Ok, I have a very random, very 2020-esque complaint. So I downloaded TikTok for some mindless entertainment. Only to watch, I would never in a million years record a video, lol. ANYWAY. There's this recurring theme for videos where someone records themselves lip syncing to a recording of someone else singing really well and there's someone in the background or in the car with them who is like "omg I had no idea you could sing like that!" And my ISSUE is that there is NO.WORLD. in which you're playing music out of your GOTDAMN phone and someone RIGHT NEXT TO YOU thinks that noise is coming out of your mouth. None. Never. Ever. So it's a 100% fake reaction. Why? I know there's a ton of "why?" shit on social media period, but this particular thing bugs the SHIT out of me.
I have been lucky in this pandemic that I haven't lived in the same state as my family for almost 20 years, and I am used to being far away from most of my friends, too. I haven't really had friendships where I hang out every week for at least 10 years anyway, so going weeks or months without seeing people don't seem that unusual. But it is also driving home for me that I am, in my general life, missing out on a lot that other people have - the fact that this hasn't been that unusual for me makes me think maybe I'm doing life wrong and I need to form some deeper connections! I do usually see my family at least a couple of times a year, though, so as this drags on I am guessing it will become weirder.
OMG, I've been having the same feelings. I think I'm OK with it, but also wonder if I've just buried the fact that I'm actually kind of lonely.
Post by killercupcake on May 11, 2020 10:59:51 GMT -5
I got really sad last night about all the firsts that we’re most likely not going to get to do with DD. I’m sure it’s the hormone crash, but I just keep thinking about all these things we got to do with DS, like trick or treating or Santa, that we’re not going to do with her and I just want to cry. She won’t know any better but I will. It’s stupid. These are all such trivial things.
I got really sad last night about all the firsts that we’re most likely not going to get to do with DD. I’m sure it’s the hormone crash, but I just keep thinking about all these things we got to do with DS, like trick or treating or Santa, that we’re not going to do with her and I just want to cry. She won’t know any better but I will. It’s stupid. These are all such trivial things.
I hate all of this so fucking much.
I wondered what ToT would look like this year and got a little sad. It’s a weird time, and you just can’t help but long for normalcy.
I got really sad last night about all the firsts that we’re most likely not going to get to do with DD. I’m sure it’s the hormone crash, but I just keep thinking about all these things we got to do with DS, like trick or treating or Santa, that we’re not going to do with her and I just want to cry. She won’t know any better but I will. It’s stupid. These are all such trivial things.
I hate all of this so fucking much.
I don't want this to come off like I'm downplaying your feelings because this does really suck. But when you CAN do those things again, it will still be her first time! Maybe that can still be special? Feel free to tell me to go fuck myself because honestly sometimes I don't want suggestions and would rather have people just agree that it sucks. And it does. I'm sorry
I have been lucky in this pandemic that I haven't lived in the same state as my family for almost 20 years, and I am used to being far away from most of my friends, too. I haven't really had friendships where I hang out every week for at least 10 years anyway, so going weeks or months without seeing people don't seem that unusual. But it is also driving home for me that I am, in my general life, missing out on a lot that other people have - the fact that this hasn't been that unusual for me makes me think maybe I'm doing life wrong and I need to form some deeper connections! I do usually see my family at least a couple of times a year, though, so as this drags on I am guessing it will become weirder.
OMG, I've been having the same feelings. I think I'm OK with it, but also wonder if I've just buried the fact that I'm actually kind of lonely.
Yes! It's a nice feature right now, but maybe once this is all over I need to get to a place where I might miss people more, haha.
I mean I always miss people, but I'm just very used to it I guess.
This morning my doctor & PT told me that if I want more improvement in the pains from diastasis recti I have to have surgery. Y’all I’m so scared of the recovery and have no idea how we would manage. On the other hand, my quality of life is limited.
Good news - the exterior of our house is getting painted today!
I got really sad last night about all the firsts that we’re most likely not going to get to do with DD. I’m sure it’s the hormone crash, but I just keep thinking about all these things we got to do with DS, like trick or treating or Santa, that we’re not going to do with her and I just want to cry. She won’t know any better but I will. It’s stupid. These are all such trivial things.
I hate all of this so fucking much.
We brought DS2 home from the NICU a week before the shit hit the fan. My parents got to meet him briefly as they watched DS1 while we were at the hospital getting discharged. Otherwise no one has met him. I’ve cried a lot of tears over all of this. I’m on Zoloft for PPD which made itself very clear once the lockdowns were in full swing; it helps but It all sucks and I hate it all right along with you. ((Hugs))
This morning my doctor & PT told me that if I want more improvement in the pains from diastasis recti I have to have surgery. Y’all I’m so scared of the recovery and have no idea how we would manage. On the other hand, my quality of life is limited.
