

seeyalater52 this is such an emotional and heartbreaking journey. I truly hope this final transfer works for you. So much love and light headed your way.

[lexisgrrl1980]

May 24, 2019 10:44:01 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I know I havent been around. We are grappling with the hard decision to stop treatment and I’m pretty sure we are done now. It’s just too heartbreaking and there’s no way I can see healing from all of this if we stay in it indefinitely. Even after all the testing we have done there doesn’t seem to be any answers about the infertility or the recurrent loss, which makes me disinclined to sink more emotional and financial resources into another IVF cycle with testing. I feel so guilty and awful for “quitting” when others have been through so much more but the thought of more IVF just leading to more losses makes me feel devastated.

Transfer #5 was this morning and both embryos thawed and expanded nicely as usual. I sobbed through the whole thing. We have now used all 7 of the embryos from our first IVF cycle so it’s the end of this chapter at least, no matter what happens.

Wishing you all the best.

Thinking of you friend. This journey is so heart wrenching. Don’t ever feel guilty for “quitting”, you have to do what’s best for you and your family. Fingers crossed for a good outcome this time, but if not do what’s best for you, it’s not quitting it’s moving on to another chapter in life.

[ilovecandy]

May 24, 2019 10:44:01 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I know I havent been around. We are grappling with the hard decision to stop treatment and I’m pretty sure we are done now. It’s just too heartbreaking and there’s no way I can see healing from all of this if we stay in it indefinitely. Even after all the testing we have done there doesn’t seem to be any answers about the infertility or the recurrent loss, which makes me disinclined to sink more emotional and financial resources into another IVF cycle with testing. I feel so guilty and awful for “quitting” when others have been through so much more but the thought of more IVF just leading to more losses makes me feel devastated.

Transfer #5 was this morning and both embryos thawed and expanded nicely as usual. I sobbed through the whole thing. We have now used all 7 of the embryos from our first IVF cycle so it’s the end of this chapter at least, no matter what happens.

Wishing you all the best.

You have to do what is best for you. It isn't quitting. It is okay to just be done. It is also ok to think you are done and later come back to treatment. You do what you need and feel is best for you. So many hugs I hope this last fet works for you. We went through 8 embryos our first ivf round and subsequent fets. I get it. We also decided we were done after all that. It is okay.

(Obviously we reassessed after awhile and we are doing one more round but that took a long time to come around to. 3 years to be exact).

[joenali]

I’ve been having some thoughts about my age. We just looked at our calendar and want to try for another round of IVF in June. I’m so scared about turning 42 in September. Some of my friends are already grandparents lol! I mean it’s not great when your kid is having a kid in their very early 20s but still! And I have friends who are having babies at my age. I don’t even know how to articulate my thoughts. I just want to be pregnant and hold my little baby. But time is running out day by day. And another round of IVF is no guarantee. Also, after this round I need to get a hysterectomy due to my heavy heavy anemia inducing periods. And that will be it. Done. Can’t try anymore.

[King26]

May 26, 2019 11:28:03 GMT -5 joenali said:

I’ve been having some thoughts about my age. We just looked at our calendar and want to try for another round of IVF in June. I’m so scared about turning 42 in September. Some of my friends are already grandparents lol! I mean it’s not great when your kid is having a kid in their very early 20s but still! And I have friends who are having babies at my age. I don’t even know how to articulate my thoughts. I just want to be pregnant and hold my little baby. But time is running out day by day. And another round of IVF is no guarantee. Also, after this round I need to get a hysterectomy due to my heavy heavy anemia inducing periods. And that will be it. Done. Can’t try anymore.

Hang in there! I know the feeling as we have several friends who are grandparents. My boss at work went to high school with dh and she just had her 8th grandchild! Its nuts

[msmerymac]

joenali, *hugs*

My H's best friend and his wife (both high school classmates of my H) will have two kids in high school this fall. My H is 45. Obviously, it's not great, and having kids in college when he's close to 70 and therefore probably still working isn't ideal, but that's our reality. The other option is... not, which is worse. <3

[msmerymac]

May 24, 2019 10:44:01 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I know I havent been around. We are grappling with the hard decision to stop treatment and I’m pretty sure we are done now. It’s just too heartbreaking and there’s no way I can see healing from all of this if we stay in it indefinitely. Even after all the testing we have done there doesn’t seem to be any answers about the infertility or the recurrent loss, which makes me disinclined to sink more emotional and financial resources into another IVF cycle with testing. I feel so guilty and awful for “quitting” when others have been through so much more but the thought of more IVF just leading to more losses makes me feel devastated.

Transfer #5 was this morning and both embryos thawed and expanded nicely as usual. I sobbed through the whole thing. We have now used all 7 of the embryos from our first IVF cycle so it’s the end of this chapter at least, no matter what happens.

Wishing you all the best.

Hugs to you, too, friend. I've been thinking about you and your journey. Best of luck. I hope you stick around and potentially update us when it's not too painful anymore. I'll be keeping everything crossed for you this cycle. 

[icedcoffee]

Huge hugs seeyalater52. It’s ok to decide to be done. Wishing you guys lots of peace as you plan your next steps. <3

[pickel]

Thinking of you seeyalater52. I’m so sorry that you are in this position. I’ve got my fingers crossed for your transfer and I am praying for peace for you and your DW.

[VacayVaca]

May 24, 2019 10:44:01 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I didn't want to move on without adding to everyone's support.  I've been quietly reading your story and have been disappointed for you as things have not turned out how we all want.  Don't feel guilty in stopping treatment--every path on this journey has an emotional, physical and financial toll and you shouldn't feel badly for choosing what you feel is best at that time.  Take some time to heal from the past year and you can always reassess down the road.  Fingers crossed this last transfer is successful, but be kind to yourself regardless.