A figured out this morning that he can get out of bed and open his door even when he's not playing. And "get out of bed" is a loose term because he's been sleeping on the floor since he's had this cold (hopefully it's because the mattress is elevated, and he'll go back?). So that meant everyone was snuggled up in our bed for 10 minutes this morning and it was not fun to leave even though they're a mess. I have major mommy guilt over this cold, and I'm ready to just spend tomorrow snuggling them. Which I'm sure I will get over very quickly when I have to deal with their crankiness. Luckily tomorrow night is our hot date night, and hopefully I don't feel like ass for it.
I found an outlet for all my milk, I've discovered peer donation. There's a 6 wk old born drug-exposed who's gonna fatten up on Chunka's leftovers. Assuming this person isn't a lying creeper who's going to kill me in my sleep.
A figured out this morning that he can get out of bed and open his door even when he's not playing. And "get out of bed" is a loose term because he's been sleeping on the floor since he's had this cold (hopefully it's because the mattress is elevated, and he'll go back?). So that meant everyone was snuggled up in our bed for 10 minutes this morning and it was not fun to leave even though they're a mess. I have major mommy guilt over this cold, and I'm ready to just spend tomorrow snuggling them. Which I'm sure I will get over very quickly when I have to deal with their crankiness. Luckily tomorrow night is our hot date night, and hopefully I don't feel like ass for it.
I found an outlet for all my milk, I've discovered peer donation. There's a 6 wk old born drug-exposed who's gonna fatten up on Chunka's leftovers. Assuming this person isn't a lying creeper who's going to kill me in my sleep.
"Not gonna lie; I kind of keep expecting you to post one day that you threw down on someone who clearly had no idea that today was NOT THEIR DAY." ~dontcallmeshirley
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
I wish I could take all this pain away from you. awkward internet hugs.
I can't tell what's wrong with me or what to do about it. I mean, I'm probably dealing with depression even though I'm not sad. More an unshakeable unease that I'm trying to combat with all the things you're suppose to (projects, rest, exercise, healthy food, etc) and it works to an extent but really I just feel spent. I dislike all my friends, the weather, my husband, feel gross and fat, etc.
I don't know if it's seasonal or deeper. Being pg I am hesitant to restart antidepressants. I feel like a I need a vacation more than anything. Somewhere warm by myself.
I hope things turn around. I've been feeling very "I hate everything" since around November. I think for me it's a mixture of holiday fatigue/disappointment, new ridiculously challenging position at work, feeling fat while DH drops a lb a day, and being broke. Blah.
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
Oh, Pixy. My heart breaks for you.
I am glad your dental appt was otherwise uneventful.
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
(((pixy))) (heart) I so wish there was something any or all of us could do to ease your pain even *thismuch*. You know we all love you so much.
"Not gonna lie; I kind of keep expecting you to post one day that you threw down on someone who clearly had no idea that today was NOT THEIR DAY." ~dontcallmeshirley
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
@earlgrayhot - Hugs! do you have a therapist at least that you can talk to about this stuff? even if you don't go on any meds now, it might help. I really hope things pick up for you soon.
my own random: I've been trying to get an elbow in the door of this one horsey sport that I'd love to do. It's called Ride & Tie, and it's a two human, one horse team, where you take turns running and riding over a 10-30 mile course, leapfrogging past each other. My bright idea being that I just need a friend with a horse who wants to try it, and then I can get my pony fix without having my own horse. Also it'd probably FINALLLY be something that motivated me to stick with working out since I'd have a teammate depending on me. Also Ponies!
There is an event close to me this spring, and I was all set to email the organizer to volunteer to help out - which is my best bet networking to find people looking for a teammate - but it's the weekend of my 5th Anniversary.
I just emailed my husband to ask if it would make me a jerk to be gone half that weekend and stick him with Shorti. I feel bad even asking. Particularly since he's trying to plan a backpacking trip with his friends and that weekend works for everybody but him, and he turned them down without even asking me since it's our anniversary. But that'd be the WHOLE weekend. I'm just talking about sunday. Except I'd be gone before dawn and probably be back after dinner time.
Meh. I really want to do it though. I keep trying to talk my sister into it, but she doesn't have a horse who can do it right now. Her farm is full of pregnant mares and babies who aren't far enough along in their training. Or ponies who are too small for me to ride at all. Why did I have to have a wee little person for a sister who decided to specialize in pony training?