Good news - the exterior of our house is getting painted today!
I'm sorry. I had my diastisis recti repaired when I was having my mastectomy / reconstruction. Granted, I was dealing with a lot of surgical trauma, but the DR repair was the "easy" part. I was told that if I was doing it alone, it would have been much easier than my c-section recovery.
I had a super shitty mother's day. DH is not a good gift-giver and generally not into making a big deal about holidays, which I've come to accept over the years and have adjusted my expectations accordingly. But he didn't even say happy mother's day to me and was just generally unhelpful yesterday. DS1 did make me a "mothers day" world in minecraft that he thought I would like to play with him! (LOL! I did not want to play minecraft for mother's day but appreciated the thought!) I went out and bought myself some plants and then ate 3 snickers bars. So that was the highlight of my day.
I got really sad last night about all the firsts that we’re most likely not going to get to do with DD. I’m sure it’s the hormone crash, but I just keep thinking about all these things we got to do with DS, like trick or treating or Santa, that we’re not going to do with her and I just want to cry. She won’t know any better but I will. It’s stupid. These are all such trivial things.
I hate all of this so fucking much.
We brought DS2 home from the NICU a week before the shit hit the fan. My parents got to meet him briefly as they watched DS1 while we were at the hospital getting discharged. Otherwise no one has met him. I’ve cried a lot of tears over all of this. I’m on Zoloft for PPD which made itself very clear once the lockdowns were in full swing; it helps but It all sucks and I hate it all right along with you. ((Hugs))
I am usually similar to heliocentric, wildrice, in that I don't have super close friends and generally am happy to be home. But I'm struggling lately.
I am part of several large groups of friends, but I am not in the inner circle of any of the groups. So I'm included in large group texts and big meet ups, but no one is personally contacting just me about anything. It's just how my friendships are.
I'm usually ok with it, but it's been getting to me lately. I think because large group get togethers are so hard via zoom so I'm not getting the same interaction out of them. Usually I would go to my book club (large group), but have several one on one conversations while there. I am not the type to just give a monologue on a zoom with 15 people about how homeschooling is going for us, or how my relationship with my parents is suffering, or about the status of my kitchen remodel. So I don't really talk much on the group calls. The past couple weeks I've just made excuses and skipped the calls completely.
I also have a good group of neighbor friends, but am not in inner circle. Again, it's usually fine. A lot of their get togethers are a little much for me anyway (I am in my 40s and don't drink, I don't want to go to a dance club till 2 am and get wasted). But then yesterday a couple of them were having a distanced hang out in a yard that I can see from my house, and it kind of bummed me out not to be invited. Or more specifically I guess I'm bummed out not to have anyone that would call me to do a distanced hangout just because they miss me so much.
Under normal circumstances I appear to be very social because I get together with groups of people a lot. But the quarantine is highlighting how shallow my friendships are.
I got really sad last night about all the firsts that we’re most likely not going to get to do with DD. I’m sure it’s the hormone crash, but I just keep thinking about all these things we got to do with DS, like trick or treating or Santa, that we’re not going to do with her and I just want to cry. She won’t know any better but I will. It’s stupid. These are all such trivial things.
I hate all of this so fucking much.
I wondered what ToT would look like this year and got a little sad. It’s a weird time, and you just can’t help but long for normalcy.
I told DH last night that I'm making the kids costumes anyway and we'll do an Easter egg style hunt for candy around the house instead of going door to door.
My mom called my me today to tell me they are going to test her for Covid because someone she was in close contact with has tested positive. I left a message with their head nurse to get more information, but I am very nervous as I do not think my mom would fare well if she were to test positive. She has asthma and was already having a lot of issues with shortness of breath that no one could seem to give us a cause.
And, there is a company I have been doing signings for, nearly 1000 of billable business and they are not paying me. I have three jobs that are overdue (most companies have until 30 days to pay). I am so fucking annoyed. I have called and email and am not getting anything back. this is the same company with the guy who told me to put down my cocktail.
I got really sad last night about all the firsts that we’re most likely not going to get to do with DD. I’m sure it’s the hormone crash, but I just keep thinking about all these things we got to do with DS, like trick or treating or Santa, that we’re not going to do with her and I just want to cry. She won’t know any better but I will. It’s stupid. These are all such trivial things.
