Post by yellowbrkrd on Jul 17, 2012 17:01:10 GMT -5
I have cramps and headache today. While helping DH put flee stuff on the dogs he swung his arm back and smacked me in the forehead with his elbow. Now my head hurts even more than it did.
I am also having a difficult time at work. this sounds dumb, but I am used to being good at what I do. I was an awesome student and only had incredibly positive feedback at every other job I've worked at--like "omg what will we ever do without tacom?!" feedback.
this summer is just different. due to the nature of my work, EVERYTHING I do or say is analyzed under a magnifying glass, and my bosses are very direct with their negative feedback (which is cloaked as constructive criticism). it is hard for me to not feel deflated. then I feel dumb for not having thick enough skin.
I am also having a difficult time at work. this sounds dumb, but I am used to being good at what I do. I was an awesome student and only had incredibly positive feedback at every other job I've worked at--like "omg what will we ever do without tacom?!" feedback.
this summer is just different. due to the nature of my work, EVERYTHING I do or say is analyzed under a magnifying glass, and my bosses are very direct with their negative feedback (which is cloaked as constructive criticism). it is hard for me to not feel deflated. then I feel dumb for not having thick enough skin.
I want the weekend to come.
Aww, I know how you feel. I have gotten very little positive feedback in my Ph.D. program. I actually ended up in therapy, partly due to this. At my lowest point I told H that I had ruined my life. So I don't think your concern sounds dumb at all. It could very well be a personality clash. Is this job just for the summer?
Aww, I know how you feel. I have gotten very little positive feedback in my Ph.D. program. I actually ended up in therapy, partly due to this. At my lowest point I told H that I had ruined my life. So I don't think your concern sounds dumb at all. It could very well be a personality clash. Is this job just for the summer?
thank you for the empathy.
it is just a summer job. and I really, really like the work I get to do with our kids. I don't know if it is a personality clash as much as an intensive program where expectations for performance are incredibly high. my coworkers are all very similar (high achieving, strong communication skills, super smart) and we all receive similar feedback. it is just very different than what I/we are used to, and I've never felt so inadequate.
I really wish my professors would have prepared me a little more for this. looking back, I could have used a good kick in the rear instead of consistent praise--because now I'm having a hard time putting on a strong face.
I really wish it would warm up here so I can wear this new exercise tank top I bought. It has been over 10 years since I have worn one to show off my arms.
h is playing guitar downstairs and landlord's fiance just started playing the accompaniment on piano upstairs. safe to say that this house is not soundproof, haha.
h is so excited to have a new musician friend though. i'd guess there will be many evenings of this to come.