NMMR: I'm having a mini I-hate-cancer meltdown.

[Susie]

I just can't deal with this much intrusion on my life from one sort of disease, particularly when I feel so powerless to do anything about it.

Yesterday we found a spot on Doggie Derkins' chest. My 5 year old, hardly-not-a-puppy-to-me fur kid. It looks like an engorged tick, or a blood blister, but it's angry looking and attached all the way around. I took him to the vet today to have it checked out, and the vet's seriousness really freaked me out. He's having surgery to remove it on Wed. AM, and getting it biopsied. We recently found out that a half brother of his died suddenly in March of hemangiosarcoma, and (damn you Wikipedia!) the pictures of dermal hemangiosarcoma look way too close for comfort. His vet didn't do much to allay my fears about that. Not that it's her job to, but you know. Doggie D can't have cancer. He's only 5. It's not time for this stuff yet. And I've been through it with both parents already, which I know doesn't matter, but it makes it feel really unfair. To make it worse, I have to leave Wed. night for 5 days (combination work + family), so I won't be here while he's recovering. Fortunately Calvin will be home with him.

My mom's also having a scan today because they think her cancer may have come back. We won't get results for a couple weeks. My dad's still in remission, but he's my only person who's "won." I'm feeling really overwhelmed and freaked out.

[ijack]

I'm so sorry, that is a lot to handle.

[Deleted]

I'm sorry, that really sucks. I hope you get good news at the vet and your mom at the doctor.

[Pom]

Hugs Susie. I hope it is all good news going forward.

[Deleted]

Hugs. Sending a lot of positive thoughts to you and your family.

[Brie]

Zombie hugs for you (and zombie pets for Doggie Derkins.) I will keep my fingers crossed for all of you.

[madladybride]

I'm so sorry. That's some craptastic news. Keeping my fingers crossed for you.

[thinklikeajellyfish]

I'm so sorry you are dealing with all of that! I'm sending good thoughts your way.

[Mrs.Beagle]

Hugs, Susie. I hope it's good news from here on out.

[litasail]

I'm so so so sorry.

[yellowbrkrd]

I'm sorry, that is a lot to deal with. (((hugs)))

[ssmjlm]

Hugs, so sorry. Hopefully Doggy D and your mom will get good news.

[Deleted]

I'm sorry, that's a lot for anyone to handle. Cancer sucks.

[mbcdefg]

Oh hon, I'm sorry. Hang in there.

[mountainlove]

I'm so sorry.

Cancer does suck.

[barefootcontessa]

Hugs. Cancer sucks big time. I have already lost two friends to cancer and I just turned 40.

[sratsey]

I'm so sorry Hope it turns out to be nothing.

[evans]

That's so much stuff going on at once. Many hugs to you.

I hope both your mom and doggy get good reports.

[hbomdiggity]

Omigosh - we went through something similar with our dog. He had a weird bump on his leg so we took him in to the vet to check it out, but at 3 years old, cancer wasnt even on my mind. About 3 months prior, his dad had suddenly died of that hemo-whatever cancer and the vet (also treated his dad) was super concerned and did a biopsy right away. I was freaked and totally cried. Thankfully it was nothing and just a bump - but it was scary.

Considering what you have been through with the disease - I hope everyone in your fam hears good news.

[simpsongal]

I'm sorry, Susie. F' CANCER!

[Ashley&Scott]

Susie that really sucks. I hope your mom & Doggie D both get positive reports from the doctor.

Zombie hugs

[UMaineTeach]

hoping everything works out

[Susie]

Thanks everybody. I am home by myself now after taking Doggie D to the vet, and was just feeling super stressed. I appreciate the outlet.

I have read that the dermal version of hemangiosarcoma has high success rates with just surgery, so I am hopeful. It is good to remember that. The C-word [that that TN didn't bleep] is just so ominous sounding.

[drloretta]

((HUGS)) That is a LOT to take in.

[wanderlustmom]

I am really sorry. That is terrible.

[womet]

Susie, I am so sorry that you're having to deal with this. {{{hugs}}}

[raangoli]

That is just too much to take in, process and deal with. Sending positive thoughts your way!

[theintended]

Fucking cancer! I'm sorry. : (

[krystee]

Susie, I am so sorry you are going through all that. Good thoughts and prayers for your puppy and mom!

[giantsgirl]

Cancer is a bitch. Hopefully you start to get better news about your mom and your dog later this week! *hugs*