Fucking Friday

[partiallysunny]

I made coffee this morning and had no creamer. And the milk was bad.

So I went to DD. Blessing in disguise?

I'm excited for the weekend. I'm taking Kid to see his first movie. Should be interesting.

I've started to research daycare for what seems like my impending separation.

[cuddlyevil]

What movie are you going to see?

And what's this about an impending separation? I thought things looked like they might improve? What happened?

[partiallysunny]

The only kids movie playing right now, lol. The Lego Movie.

Long story short, he's still not taken his medication. He refuses and I've given him a month to come to terms with it. I gave him the choice to call his doctor and go see a psychologist. He said he'd call today... Let's just say I don't have much hope of this improving. He might surprise me, but I think I need to be prepared if he doesn't follow through.

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I'm sorry partiallysunny. I'm sending you hugs.

[cuddlyevil]

The lego movie is fun, you'll like it!

I'm sorry hon I'm proud of you for coming up with a plan just in case.

[partiallysunny]

Thanks doglove. I'm trying to come to terms with it. It seems surreal right now.

[tiramisu]

((((partiallysunny))))

I'm sorry. I was hoping he would take you seriously and actually make an effort.

The Lego Movie is so much fun. I saw it with two other adults and we all enjoyed it.

[partiallysunny]

tiramisu me too I think it all boils down to him just not being ready and me no longer wanting to wait for him to be ready.

[cuddlyevil]

Y'know PS, that's okay.

That's where I was with stbx, he wasn't ready to be the husband/father the kids and I needed him to be and I got tired of waiting/asking him to be something he wasn't.

Do you think it will stay amicable?

[tiramisu]

Feb 28, 2014 9:21:50 GMT -5 partiallysunny said:

tiramisu me too I think it all boils down to him just not being ready and me no longer wanting to wait for him to be ready.

And that's totally okay for you to decide. You deserve someone who is willing to take the steps to be an equal partner instead of asking you to carry that load. Eventually you get tired of carrying your partner and it really was never a fair thing for them to ask you to do.

[partiallysunny]

Feb 28, 2014 9:27:01 GMT -5 cuddlyevil said:

Y'know PS, that's okay.

That's where I was with stbx, he wasn't ready to be the husband/father the kids and I needed him to be and I got tired of waiting/asking him to be something he wasn't.

Do you think it will stay amicable?

I want to think so. I still care for him. I love him. I know he still loves me. But when he's emotionally hurt, he does tend to lash out. He might be bitter for awhile, which is understandable but will make things harder.

[Chirp]

partiallysunny I'm so sorry. I was hoping he'd get it together for you.

You know I'm around if you ever need to talk.

Enjoy the movie. It looks really funny on the previews.

[starrieskies]

Big, huge hugs, partiallysunny... I'm so sorry.

I am so glad it's Friday!! This week has been awful. Did some interviewing for an admin assistant that I will be sharing with one other person in the office and we picked one. She wasn't my first choice, but the other person just loved her and I figured I'd give her a shot. She works part time somewhere else so we could have her come in for a couple of days to "try each other on" before committing and having her full time... guys I don't think she's going to make it. It's killing me because she's so sweet and nice and I can see that she's trying so hard... But I just don't think she's a good fit... I have to make a decision on her by Tuesday. I think my mind is already made up, but I don't like it... I'm going to try to keep an open mind about her and see how she handles my phones and my customers on Monday. It's seriously stressing me out though.

[partiallysunny]

starrieskies you have to fire her? eep

[captainmel]

Hugs for partiallysunny. Everyone else said smart things already so I'm just going to say you're awesome and hard working and capable of doing anything you decide.

[pinkplasticdoll]

starrieskies I am sorry that is rough, I am glad you got to try her on before committing to her full time.

partiallysunny I am sorry, i know that you have been hoping that he would keep it together.

I woke up this morning with kind of a headache from not enough water last night blah. It is supposed to be mid 70's today and tomorrow so I am going to run outside this afternoon. We got our tax return and paycheck and I am nervous to see our bank account so full, I want to buy all the things.

[tiramisu]

I made coffee correctly the first time this morning. Water, grounds, everything. Proud moment.

We're supposed to have thunderstorms at times today and I'm so excited.

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partiallysunny
I am sorry that things are ending up this way for you, but i really do believe you will be so much happier.

Today I drop Duke off at his new forever home and i am having big regrets letting him go. We love him so much and he loves us, and now im giving him away. they are a great couple and i know they will love him too, but i feel awful.

[gault]

I'm sorry, partiallysunny. I hoped he would get it together for you.

And hugs mags. You're a good person and it really shows through all the love you've given to this pup and how much you care about him.

[margarita]

Big hugs, partiallysunny. We are all here for you.

[partiallysunny]

Poor mags is he your first foster?

[captainmel]

mags, hugs. I have thought about fostering kitties and I don't think I could ever let them go. You're doing amazing things for Duke though.

[tiramisu]

Many big hugs, mags. I can only imagine how difficult this is. You are doing a wonderful thing even though it feels terrible. I don't think I would have the strength to do it.

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Feb 28, 2014 11:49:03 GMT -5 partiallysunny said:

Poor mags is he your first foster?

Yes, we have had him for 4 months. He is the best dog EVER!

[partiallysunny]

Feb 28, 2014 13:56:48 GMT -5 mags said:

Feb 28, 2014 11:49:03 GMT -5 partiallysunny said:

Poor mags is he your first foster?

Yes, we have had him for 4 months. He is the best dog EVER!

And this is why I could never foster. You did good, mags.

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Feb 28, 2014 11:21:51 GMT -5 mags said:

Today I drop Duke off at his new forever home and i am having big regrets letting him go. We love him so much and he loves us, and now im giving him away. they are a great couple and i know they will love him too, but i feel awful.

(hug) (hug2)

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backstory..Duke's owner died of pancreatic cancer in sept. we got him shortly after...and I just received and email thanking me for giving Jim his last wish. All he as worried about was Duke finding a good home after he was gone...and we were able to do that for him. I guess that is something..

now im going back to wine and girl scout cookies...

[starrieskies]

Big Hugs, mags!! I could never foster... I'd be that crazy person with a million animals.

I had a random interaction with someone on OKCupid today... I probably should have responded differently, but here it is for your reading pleasure:

Him: Hi

Me: Hi

Him: I just thought I'd holler

Me: Don't holler too loud. You might scare somebody!

This whole interaction took place over the course of about an hour..

[margarita]

Feb 28, 2014 17:50:01 GMT -5 starrieskies said:

Big Hugs, mags!! I could never foster... I'd be that crazy person with a million animals.

Same here, 100%. I could never do it.

Well done, mags. I'm sorry you're hurting. You did a wonderful thing for Duke (and his previous owner.)

[cuddlyevil]

Hugs mags.

Starries, did he reply?