Post by HoneySpider on Apr 10, 2014 13:55:24 GMT -5
Anyone want to share?
I think I may have had a CP in Dec but I don't know for sure and it kind of bothers me that I don't know.
I tested on 8DPO and 9DPO and both days got a 2nd line but after the 5 min window, so I couldn't count it as a + but since it was early, I figured it would be positive in another few days. (I have POAS many, many times and never had a 2nd line of any kind ever except when I was pregnant) I also had a temp dip at 6DPO that went way below coverline and I have never had a temp go below before.
Well I never got that far because on 9DPO, AF showed up. It came in full force, bright red bleeding. Normally I have 1-2 days of brown spotting before the red blood. My LP is normally 11 days, once it was 10 but never anything less and this made it 8 days.
At the time I considered the possibility of a CP but figured I was just trying to convince myself of it and that in reality, I probably had some bad tests (used Wondfos, so notorious for bad batches).
Well the next cycle AF lasted 9 days (long for me) and I didn't O until CD28 which is super late for me (always CD 16-20) so it definitely seems by body was off.
I know it doesn't really make a difference in the grand scheme of things but I wish I knew, you know? I didn't say anything at the time because, like I said, I figured it was probably in my head but now I don't know. I hate not having answers.
My confession is that I'm convinced that I am pregnant. I'm 6DPO. I have been convinced since the 1DPO. (I didn't even get crosshairs until today because of a slow temp rise. Urg....
My confession is that I'm convinced that I am pregnant. I'm 6DPO. I have been convinced since the 1DPO. (I didn't even get crosshairs until today because of a slow temp rise. Urg....
I don't know if I should take a break (talking a few weeks here) from dancing. I've made it through such a rough year already. But I can tell my instructor is frustrated with my lack of progress. Normally, I'm much more advanced. It's just been a rough year emotionally. My lack of focus is apparent to me and him....
I know that the house should work itself out in a few weeks and that's one less thing I'll have to focus on.
I don't know if I should take a break (talking a few weeks here) from dancing. I've made it through such a rough year already. But I can tell my instructor is frustrated with my lack of progress. Normally, I'm much more advanced. It's just been a rough year emotionally. My lack of focus is apparent to me and him....
I know that the house should work itself out in a few weeks and that's one less thing I'll have to focus on.
Is there a downside to taking a break?
Continued house vibes to you, it will all work out soon!
I don't know if I should take a break (talking a few weeks here) from dancing. I've made it through such a rough year already. But I can tell my instructor is frustrated with my lack of progress. Normally, I'm much more advanced. It's just been a rough year emotionally. My lack of focus is apparent to me and him....
I know that the house should work itself out in a few weeks and that's one less thing I'll have to focus on.
Is there a downside to taking a break?
Continued house vibes to you, it will all work out soon!
Downside: I like it and it's a great distraction.
But it's obvious he's frustrated (and I'm frustrated) at my lack of progress. I'm a competition level dancer dancing at a social level right now...he's made comments about my lack of practice. I'm fearful he'll drop me fromm his roster....which is dumb. He's joked with me about my not dropping HIM. He doesn't know anything that has gone on this year. He only knows about the house. He's been patient when I had to take a few weeks off back in January when everything happened. I also don't want to be labeled as the "emotional wreck" student. I know it's silly....I've only shared with him that it's been a rough year and I'm doing my best. The dance community are a bunch of gossips so you can't tell people crap.
Still undecided. I'm hoping I'll figure out some answers by my next lesson.
Post by HoneySpider on Apr 10, 2014 14:42:49 GMT -5
My cell phone is an old flip phone from 2009 When I left my job last summer we had to really tighten the budget and so I had to get rid of my smartphone. I think I'm the only person under the age of 60 with a flip phone. It's kind of embarrassing.
Post by HoneySpider on Apr 10, 2014 14:44:00 GMT -5
MrsMB yeah that is tough, I wouldn't want to tell him everything especially if you know people are going to gossip. He should just chill and give you some space for a little bit.
Post by melsamoony on Apr 10, 2014 14:48:19 GMT -5
MrsMB ((hugs)) I hope the house stuff works out super fast. I agree with HoneySpider is there a downside to taking a break? Does dancing help relieve stress? If it does keep on going but if not take a little break til things calm down a bit if you need to.
