Confession: I am having the worst time with this breakup. I can't decide if this level of devastation is normal, or if I need to talk to a therapist. It's only been a few days, so I guess this is normal. I'm functioning, but the emotional rollercoaster is out of fucking control. Angry one minute, poor poodle puddle on the floor the next. Constant struggle not to sob.
Flameful: My heart wants him to come back.
Confession/Flameful 2: I am wearing a short (just above knee) dress and am going commando. A bee stung my ass this weekend and today's undies hit it in just a way to cause constant pain.
Post by sawyerthedestroyer on Jun 25, 2013 13:46:08 GMT -5
Today is H's birthday. He didn't want to make a big deal out of it so I didn't plan anything. Not even cake.
Then I started to feel bad so I got up at four this morning and sneaked out of the house. I went to Walmart (24 hours, baby) to get bacon and eggs to make a birthday breakfast for him.
And then I brought a piece of bacon into the bedroom and sang,
"Happy birthday to you, here's bacon for you, There's coffee in the kitchen, some eggs and toast too."
I felt really bad for not doing anything until the last minute.
I got a new blade for my heel rasp and got a little over zealous last night. I have a wound on my heel from my over removal. I have an INJURY of my own making.
Flameful: There's a person I want to call out for being a debbie downer all the freaking time, but she's a hot mess and I'm a chicken.
i want to know who this is because i'm a nosy, little shit, but i don't want you to tell because i don't want someone's feelings to get hurt.
I always worry that people are talking about me when they post things like this, and I can never decide if I want to know they're talking about me or continue to live in ignorant bliss.
Post by midnightrae on Jun 25, 2013 14:21:22 GMT -5
I feel like such a loser lately. I also keep thinking I would be happier if I moved out of this stupid state, but I'd probably be sad wherever I go because I have no life and no friends. I guess it is fine to have part-time job, but I think I would enjoy it more if I actually did something with my time off. But there is nothing for me to do. I don't hang out with people and I don't go anywhere. Going to school stresses me out. I'd rather work, but most jobs require a college degree, which I don't have. FI doesn't mind that I work part-time, but I kind of do. I like to work and I like to make money because I like to spend money. I get good hours during the holiday seasons, but when summer comes around, my hours drop and I get bored and sad(more than usual). What also makes me sad is that on FB and Instagram, I see people hanging out with their friends and all this other stuff that I don't do and probably can't because I don't have friends. I feel really lame and might delete this later.
Post by midnightrae on Jun 25, 2013 14:28:29 GMT -5
pixie FI said maybe in a year. He is worried about leaving our families and the few friends we(read:He) has. We just renewed the lease on our apartment here, but I'm going to still look into it. Yay BFFs!
pixie FI said maybe in a year. He is worried about leaving our families and the few friends we(read:He) has. We just renewed the lease on our apartment here, but I'm going to still look into it. Yay BFFs!
Are you originally from Oregon? It's pretty chill here, as long as you can ignore the fact that it's currently pouring down rain at the end of June. Haha.
We dined and ditched in Italy last year. It was by far the worst restaurant experience I ever had. They seated us in the coat rack - like, I had DH move our table over because I had coats in my face. Then we were ignored, and they were really good at that. We couldn't even make eye contact with a server; no one even accidentally looked our way all night. And because of where our table was placed, DH was the only one who could see anything, and only if he scooted his chair all the way back practically into the next table. We should have left then, but they already served wine (they took our wine order right away and brought that out about 10 minutes later) and we felt obligated. We got menus after about 20 minutes (20 minutes after we got our wine, not 20 minutes after being seated), and then someone finally took our order about 20 or 30 minutes later. The restaurant's specialty was seafood, but they actually served the fishes' HEAD as part of the presentation. We couldn't handle that, so we ordered something else. Our food sucked, and took forever to get to us. After we finished eating, we waited another 30 minutes for someone to check on us so we could ask for the bill. No one checked on us on all night - not to refill our water or offer more wine or anything. We finally flagged down another server to ask for the bill. We weren't even sure who our server was because different people brought the wine, menus and food. After about another 20 minutes, we still had no bill and we'd had enough. We'd been there almost 3 hours at that point and only had one course. I went to the restroom and DH stepped out for a cigarette. When I got back, there was still no bill, no servers in sight, and our dirty dinner dishes were still sitting on the table. I joined DH outside and we never went back in.
You are aware that meals are different in Europe? The coat rack thing sucks but the rest seems normal, no one's going to refill your water and fish heads are pretty common.