I'm feeling anxious because I totally dropped the ball for an event at David's school. I'm room parent and the room parent for the other 5th grade class emailed me on Friday, wanting to do a car parade for the teachers. Great. For some reason, in my mind, I read it as taking place on the last day of school but it's TODAY. And I didn't email the class because she just told me Friday and I figured I had two weeks. She is pissed, I can tell. I feel bad. And I shouldn't even care that much because we are putting David in a different school next year so I'll never see these people again, lol.
I'm feeling anxious because I totally dropped the ball for an event at David's school. I'm room parent and the room parent for the other 5th grade class emailed me on Friday, wanting to do a car parade for the teachers. Great. For some reason, in my mind, I read it as taking place on the last day of school but it's TODAY. And I didn't email the class because she just told me Friday and I figured I had two weeks. She is pissed, I can tell. I feel bad. And I shouldn't even care that much because we are putting David in a different school next year so I'll never see these people again, lol.
Who tries to organize something like that two days before?
I'm feeling anxious because I totally dropped the ball for an event at David's school. I'm room parent and the room parent for the other 5th grade class emailed me on Friday, wanting to do a car parade for the teachers. Great. For some reason, in my mind, I read it as taking place on the last day of school but it's TODAY. And I didn't email the class because she just told me Friday and I figured I had two weeks. She is pissed, I can tell. I feel bad. And I shouldn't even care that much because we are putting David in a different school next year so I'll never see these people again, lol.
Who tries to organize something like that two days before?
That's what I told H! I don't think a lot of parents would have participated with so little notice, anyway. I'll organize a parade for his teacher for the last day of school because I do feel really bad about that and don't want her to feel left out.
I wondered what ToT would look like this year and got a little sad. It’s a weird time, and you just can’t help but long for normalcy.
I told DH last night that I'm making the kids costumes anyway and we'll do an Easter egg style hunt for candy around the house instead of going door to door.
That's a cute idea! DD loved the Easter egg hunt this year so I bet she'd love that.
I wondered what ToT would look like this year and got a little sad. It’s a weird time, and you just can’t help but long for normalcy.
I told DH last night that I'm making the kids costumes anyway and we'll do an Easter egg style hunt for candy around the house instead of going door to door.
So many people are doing construction work right now. It’s been chilly but the few nice days we have had where we can actually go outside have been ruined by endless hammering, saws, generators (which I don’t get because we have electricity) and it’s been giving me migraines. Especially this one house. I don’t know what else they have to do! They have put in a new roof, new siding, painted and put in a deck in the last six weeks or so. What’s left??!
We are lucky enough to live in a part of the city with a yard and I’d like to use it. I’ve only been out twice since March 12th and the thought of being able go outside and be in the hammock or eat dinner outside in warmer weather has been sustaining me.
icedcoffee - I work in accounting for a quarry conglomerate and YES to all the drama! The pavers (who sometimes haul rock for us as well) are almost all related by blood or marriage. We've even had a couple of fights break out in the scalehouse over who got which job.
I have had a headache almost all day, and I'm completely over it...
Post by RoxMonster on May 11, 2020 13:20:32 GMT -5
I think we might put our stimulus money towards getting the exterior of the house painted. I have wanted to paint it since we moved in 8 years ago. We had gotten a quote last summer from College Pro Painters that was very reasonable. We ended up not doing it last year, and I know they'd have to give a new quote since that one expired, but I doubt it would be all that much more. Like I think it was around $3K and we got $2400 in stimulus money, so that would almost cover the whole thing!
The actual painting and work would not worry me as far as contact because I'd be inside the whole time. I figure I am comfortable meeting with the point person for the quote if he wears a mask, we wear a mask, and keep our distance while out in the yard. I just really want to get this fucking house painted.
icedcoffee - I work in accounting for a quarry conglomerate and YES to all the drama! The pavers (who sometimes haul rock for us as well) are almost all related by blood or marriage. We've even had a couple of fights break out in the scalehouse over who got which job.
I have had a headache almost all day, and I'm completely over it...
It's nuts! I keep telling my H it's like a freaking mafia. One of them is totally pissed today at another for giving us a super low bid. My H finally had to tell them to simmer down as we are not making decisions or getting involved in family drama. Who knew!
My mom called my me today to tell me they are going to test her for Covid because someone she was in close contact with has tested positive. I left a message with their head nurse to get more information, but I am very nervous as I do not think my mom would fare well if she were to test positive. She has asthma and was already having a lot of issues with shortness of breath that no one could seem to give us a cause.
From what I have read recently, people with asthma who get covid 19 are doing much better than expected, and many of the bad cases are people who had no prior lung issues.
I had been concerned about my brother because of his asthma and him working public facing, but I'm clinging to that information as a positive, in case he does contract it.