I had oral surgery this morning and aside from being scared to death that my wax "bandages" will fall off and ruin my bone graft, and therefore having had a milkshake for lunch, my gums actually feel okay. But the novocaine or the surgery or something totally jacked my sinuses. My right nostril is right above the area they worked on and it was all numbed up, then started running SO bad for a while, and now I'm stuffed up in both sides. :/
Day 7 of abx and I'm still not 100%. I don't know what this infection was, but it really did a number on me. I'm thankful to no longer be half-dead but part of me is beginning to wonder if 10 days of abx will be enough to slay the dragon.
I want to go one day without my dad sending me his local weather report. I don't give a fuck what the weather is 1000 miles from me.
Obnoxious bragplaint: I'm seriously beginning to wonder if DD needs to skip a grade. Neither H nor I are a fan of this idea AT ALL, but she is breezing her way through the supposed challenge homework and creates her own extracurricular school work out of boredom. Two weekends ago she spent her entire weekend doing a research/writing/craft project on the rain forest just because. I'm at a bit of a loss.
H and I have a date tomorrow night and we can't decide what to do, LOL.
Your kid sounds awesome. Perhaps because she reminds me of myself.
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
I have had a headache all.damn.day. It just occurred to me a few minutes ago to actually take something for it. I blame the headache for messing with my common sense.
Also I bought a metric shitton of GS cookies today. Take that boycott!
A figured out this morning that he can get out of bed and open his door even when he's not playing. And "get out of bed" is a loose term because he's been sleeping on the floor since he's had this cold (hopefully it's because the mattress is elevated, and he'll go back?). So that meant everyone was snuggled up in our bed for 10 minutes this morning and it was not fun to leave even though they're a mess. I have major mommy guilt over this cold, and I'm ready to just spend tomorrow snuggling them. Which I'm sure I will get over very quickly when I have to deal with their crankiness. Luckily tomorrow night is our hot date night, and hopefully I don't feel like ass for it.
I found an outlet for all my milk, I've discovered peer donation. There's a 6 wk old born drug-exposed who's gonna fatten up on Chunka's leftovers. Assuming this person isn't a lying creeper who's going to kill me in my sleep.
Oh man, I so wish there was someone like you near me. I would love to do the BM thing with our next and should try to just induce, but worry it will send me into a weird place of happiness, excitement for a baby and then being mad at my body for it not being easy.
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
I'm sending more awkward internet hugs your way. I want to say that I'm so sorry, but those words just sound so fucking hollow right now. I don't know what else to say, but I wish with all my heart that this wasn't happening to you.
A figured out this morning that he can get out of bed and open his door even when he's not playing. And "get out of bed" is a loose term because he's been sleeping on the floor since he's had this cold (hopefully it's because the mattress is elevated, and he'll go back?). So that meant everyone was snuggled up in our bed for 10 minutes this morning and it was not fun to leave even though they're a mess. I have major mommy guilt over this cold, and I'm ready to just spend tomorrow snuggling them. Which I'm sure I will get over very quickly when I have to deal with their crankiness. Luckily tomorrow night is our hot date night, and hopefully I don't feel like ass for it.
I found an outlet for all my milk, I've discovered peer donation. There's a 6 wk old born drug-exposed who's gonna fatten up on Chunka's leftovers. Assuming this person isn't a lying creeper who's going to kill me in my sleep.
Oh man, I so wish there was someone like you near me. I would love to do the BM thing with our next and should try to just induce, but worry it will send me into a weird place of happiness, excitement for a baby and then being mad at my body for it not being easy.
Check out Human Milk for Human Babies and Eats on Feets. It's pretty much an honor system, but I heard about it here, so maybe you could run into a local you "know" when the time comes
It's over and done until I get the real deal put on in a week.
I was anxious because I didn't know if they'd ask about ZB. They did not realizing what had happened. I didn't break down in the chair, but I did cry. This is so hard.
I am closing in on 5,000 posts (I know that's a drop in the bucket for many of you), so you can expect me to do my best to be a post whore this weekend.
"Not gonna lie; I kind of keep expecting you to post one day that you threw down on someone who clearly had no idea that today was NOT THEIR DAY." ~dontcallmeshirley