Stealing's never acceptable. Did ya'll go to McDonalds after?
pixie FI said maybe in a year. He is worried about leaving our families and the few friends we(read:He) has. We just renewed the lease on our apartment here, but I'm going to still look into it. Yay BFFs!
Are you originally from Oregon? It's pretty chill here, as long as you can ignore the fact that it's currently pouring down rain at the end of June. Haha.
No, but my sister lived there for awhile(and was going to go to Reed) and she thinks I would LOVE it there. Also, a friend from HS thinks I would really like it there as well and he went to college there. Do people drive crazy in the rain there or no since they are actually used to it? If they don't drive crazy, I think I can deal with it. I actually love the rain(I just don't like to drive in it because nobody knows how to drive in the rain in AZ!!) I'm so damn anxious all the time and I think a chill place would help (and the better weather).
Are you originally from Oregon? It's pretty chill here, as long as you can ignore the fact that it's currently pouring down rain at the end of June. Haha.
No, but my sister lived there for awhile(and was going to go to Reed) and she thinks I would LOVE it there. Also, a friend from HS thinks I would really like it there as well and he went to college there. Do people drive crazy in the rain there or no since they are actually used to it? If they don't drive crazy, I think I can deal with it. I actually love the rain(I just don't like to drive in it because nobody knows how to drive in the rain in AZ!!) I'm so damn anxious all the time and I think a chill place would help (and the better weather).
Well, don't hesitate to PM me if you have any questions about any specific areas or anything like that. It's the snow you have to look out for. Everyone is completely sane when dealing with rain driving, but the second there's any amount of snow on the ground everyone loses their minds.
In the spirit of the thread, I'll add a confession: Driving is just one of the many reasons that I HATE snow. Hate hate hate.
A neck tattoo would not be east to cover except with a turtleneck. But carry on! I have tattoos myself. I'm bored at the play space on a rainy day. It looks like My Little Pony barfed in here.
It certainly couldn't be covered with her long, thick red hair! Absolutely not!
A neck tattoo would not be east to cover except with a turtleneck. But carry on! I have tattoos myself. I'm bored at the play space on a rainy day. It looks like My Little Pony barfed in here.
It's a small tattoo. My hair is generally down. I don't think it'll be an issue.
I hear scarves are popular now, too. You have options.
Confession: I am having the worst time with this breakup.
I've been there. I was you depressed to even get to work for a few days. Give it a few weeks and sere if it gets better unless you are having any dangerous thoughts. I've found some time and perspective counts. Also having some friends willing to tell you what a fucking d bag loser he is and how you could do so much better is good too.I hope you feel better soon, it's an awful place to be in.
Thanks. No dangerous thoughts. My friends are awesome and I am grateful they all have offered to kick his face into next week, while refilling my wine glass.
I'm annoyed I have a sunburn but I enjoy peeling my dead skin off. It's satisfying like popping a zit.
Not gonna lie, this is usually me, too. This sunburn is the first time I haven't enjoyed the peeling. I don't know if it's the amount of peeling or what but I actually got kind of queasy at one point, as I was peeling my entire leg off.
It's a discredit to European service to say that 3 hours for one course with no offer of more wine is normal. It's shit service anywhere. Should she have done and dashed? No, but don't act all well traveled because she was upset with poor service. A bad meal is a bad meal (although you have to expect fish heads lol)
They were asked about wine orders, and brought wine. Someone brought menus. Presumably the server came back to take their order. They were served their meal. They asked for the bill.
Yeah, it doesn't sound like a great dining experience, but 3 hours with six contacts with a staff member is not unheard of in Europe by any means.
I'm bummed that camping got rained out and my FIL bailed on us. But to make up for it we took Edmund to the mall to play and he is having a blast. Tomorrow we are going to take a day trip somewhere just the 3 of us.
Post by ProfessorArtNerd on Jun 25, 2013 17:13:18 GMT -5
I'm in a pissing contest at work. Or at least, I am in my own head. Every Tuesday and Thursday night, I have to open up the office just to get a stupid doorstop to keep the classroom door open. I leave it in the classroom every time I lock up. It's never there when I come back. What. The. Fuck.
Also, I am giggling uncontrollably because auto correct made pissing contest into pudding contest. Yay pudding!
I don't know if this is flameful, but I think I might try to go raw(vegan) for awhile.
I read once that a raw diet wasn't optimal in terms of health, because lightly cooking some things can make the vitamins and minerals easier to absorb.
Do you have a link? I'd like to read it. I would like to read different points of view of it. I am planning to do research before starting it as well. It works well for my sister. When looking at recipes, I found a lot of things I can eat without getting sick or having a reaction. I also think it will help the high fiber diet I am supposed to be on.