Bad news :(

[linz]

So wed and thurs I got fain but positive lines. Called the dr and b/c i've been dealing with IF they wanted a blood draw. So had planned to go in monday and wednesday of this week at 4 pm. This cycle we were not doing anything, just on metformin. Had plans to do IUI next month so this was a surprise that it happened naturally. Friday I started spotting. I didn't think it was heavy but my periods are always light. I had some cramping but never bad.

Didn't hear anything from the blood draw so hoped it was good news. Nurse called this morning and said it was negative. I asked what that meant exactly and she just said the dr said i wasn't pregnant. WTF? I just don't get it. She said maybe the test was false. I've never heard of this. It isn't expired. I'm gonna take another soon that's from the same box and see. I haven't been temping since I O'd.

I'm just confused and feel like I've been stabbed. I had to leave work b/c I literally couldn't breath. Only a few friends know but I just don't get it. Is this a chemical pg? I feel like I need a clear answer. And now I'm on cd6 if friday my period really did start so this month is out for the IUI. Fuckity fuck fuck. I need about 13 drinks right now.

[Deleted]

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this, linz.

When I had my chemical pregancy/early miscarriage, I had three positive CBE digital HPTs. THREE. After I got my first positive (I tested when I was a few days late), I waited a few days and then decided, hey, why not just finish out the pack because it wasn't like I needed them anymore, right? I was already pregnant, so why not just keep POAS and see it? The other two tests also were positive. And then a week later, I started bleeding & cramping and ended up with a CP/EM.

This experience with my then-ob/gyn was awful. I drank a ton of water before I got to that office because I knew I would need to give a urine sample, yet the assistant that took me in said I didn't need to & could go to the bathroom. So I did. And then 15 mins later she was all "hey, don't kill me but we actually DO need a urine sample, can you give us one." I managed to give one. The doctor examined me, told me & my H she was going to do whatever it took to save our baby. She wrote me a script for progesterone & a vaginal ultrasound and a note for bed rest. We left the office, not even 10 mins later she called me and hand to God said "We did your urine test, you know you're not pregnant, right?" Uh no, I didn't know that. "Did you see two faint lines?" No. "A smiley face?" No, I actually saw the word 'pregnant' you dumb ass.

They scheduled me for blood work. I ended up calling the office for the results & the secretary said "nope, not pregnant." I told her I needed to cancel my upcoming pre-natal appt. She asked me if I wanted to reschedule. I hung up on her. I got pregnant the next cycle & found a new ob/gyn.

[HoneySpider]

I'm so sorry linz It does sound like a cp.

[womet]

I am so sorry linz. {{{hugs}}}

[awkwardpenguin]

I'm so sorry. ((linz))

[KaraOrNot]

I am so sorry. Hugs.

[G22]

I'm so so sorry sweetie. Many hugs coming your way.

[dana2006]

((((Linz))))

[speyedr]

Tons of hugs!

[genet313]

So sorry to hear this.  It does sound like a chemical to me.  No advice, just hugs.  

[discogranny]

I'm sorry to hear this. It does sound like a chemical. I am sorry the doctor's office sucks.

[thatgirl2478]

I'm sorry .

[lola]

I'm so sorry, Linz. (hug) (hug2)    :drink: :drink: :drink:

[bronxgirl]

I'm sorry, linz.  Chemical pgs are such a mindfuck.  Take care of yourself.

[linz]

Thanx girl. I had a good cry all day and feel better. I keep telling myself at least it happened but it still sucks. I made an appt with an RE but can't get in till july. I'm getting an hsg on friday and next month will do IUI #1 with my current dr. If that fails I'll be moving onto the RE. So we'll see. I just keep feeling like if I had never tested I would have just had a late period - which is nothing new, and never known. Such a mind fuck.

Now I'm scared for the hsg. The hell we have to go through.

[azurely]

I am so sorry linz. I agree, sounds like a CP. Hugs to you!

[trace]

I'm so sorry, Linz. Take care.