Post by estrellita on Apr 10, 2014 15:04:40 GMT -5
I'm afraid seeing my friend's baby this weekend will make me sad. The friends I'll be with know we're trying but they wouldn't understand because they either got pregnant right away or aren't trying at all. It's frustrating not having anyone other than h to talk to about this away from here of course.
Post by HoneySpider on Apr 10, 2014 15:06:11 GMT -5
((jjwritergirl)) I don't think that makes you a terrible person, it's a hard situation to be in and you're making the decision you feel is right in your heart.
jjwritergirl You're not a bad person at all. I had bad feelings about my Grandmother's passing in January (I felt bad - but it's really complicated). I understand where you're coming from. I think at the end of the day, we feel better knowing we were true to our feelings.
Post by elliemonster21 on Apr 10, 2014 15:27:58 GMT -5
((HoneySpiderestrellitajjwritergirl)) I dealt with a CP last cycle and it was the WORST. You get that glimmer of hope and then BAM. My maternal grandma is a terrible person and if she was out of state, I wouldn't want to go either, so don't feel bad...you aren't alone! And I'm currently planning my brothers baby shower and it is really starting to get to me. I feel y'all
My "best friend" is moving to Hawaii and I couldn't care less. She has become a different person and I can't stand her 90....5% of the time. She is negative, condescending and hypocritical ALL of the time. I just am too much of a pansy to cut her off on my own so this is perfect, lol. H hates her...always has. All of my other friends can't stand her. I could go on for days but I try to limit my negative nancy rants to when I'm drinking .
Post by cactuscookie on Apr 10, 2014 15:50:03 GMT -5
jjwritergirl, then I'm a bad person too. My grandmother, my only grandparent ever, is in extremely poor health, but I don't expect to feel sad when she dies. I'll feel sad for my mom, because it'll be hard for her, but I hardly knew my grandmother because she's always lived across the country. What memories I do have of her growing up aren't particularly positive. I did move closer and get to spend some better time with her as an adult, right before her Alzheimer's got really bad, and I'm glad for that time. But I moved away 11 years ago and have hardly had any contact with her since.
I've talked to my brother about it, and I know he feels the same way, so that makes me feel a little less guilty.
Post by luv2rn4fun on Apr 10, 2014 15:52:11 GMT -5
((hugs)) HoneySpider That is so frustrating having those unanswered questions and not knowing. I'm so sorry you are dealing with that on top of everything else TTC-wise.
awick14- I really hope your intuitions are right and your are pregnant this month!! Praying for you!! When do you start testing?
MrsMB- I would take a break from dancing, especially if it's causing you more stress than helping. You definitely don't need that right now. Also, your instructor should back off and give you space...he knows about the house and that in and of itself is a lot without everything else going on. Praying that things start looking up on the house front and that is one BIG thing off your checklist soon! ((hugs))
jjwritergirl- you definitely are not a bad person...in fact, HoneySpider just had a post created saying how awesome you are and we all agree...verdict is in and you are awesome! I would feel the exact same way and would make the same decision...no shame there.
melsamoony- I would put your foot down and say something. It seems like the demands are very unrealistic.
estrellita- Good luck this weekend. I hope you are able to enjoy your friend's baby without being too sad...although being sad is completely understandable Sending you lots of ((hugs)) and praying you get your BFP and take home baby soon!
elliemonster21- Big ((hugs)). So sorry about your CP...I can only imagine how hard that is. As for you friend, I would definitely cut her off, moving to Hawaii or not. Sounds like she doesn't bring anything good to your life these days.
I will try to hold off until next wed at 12 DPO, but I lovely poster on these boards gave me some wondfos, and I have never used them before and they may be tempting starting on Monday.
Regardless I will wait until Monday! I have a party sat night and it's also the anniversary for my first lost so I plan on drinking!!
H wanted to avoid this month because he is adamant about not having a kid with a Christmas time birthday. I did not mention that it was my FW when he initiated at the end of last month. I go back and forth between feeling hopeful that this is the month (no usual PMS symptoms yet) to feeling guilty (due date would be 12/20). I haven't gotten my hopes up since last summer, but I'm trying to distract myself so I don't feel a hard crash if AF arrives on Sunday.